Laura was a good girl. She came from a good family. She went to school and did well, not the best, but she was at the top. She did sports, primarily gymnastics, and she loved it and was training hard. She had good friends, and she was popular. She went to church with her parents every Sunday. She did all the right things. She said all the right things and had all the correct values and opinions.
Laura had another side. A darker, hidden side. She struggled with it and tried her best to contain it. To hide it so no one saw anything besides her being a good girl. But every night, she struggled. The dirty thoughts came unbidden. Her excitement rose without her being able to contain it. She could not help herself but pulled on her hard nipples and played with that special button on top of her pussy. She felt ashamed bringing herself to orgasm. However, at the same time, she knew it slowed her racing imagination and dampened the burning need in the pit of her stomach.
At least for a while.
The need was always lurking in the back of her mind. Sometimes, it swelled during the day. If it became too much, she had to find a bathroom, a dressing room, or anywhere else where she could be private. Once she was secure, she could tend to her drenched pussy.
She often felt like a hypocrite when she was with her friends. A common topic they talked about was boys. Who was nice. Who was cute. Who they wanted to be together with. But at the same time, they talked about saving themselves for Mr. Right. How to stay pure. The social expectations and rules were conflicting but, at the same time, razor-sharp. One misstep and you were easily labeled a slut and an outcast.
She was scared of boys. Not scared of what they could do to her, but of herself. She feared she would not be able to contain her feelings if she let a boy get close. She was afraid that she would lose control. That she would act in an unacceptable way for a girl if her urges got too intense. The social verdict would be swift and merciless if that happened.
Her defense was keeping boys at least an arm's length away from her, which was a challenge in itself. She was good looking. Some said she was the prettiest girl in school. She had to fend suitors off who rooted for her attention routinely. Her friends admired her for her steadfast morality.
However, when she was alone and tried to soothe her throbbing pussy, she felt like a hypocrite.
Finding the worn, discarded dildo had been a blessing and a curse. It worked better than the spray cans and shampoo bottles she had played with previously. But with time, the dildo deepened her desire and needs, and she wanted more. Steadily, she became more frustrated.
Then, on that fateful day, she met the homeless man like many times before. It struck her that he was an older man and harmless. He was a poor, grimy excuse of a man dressed in rags and living behind a dumpster. He was such a social outcast that she could do whatever she wanted with him, and no one would know. Once the idea had struck her, she was drawn to him like a moth to a flame. It did not take long before her feet propelled her to visit him at night when the darkness hid her actions.
Laura had only a vague idea of what she wanted. But the homeless man needed no guidance and eagerly took everything she offered. She ended up naked on her back on top of some dirty cardboard boxes. The equally naked homeless man had been on top of her. His grimy, old body had melded together with her flawless, young female one. He had panted with unchecked lust as he took her sacred cherry--the one she should have protected above everything. She had loved every second of it. Her orgasm had been spectacular when he worked himself to completion inside her.
Weeks went by since that night. Laura passed him several times on her way to and from the mall. They did not acknowledge each other, but Laura felt they were very aware of each other.
Laura tried not to analyze what she was feeling. He was an outcast, a social nobody, beneath her dignity. She should not pay him any attention whatsoever.
Yet, she could not stop thinking about him. He had done something to her. The image of his ugly, toothless face framed by his greasy and unkempt hair filled her mind whenever she felt the heat rising inside her. Every time she used the dildo, she remembered how his greasy body had felt on top of her. His thick, stinking cock had invaded her, melding their bodies together. The feeling had been nothing like she had felt before.
In the privacy of her room, she tried to recreate that feeling every night but failed. She became more and more frustrated. The homeless man was a nobody, a social outcast, and a misfit. Old, ugly, poor, and homeless. He was so far below her status that she didn't even have to recognize him as a person. She had an endless litany of negative things about him. Nonetheless, she could not get him out of her mind. She wanted to feel again what she had felt when he possessed her.
The homeless man had marked her. He had made one flaming-red hickey on each of her boobs. She liked to look at herself in her full-length mirror when she was naked. She had a great body, and she liked how she looked. Every day, she admired how she looked in the mirror. The two marks shone like beacons. They began fading after a week, and after a second week, they were gone entirely. Still, she liked to caress the skin where the marks had been. Sometimes, she realized she was doing it unconsciously, like when she was in bed reading or studying.
Her emotions were a jumble of confusion. She did not know what to feel. The conflicting expectation of being prim and proper during the day and her smoldering needs at night. She understood it was a battle and that she was losing it.