By Jim Lyon
I wasn't really onboard when my wife first suggested that becoming her bottom was a win-win way for us to adjust to my erectile dysfunction. The slow ebbing away of my ability to engage in normal sexual activities that I took for granted over the years had been devastating...and humiliating. Assuming a submissive role in our lovemaking seemed like the final indignity. However, I started to come around after Marie said matter-of-factly, "Well, it's either that or become a sexless cuckold. My equipment is working just fine, so you need to satisfy me sexually or I'll have to find a lover who can."
She wasn't being callous or bitchy, what she said made perfect sense. Just because I couldn't get it up anymore didn't mean that she had to do without sex. We had always enjoyed an open marriage, although as far as I was aware Marie only took advantage of that arrangement with occasional Sapphic dalliances.
Not long after that conversation I joined Marie on the patio and sat alongside her watching with bemused excitement while a succession of provocative fetish images displayed on the screen of her laptop as she scrolled through a variety of female led relationship- and femdom-related blogs. When she clicked on an enticing link at one of those blogs it took us to website where a staggering array of hardcore videos were available to view for free, and the interest in this endeavor increased exponentially for both of us. We soon discovered yet one more thing we have in common--latent voyeuristic tendencies.
The seemingly endless selection of no-holds barred naughty videos kept us glued to her laptop's monitor, able to pull ourselves away only long enough to throw a frozen pizza in the microwave and open a couple of beers. By the time we were too exhausted to keep going my initial skepticism that this lifestyle could be a viable way to adapt to the reality of my impotence had completely dissipated. Certainly this future looked more exciting than the real-life attempts at sexual intimacy during the past year, which had frequently been fraught with frustration and embarrassment.
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"Obviously we can't, and don't even want to indulge in all of the scenarios we saw on those blogs and websites," Marie managed to articulate over breakfast between a sip of coffee and a bite of her croissant. "Although, I have to confess I found most of them to be pretty damn hot."
I nodded in agreement as I replied, "True enough. I don't think I'm up for any serious corporal punishment or CBT, but perve that I am watching a live scene in which someone else experiences it appeals to me a lot."