It's been very hot in the city lately, as August surges forward. I'm glad we have good A/C in our apartment. I'd hate to be pushing 9 months pregnant without it.
Irregardless, sleep is often a challenge for meâwell, many things are a challenge for me at the momentâbut sleep seems to be chief among them. It happened a bit during my first pregnancy too. I'm kind of a stomach sleeper, but obviously I can't do that these days. John is a stomach sleeper, too, and I often look at him snoozing away with mild jealousy as I toss and turn. I've been sleeping on my left sideâthat's the best side to sleep on during pregnancyâand while I do sleep, I also wake up about a dozen times in the night, whether it's because I have a weird dream, or I need to pee, or I have a weird dream about peeing, or...well, you get the picture.
Something else gets me up this morning. The sound of the A/C. I don't know. I pick up my phone. It's 5:09am and those first brief hints of sunlight are peeking into the sky. I slowly lift myself out of bed and go pee anywayâbecause I always have to go pee these daysâand then come back to the bed and lie back down. I try to shut my eyes and will myself back to sleep but that's not doing it. I feel John roll over so he's facing my back. His breath hits me and I think I know what I need to do.
I shift myself back across the bed and kind of snuggle up against him. You know, like I'm the little spoon. I take his arm and put it on my belly, wrapping it around me as much as it will reach. I feel his arm tighten around me, pulling me closer against him. He may not be awake, but I know I've got him.
Most nights, John falls asleep with his arm wrapped around my belly in some way, whether it's across the front of me, or kind of cradling me from underneath. I love that so muchâit makes me feel warm and protected. But he rolls around during the night and so we tend to not wake up that way. Sometimes, though, I'll do what I'm doing right now, just to see where it takes us.
As I feel him pulling me closer, I shift my butt backward so it's right in his crotch. I feel his cock and I wiggle against it a little more. I feel him kiss the back of my neckâhe's awake!âand he starts rubbing his hand around my belly. I smile. Few things make me feel happier than him touching my belly, feeling our baby growing and moving inside me.
But that's not all I want from him right now. I reach downwardâas much as I'm ableâand start to shimmy out of my shorts. Suddenly, I feel John's hand reaching across my butt. He gives me a quick squeeze, then pulls my shorts down himself. I think he got the message. I smile and wiggle my butt against him some more. I can feel he's hard. He kisses my neck some more. That's about all I need, especially these days. Pregnancy has made my body so, so touch sensitiveâespecially when it's John's touchâso it doesn't take much to get me going. I can already feel my own wetness down there.
I reach behind myself and run my hand down John's stomach. He's definitely hard. I know. He loves his sexy preggo wife. I grab his cock and stroke it softly. He runs his hand up my belly and cups one of my breastsâthe right oneâand starts rubbing his fingers around my nipple. I shiver. Want to make me feel like I could run up the side of a building? Do that! There's a little bit of leakage coming from them. He brushes it off and sticks his finger in my mouth. We've both drank plenty of my breastmilkâJohn especiallyâHe says it has sort of a sugar water-y kind of taste. I find it a bit more neutral. Nonetheless, I think the fact that I make milk out of my body is amazing. I wipe a drop off myself and put my finger in John's mouth. He licks it off and gives me a gentle bite.
Now, it's showtime. I open my legs up a bit and let him enter me. I'm very warm and moist down there right now and he slips in easily. I moan, softly, as he starts to thrust inside me. That feeling of him sliding in and out of me as his chest presses against my back and the hard, two-day stubble on his face scratches against my neck is absolute heaven. I feel his hand rub and then grip my bellyâat now 36 weeks the belly is really hard and firm so he can't get too much of a grip, but he has his waysâand I put my hand on top of his. I start to feel our baby gently rolling around inside me. She's clearly been woken up by mommy getting jostled around. But we both love that feeling, especially during sex. It's sort of a little reminder of how we've fulfilled our relationship and our fantasies. It's an incredibly intimate feeling even if you don't have our kink. Mix in that feeling of eroticism and...OMG. When he feels it, he pulls me closer and starts kissing my neck some more. He begins to gently bite my back and shoulders. I can feel my body start to bubble inside, like that orgasm is a volcano ready to erupt.
