51
Alone in the hotel room, dressed in this outfit that made me feel more sissy and slutty than being naked would have, I started to pace. More than once I lifted my wrist to check the time, only to be reminded that my watch had been taken along with my other possessions. I was just about to reach for the bag left on the corner of the bed, to see what Liam had left behind, when there was a knock on the door.
Something close to panic set in. Even just opening the door would be a humiliation. I took a deep breath and stepped to the door. I looked through the viewer in the door and there he was. I recognised his face from the store. That was a comfort at least.
I unlocked the door and stepped back as I pulled it open, staying out of sight as best I could. He stepped inside and let the door close behind him. We stood for a moment in silence before I gathered myself and invited him in, out of the tiny entrance hallway.
I could feel his eyes on me and I couldn't help but look at him as well. What I was noticing was just how normal he looked compared to me. He stood there as a man, tall and fit, dressed in jeans and a button-up shirt, in this hotel room with me, while I was displayed before him as an emasculated sissy, in my mesh top and a skirt that wasn't long enough to reach the tops of my stockings.
"It's really good to see you again, Crissy," he said, breaking the silence.
He sounded so nervous and so sincere. It made me feel a bit more at ease.
"Thank you. It's good to see you too. It's flattering that you wanted to," I replied.
"Oh god, are you kidding? It's been just about impossible for me to think about anything else but you."
"Really? That's really, I don't know, flattering and strange and nice to hear."
"Yes, really. I'm sorry if I'm nervous. This is kind of new to me," he said.
"Believe it or not, so am I," I confessed.
"Well, I certainly couldn't tell. I mean, you, uhm, you did a really good job," he said, starting to blush.
We both knew he was talking about me sucking his cock, but he couldn't quite say the words. It didn't help that we were both awkwardly standing, with only a single chair tucked against a small table and the king sized bed available as seating options.
I gestured towards the chair, offering it to him, and I perched myself on the corner of the bed. I was feeling curious about him, wondering if his story was anything at all like mine.
"You mentioned in your email that you had a girlfriend?" I asked.
I saw his face redden.
"Yes, I do. Sarah. She doesn't know anything about this," he stammered.
"Neither does my wife," I said, hoping it would comfort him.
"I read that. That's really hot."
I had to remind myself that he'd likely read every word of confession I'd posted online.
"Is it? When I read about your girlfriend, I guess I wondered what would have happened to me if all this was happening to me before I got married. Where I'd be now, you know?"
"For sure, I can see that. I keep fantasising about all this, about having someone like your Master help make me fully gay, but I can't quite find the courage to break it off with her."
"She doesn't suspect anything? You've never tried to talk to her about it? About what you like?"
"I don't think she does. I mean, lately I think I've been less interested in sex with her, but she hasn't said anything. But no, I haven't really dared to be honest about this. I couldn't. I know her well enough that it wouldn't go anywhere. Besides, with all this, there really isn't a place for her, is there? Other than my fear or fantasy of her discovering me, she hardly plays a part in my fantasies at all anymore."
"How about your roommate?"
"He doesn't know anything either, I don't think. As far as he's ever let on, he's nothing but 100% straight."
"Does that make it hotter for you that way, or do you just wish he was gay?"
"I honestly don't know. Part of me wishes he was gay so it would be easier to come on to him, but another part wants him to be as surprised by my lust for him as Sarah would be. You know, kind of judging me."
It was a strange feeling to understand him perfectly.
"Yes, I get it. You want to feel the taboo of it. It's powerful to have a sexy, dangerous secret."
He squirmed a bit in his chair.
"Exactly. The secret of it makes it so powerful. It also gives power to those who do know, right?"
"Yes. Once they know your secret, they have the power to expose it, and you."
I knew that power all too well.
"That's why you gave me her name, wasn't it? You wanted me to know, to add to the risk?"
"Yes, I guess so," he confessed.
"If you are new to this kind of thing, acting on these desires, can I ask what you've been doing until now? Do you chat online, or dress up?" I asked.
"A bit of both, I guess."
"Oh? Do you have your own clothes to dress up in?"
"I have one or two things..." he answered, and I saw him squirm a bit as his voice trailed off.
I smiled.
"Are you wearing them now, Mallory?" I asked.
He looked down at the floor.
"Yes, I am."
"Will you show me?" I asked.
"Sure, I mean, yes, of course, if you want me to," he managed to answer.
He rose slowly out of his chair and began to unbutton his shirt. When he removed it, I saw that he was wearing a tight white tank top with the Hooters logo across the chest and "Hooters Girl" written in block letters beneath it. I smiled at him, and he kept going.