***This is part six in a series about a couple, Jake and Sara, who are in a loving, long-distance relationship, but begin exploring non-monogamy, consensual cuckolding, and begin to explore humiliation. If these topics are not of interest to you, cuckolding in particular, please do not read this story. Also, if you haven't read parts 1 through 5, I encourage you to do so.***
I woke up to the sounds of voices outside Sara's dorm, and remembered where I was. I could tell from the light that it was late morning. I opened my eyes a bit more and laid there, still, the reality from last night settling in. I remembered my promise to myself, that I would level-set with Sara, and make sure I knew what I was getting into. Sara seemed to really be enjoying our new arrangement, and I was too, honestly. But I still had nagging doubts, and a concern that I was being taken advantage of.
Not that Sara had ever previously done anything to indicate that she would ever take advantage of me. She was always a very loving, caring and affectionate partner. And after all, I HAD encouraged her to do this, and I had told her I was turned on by it. But why was I turned on by it? I didn't have enough time to figure that out. All I knew was that I found it exciting and that I was willing to keep going forward as long as Sara could reassure me she loved me and that this was something we were doing together, not something that I was becoming the unwitting victim of.
Sara was still asleep. I looked over slightly and was reminded that she was sleeping naked next to me. She was under the covers, but I leaned over slightly and ran my hand over her body. It was perfect. As my hand reached her butt, I started getting slightly hard, and I leaned over further to spoon her. She sighed softly, still mostly asleep. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close to me, my dick getting even harder rubbing up against her ass. She leaned it back against me, and I started kissing her shoulders and neck.
She laughed lightly, waking up a bit.
"Mmmm, good morning," she said, still coming out of her slumber.
"Good morning," I replied flirtatiously. I cupped her ass. She giggled. "Did you sleep well?"
"Mmmhmm," she said. I kissed her neck again. I reached my hand further down and reached her clit. I got harder at the memory of her being filled with Nick's cum the day before. I started to rub her pussy. She moaned lightly.
I continued to spoon her and touch her, and gradually we came to be practically dry humping each other. I was lost in the bliss of feeling her body and remembering what she did the day before. She broke my concentration.
"Well are you going to fuck me or not?" she said playfully.
"Finally!", I thought to myself. I shifted around and began rubbing my dick up against her pussy. She was so wet. We were moaning with each other. Finally, I entered her.
She gasped lightly. I felt pride that, even after fucking Nick, she still had this reaction to me entering her. Then she moaned. It felt good to her. I was happy. I began to slowly fuck her.
"I love you, Sara."
"Mmmm, I love you too. Don't stop."
I started picking up the pace. She was getting more into it. I couldn't stop thinking about how hot she was, and how turned on I was by what she had done the day before. I noticed her eyes were closed. She was smiling.
"You're so sexy," I said.
"Mmmmm," she replied.
"I love fucking you," I said.
"Don't stop," she said, more out of breath than before.
Then I felt it. I was already about to cum. I think being so turned on and pent up this whole weekend and only being able to take care of myself had taken a toll on me. I knew I shouldn't cum so quickly but I couldn't help myself. Without having the time to stop and pull out, I came. I groaned loudly and pushed as far into her as I could.
We lay there, me deep inside her, still spooning. I was panting. I kissed her neck and then the post-nut clarity hit me. Fuck, that was only like, a minute? I felt embarrassed.
"Sorry," I said.
"For what?" she replied.
"Not lasting longer."
"Aw babe it was great." She sounded genuine but I couldn't imagine she really felt that way.
"I've just been so turned on this weekend," I laughed. "I couldn't control myself."
She rolled over and kissed me. We embraced. She was being very sweet. I decided to use this opportunity to have the discussion I promised myself I was going to have.
"Babe, I just want to know something."
She looked at me inquisitively.
"Do you still love me?" I asked.
She seemed shocked by the question. "What?? Jake! Of course! So much! Why are you saying that?"
"I don't know, I mean, look I love what we're doing and like I said, it's been a huge turn on. I just, I dunno, I wanna make sure that like, I'm part of this."
"Of course you're part of this. And babe if you don't want me to do do this I'll -"
I cut her off. "No, I do, I mean - if you want to, I want you to. I just, I also love you and I don't want to lose you."
"You're not going to lose me," she said matter of factly. "This is just, fun, right?"
"Right," I said.
There was a pause.
I continued.
"Ok but like, I guess I wonder, you're not like, taking advantage of me are you?" It felt painful to ask her this. She had never been anything but loving. I think she was a little hurt.
"Is that what you think is going on?"
"No! I just -"
"Well you just said it," she snapped.
"I asked, Sara, I just -"
"I can't believe you think that's what I would do." She turned away from me. This wasn't good.
"No! I don't. Please, babe, just, I'm having some doubts."
"So I'll stop," she said bluntly.
"No!" I replied.
"Yes. This isn't fun if you're going to use it against me."
"I'm not, Sara, please. I just want some reassurance."
She turned back. "Do I not reassure you?"
"You do," I said. "You're amazing. I'm just, this is different, new, I'm not used to it. Can you understand that?"
"Yea..." she said. But she was sulking. I was familiar with this mood. "But Jake if you're not comfortable, I'll stop, it's not a big deal."
"I don't want you to stop," I said.
"It's fine."
She was sulking.
"Sara, I'm not asking you to stop I'm just asking for some reassurance."
"What do you want me to do?"
I wasn't sure, actually. I probably should have thought more about it but I was nervous about upsetting her more, and this was going sideways in a way I didn't intend, so I spit something out.
"I just want to make sure you still love me."
It didn't work.
"Why wouldn't you think I don't love you? I tell you everyday. What else do I need to do?" She was getting a little testy.
"Nothing, I'm sorry." I was trying to salvage this.
"If you don't trust me when I tell you something, then maybe we're not in a good enough place to be doing this."
"No, Sara, I trust you, I'm sorry, I don't know what I was thinking. I know you love me."
"Ok so what's the problem?"
"Nothing I guess."
"Clearly there's a problem," she said. "So I think we should just pause on this Nick stuff for now."
"No, really, you don't need to. I like it."
"I do too," she said. "But you're clearly struggling, so let's just take a pause, ok? Not permanently. Let's just make sure we're rock solid."
She sounded genuine. Maybe she was right. I was a little upset because this is not what I had intended. I wanted her to continue, I just wanted to be reassured at the same time. But maybe taking a pause made sense.
"Ok, whatever you want. I want to be rock solid too. And I think we are."
"I do too," she said. We embraced. Maybe this wasn't as bad as I thought? And hey, I'd get more sex in the meantime.
Sara jumped out of bed. "So what are we doing today??" She was her bubbly self again. It was a beautiful Saturday.