John slides his other arm underneath my left hip and cradles my belly from underneath. He now has both his arms wrapped around my roundness (and I mean I'm seriously round at this point) and uses that to pull me closer to him. It allows him to push deeper and deeper inside me, to the point where I feel like I could split open in ecstasy. I have no words at this point, just guttural moans as that sensation builds. He's drilling away inside me, biting my back and intermittently licking my neck. He moves his right hand up to my breast one more time and begins playing with my nipple, and that's it. I'm done. I close my eyes tight and let out a long, low howl as an orgasm rocks my body.
My pregnancy orgasms are so intense. My body feels limp and there are tears running down my cheeks. My breasts and belly are heaving as I breathe deeply. But he's not finished. He's still thrusting away and I can feel a second orgasm begin to build. I put my hand on top of his right, which is still on my breast, and I squeeze. Milkâcolostrum perhaps?âstarts to drip all over the place. I push my butt back against him some more and as I feel him flex and start to cum, I have another orgasm. This one is just as intense, and I shake some more and my eyes roll up into my head. I squeeze John's hand even harder, to the point where there's now milk dripping across me and onto the sheets. I don't care. I can only see stars. He slides out of me after a moment and I lean back into him. He moves his hand back to my belly. I begin to relax as my breath slows down. I nestle myself against him, his cum sitting in my vagina and I'm asleep within moments with a smile on my face.
***
It's after 9 when I wake up for real. This is sort of late for me but on the other hand, I'm 36 weeks pregnant now and this was the point in my first pregnancy where physically I kind of hit a wall. Sometimes I feel like I'm just too large to do much of anything. I'm mostly either just hungry, or tired. I pee constantly. My boobs are always drippy. My back, neck, legs, feet, hips and basically everything else hurt.
In spite of all this, I feel fierce and sexy. When I look in the mirror, I can only smile.
I slowly hoist myself up in bed so I'm sitting a bit more upright. As soon as I get myself to that point...I gotta pee. So I swing my legs off the bed and get up. I've been practicing kegel exercisesâmy doctor told me this would help empty my bladder a bit moreâbut it hasn't been quite as effective as I'd like it to be. It doesn't help that I probably down about a gallon of water a day. Or at least it seems that way. The empty cup on my nightstand would indicate as much.
I take my cup and waddle out into the kitchen. John is there, having breakfast with Hannah. He made pancakes. With some strawberry maple sauce that he concocted. I try not to get too gushy about John and how amazing he is, but, come on. He cooks for me, too. He left me a plate for whenever I got myself out of bed. And he's sitting here feeding our daughter.
"Hannah, here's mommy! Say good morning to mommy," he says.
Hannah smiles and yells "Mama!" a few times while whacking her highchair tray.
"Hi sweetie!" I say as I give her a kiss. "Boy, daddy made you a real nice breakfast, didn't he?"
I feel John's hand on my butt. I turn to him and give him a kiss.
"Daddy sure knows how to take care of mommy," I say to him. He shrugs and grins.
"You know I love taking care of my girls," he says, as he touches my belly. "All my girls."
I smile and bury my head in his chest for a moment. Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed with emotion when he gets like thisâit's those pregnancy hormonesâI stop, take a breath, and then go sit down at the counter. John goes back to feeding Hannah.
It's endlessly entertaining watching John and Hannah interact. He talks to her like she's a teenager, kind of wry and witty. She'll babble and he'll say something like, "Oh, I agree," or "I might have done something different." Or he'll start explaining things about Theater to her. All the while she looks at him so adoringly.
You want to know what I find sexy? I mean aside from being pregnant?
Watching him being an involved and present father is sexy. Watching him help her fork pancake into her mouth is sexy. She finishes eating and he picks her up. Watching the muscles in his arms and shoulders expand as he picks her up and kisses her is sexy.
Aaaaaaand, I'm horny again. What else is new.
***
Today's the day Danielle is visiting! We've been looking forward to it for a while. She isn't bringing the kidsâit's just her coming up for the afternoonâbut it's going to be so nice to see her. And I know she's looking forward to seeing just how pregnant I am.