Christmas had come and gone. On Christmas Eve, I had asked Julie to marry me. Julie had accepted and we set a date for 18 months in the future. This would allow Julie to complete her degree in May and then allow a year to plan the wedding. Soon we were busy expanding plans for our future together.
This was a huge step, and I as I often do, I asked myself how I had arrived at this point in my life. I wondered why Julie had overlooked my rougher edges, agreeing to spend the rest of her life with me. Sometimes, in my most private thoughts, I had also wondered why Julie was so tolerant and even encouraging of my panty fetish. Why would she sometimes dress me in panties for sex? Did it bother her when I wanted her to keep her lingerie on during sex? Why would she even appear to be turned on by it and accept the fact that it turned me on as well? In addition, I wondered about her relationship with Amy. They had attended an all-girl Private school nearly two hours away from home and roomed together. After high school they had remained close friends. When Julie and I began dating at 19, Amy had already had several boyfriends and, according to Julie, had lost her virginity on her 18
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birthday. Although Amy's fledgling career in marketing kept her in Boston, over two hours away, Julie and Amy had remained friends, several times even getting together for a "Girls Weekend". This also included shopping for lingerie, so I encouraged these events, even giving Julie spending money. However, I sometimes wondered, or perhaps fantasized, about what they might be doing after the lights went out.
In addition to our "panty play," sometimes Julie would become most aroused when my foreplay was ever so delicate, even feminine. Some of Julies most intense orgasms resulted from oral sex, and, quite frankly, I wondered if she and Amy had ever had sex together. This question, coupled with my experiences from watching porn with Julie led to more questions, why was she so turned on after girl-on-girl sex scenes? I knew that it turned me on, but Julie? These questions didn't anger me or turn me off at all, But I felt that we still had a lot to learn about each other.
One night, we were reminiscing about the time nearly a year before when we had gone shopping for lingerie. I had admitted that fucking Julie in a big pile of panties had fulfilled one of my favorite sexual fantasies, and privately, had led to some intense masturbation sessions, with panties, of course.
The conversation drifted towards Amy and some of her more adventuresome sexual exploits. Amy had confided to Julie that she had had sex with more than one person at a time and Julie said that her partners weren't always men.
"Holy shit," I blurted out, "that's hot!"
Julie took a long swig from her wine glass, her voice trembling as she replied, "One of them was me."
For about, what seemed like forever, I was speechless, searching for a reply. My suspicions were correct, Julie had partaken in a lesbian encounter with her friend Amy!
"Well........., Julie asked, do you have a response? Are you mad? Talk to me."
"What does this mean, I asked. Was this just an experimental dalliance, or does it mean more than that? Is this ongoing? Does it signal the end of us? Julie, you are the love of my life, it would wreck me if you left."
"I'm not leaving you, silly, she reassured me. Its just that we are supposed to be getting married, and I want to get this off my chest. I want to know how you feel about it. I've seen how girl on girl porn turns you on." You have your panty fetish; I have my inner desires as well.
The lines began connecting; Julie had a bi-sexual side and rather than anger me, it turned me on. I began to imagine watching Julie and Amy have sex, perhaps with me joining in. We refilled our wine glasses and I prepared for a long conversation that night.
"Julie began, "You must remember the times that Amy and I went shopping for the weekend. Well, the second time that I went up, we had a lot to drink, we began trying on our new lingerie. As we each modeled our new outfits, the sexual tension built until it became unbearable and the next thing we knew, we were kissing. Because I had never been with another girl, my only point of reference was the movies that you and I had seen. Amy, on the other hand, had been with several women and led the way for me. Kissing led to touching each other's breasts, then to fingering each other through our panties, then oral sex. When I came, I thought that my head would explode. We fell asleep in each other's arms and when I woke up to the realization that I had just had sex with Amy, I didn't know what to think. Amy reassured me that there was nothing wrong with sexual experimentation and as time went on, I felt less guilt and came to the realization that I loved you and this wouldn't come between us."
I knocked back more wine and asked Julie if there was more.