Yes. Finally, the moment came when I would have to confess my sins, my intimate secrets, to Elizabeth. Knowing her, she won't give up and will pursue the topic until I say everything as if in a confession. I wonder what the penance will be. I suppose there can only be one - flogging.
I don't know why, but somehow I was afraid of what was to come and this conversation with her. A moment ago, I was listening and she was talking. And now, in a moment, the situation will be the other way around, I will have to talk and she will look down on me.
But why was I afraid? I wanted it myself. I always wanted everything to be clear between us and had dreams of my stepmother dominating me. So now I have a chance to explain everything to her. If I don't do it now, then when? After all, she won't learn about my intimate needs in any other way than through my honest confessions. Or maybe she already guesses, already knows, but now she's waiting for confirmation from me.
I finally got up from her thighs and sat down next to her. We looked deeply into each other's eyes with a smile on our faces.
"Are you up already, babe?" she asked, stroking my cheek with her right gloved palm. "I thought you would talk to me while lying on my thighs for a while? You would probably feel more comfortable under the caring hand of your loving stepmother." She still held the whip in her left hand, stroking it against the shaft of her boot and tapping it gently.
"Yes." I replied. "You know, I've come to the conclusion that what I want to tell you now, confess to you, requires me to act differently towards you right now."
"Differently? What do you mean, darling?" she asked, frowning slightly in surprise.
"Maybe it would be better if I show you and get straight to the point," I stood up from the couch and knelt down in front of her.
"Oh, honey," my stepmother put the whip back where I had been sitting a moment ago, grabbing my arms with her gloved hands and trying to get me to stand up. "Oh, please, you don't have to kneel in front of me. I know I've always been a strict stepmother to you and trained you to be an obedient son over the years, but you don't have to humiliate yourself to the point of kneeling in front of me, if you do not want to."
"I know I don't have to, but I love you very much and I have this inner need to kneel a little in front of you and tell you my most intimate desire, which I have never told anyone about, because basically I only have you and I can only tell it to you. Therefore, please let me kneel before you for a moment." I took her gloved palms in mine and kissed them tenderly.
"Oh, sweetheart, I really don't know what to say," my stepmother removed her hands from my embrace and cupped my cheeks tenderly. "In my wildest dreams, I never thought that I would ever find myself in such a situation, that I would hear such nice words from the mouth of my beloved stepson, who would also be kneeling on his knees in front of me. Come, show your stepmother how much you love her." My stepmother pulled my face to hers and she forced me to kiss her.
It was neither a typical short sweet motherly kiss nor a long hot passionate one from a lover. Something in the middle, but more similar to the maternal one. We both knew that we needed kisses, but not the motherly ones, but the second ones, the passionate ones. Elizabeth needed them because, having been alone all her life without a man by her side, she was hungry for them. I needed them because as a twenty-year-old, without a girlfriend, I was just entering adult life with all its pleasures.
I could feel the sweetness from her lips, combined with the aroma of her perfume and the scent of the leather of her new gloves. The kiss ended with a loud smack and her giggling softly. Concerned about this, I asked, "I must have done something wrong because you're somehow laughing at me."
"Oh, I'm sorry, babe. No, nothing happened. You just had some of my lipstick left on your lips after the kiss. It looks funny. I would wipe it off, but I'm wearing gloves and... you know... I can't get them dirty."
So I thought I'd do it. I raised my hand to my mouth to wipe away the residue of my stepmother's kiss, but I felt her gloved hand grip mine tightly. "No, no. Don't wipe it off, please. You look so nice with it. That lipstick suits you." Elizabeth giggled again, covering her mouth with her gloved palm. "I hope my little boy isn't mad at his mommy for having fun at his expense, huh?"
"Of course not. You know that I've always wanted you to feel good in my presence, right?" I said reflexively, touching her booted calf, which she noticed. Just as I instinctively approached her leg, I instinctively withdrew my hand. "Oh, sorry," I added, embarrassed by all my out-of-control behavior.
Elizabeth didn't say anything. She just looked at me smiling with her motherly, loving eyes, the beauty of which was emphasized by the make-up and the delicate wrinkles that had appeared on her face some time ago. She must have already thought a lot of different things about me, not necessarily in my favor. I felt that my behavior betrayed my fondness. She reached back for the whip lying next to her and looked at it with admiration.
First, she checked its flexibility by bending it very slightly into an arc, and then, straightened, she directed it towards my face. "I hope you remember our agreement, honey. We still have a small conversation ahead of us. You probably have something to tell me, don't you?" she asked in a whisper, placing the tip of the riding crop under my chin and rubbing it.
"Yes mum," that was all I could afford. I couldn't cobble any sentences together. I was terrified of her, even though I knew I was in no danger from her. If she wants to hurt me physically, she will do it anyway, not even asking me for my opinion, but she will definitely do it with grace and a motherly touch. After all, I am her only beloved son (stepson).
"Maybe you'd like to get up off your knees and sit next to me? It would be more comfortable and you'd feel more confident talking to me, because I can see you're a little scared." My stepmother asked me as she moved the riding crop from under my chin to my right cheek.
"You know, mom, if it wasn't a problem for you, I would still like to kneel in front of you," I wonder how such words could come out of my mouth.
"I knew you would say that. Honestly, those were the words I wanted to hear from you, just what you just told me. I dreamed of you showing me how much you worship me and continuing to kneel in front of me. I like the way you kneel like that. You reminded me of the good old days when our stable boy would kneel in front of me like that.
"But you know... out of courtesy, I had to ask. I secretly hoped that maybe you would refuse me and wouldn't want to sit next to me. I'm glad you said no. As usual, you didn't disappoint me. Thank you for that." Here she came closer to me again and kissed me, hugging my neck with her free left gloved hand, which did not hold the whip.
"Mom, I wanted to thank you very much."
"You wanted to thank me? Hmmm. That's nice of you. May I know why? For letting you kneel in front of me?" she laughed.
"I wanted to thank you for having the honor of being your son and for being so good for me."
"Good for you? Hmmm. Interesting, my dear. You know that I have always been a strict stepmother to you and raised you with a firm hand, right? If you want to thank me for that, I must admit that it is a very nice gesture on your part," she said, stroking my cheek.
"Yes, just for that." I replied, taking her hand and kissing it in gratitude.