Karen made her way back downstairs, her legs feeling weak. She sank onto the sofa in the living room, her mind whirling. She was overwhelmed with conflicting emotions: shock, curiosity, embarrassment, and an unexpected excitement. She tried to work out in her mind what she was feeling. She had not felt this kind of complicated discomfort since her lesbian lover initiated it months ago. Karen then recognized it was her own guilt. She was already embroiled in a barely containable lesbian affair with Alex and now she felt an immediate sexual attraction to Sarah.
She thought of Mike, her husband, her partner in this perfectly crafted life. She thought of Alex, her lover, her partner in a forbidden lesbian affair. She felt sadness. Was she becoming some kind of sexual addict, an insatiable whore perhaps? With her picture of Sarah's innocence shattered, Karen's secret desire began to create forbidden scenarios in her dirty mind and she was unable, unwilling, to stop them.
The afternoon dragged, each moment bringing more dampness to Karen's panties. Karen jumped every time she heard a noise, expecting Sarah to emerge, oblivious to what Karen had seen. She kept replaying the scene in her mind. The images of an enormous dildo stretching out Sarah's young pussy and waves of orgasms flooding over her body caused Karen's pussy to respond. A part of her wanted to talk to her, to know why her nanny, the girl who read bedtime stories to her children, had such a vibrant secret life. Another part of her wanted to pretend it never happened, to bury it deep inside and never acknowledge it.
When the children finally arrived home, Karen forced a smile, slipping back into her role as the attentive mother. She helped them with their coats and snacks, the image of Sarah momentarily fading into the background.