The part of her day between submitting the forms and going to the clinic was a mad blur.
At least she didn't have class with him
. She didn't think she could face him without giving away their new relationship. The thought of what would happen if she failed to keep her end of the bargain chilled her. She had no doubt he would make her life a complete hell. The memory of the legalese from the medical forms bubbled up unbidden.
Am I really doing this voluntarily?
But she knew the answer to that. She could quit any time. She just couldn't fuck around with the rules. She felt the pad against her cooch cold and wet. She'd had to buy one at school; she hadn't stopped oozing all day.
She parked the car at the address: a modest bungalow on a tree-lined street. As she had driven into the neighborhood her anxiety lessened: no bars on the windows, no junkers on the front lawn. Bungalows and well-kept yards, kids playing, people walking. It was a pretty nice part of town and she was surprised she hadn't known anyone at school who lived here.
At least it's not sketchy.
Silence.
Car. I'm about to have a medical exam.
You have to tell me everything.
Stethoscope.
Fuck you.
Smiley face with tongue.
She approached the front door -- a heavy wood frame with beautiful vintage glass insets -- noticing the marquee off to the side. Several doctors worked out of the clinic. Walking into the lobby, she saw several people waiting, filling out forms and a young woman staffing a reception counter. None of this matched what she had been imagining.
It's a fucking medical clinic.
As she crossed the waiting area, the thought hit her.
Of course! They're part of the club.
Mentally beating herself for being so stupid, she checked in.
"Thank you Tee for being on time. Let me confirm we have everything you need. Your date of birth, please?" She typed and reviewed her screens. "I'll just need your insurance card..." She interrupted herself. "Sorry, I see that it's covered privately."
Is she blushing a little?
"Go ahead and take a seat, Martha will be out shortly to take you to a room."
Before she could even settle in, and thankfully before her mind started revving up, the door opened and a young nurse called her name.
"Tee? I'm Martha." Smiling. "Let's head back." And when she'd joined her, "What is your date of birth?"
She gave it to her, following her to a scale.
"You can set your bag down. If you want, you can hang your jacket up as well."
She stood on the scale, the first act of undressing already starting. She felt her defenses slowly being peeled away. She knew that wasn't what was happening.
It's just a standard exam, you fuckface.
But in spite of her rational mind, she knew it was more than that. She felt how wet her underwear was, in spite of the pad, and blushed at the thought the doctor would notice. She sighed and followed Martha to a room.
"So, I see this is just a routine exam," Martha chatted away while she set up the blood pressure cuff. "Please uncross your legs."
Tee looked up sharply, wondering if it was starting already.
Martha saw her alarm. "Your readings will be off if your legs are crossed. Or if you talk. Go figure." Martha made a face and turned back to her tablet, letting the cuff do its thing. "Excellent, 117 over 65. Let me check your heart."
Tee sat still while the woman pressed the stethoscope against the fabric of her blouse. "80 bpm. You nervous?"
Tee licked her lips and sort of shook her head.
"It's okay. You've had a gyn exam before, right?" Martha looked through the history to where Tee had given that information. She looked back, gentle concern on her face. "You're worried about being inducted?"
Tee felt tears welling up, closing her eyes and nodding. Did everyone know what was going to happen to her except her? Her sub-self sang with the joy of what was coming. Her rebel-self was grumpy, ready to just say fuck all and leave.
She felt Martha's hand on her shoulder. "It's okay. I've been there. I remember how hard it was for me."
Tee shot her eyes open in disbelief. "You. You were...are?"
Martha smiled. "Left the scene and got married about five years ago. Changed my life. I can only imagine how you're feeling. But," she looked down at the tablet, "you've got one of the best trainers in the business. He doesn't miss a beat."
Tee just shook her head, trying to make sense of the conversation in the context of a clinical exam room. "Okay. That's what I've been told." She didn't know how to respond.
"Dr. Thatcher will be in shortly. I think you'll like her. Let's get you ready." Martha stood up and put her tablet on a counter nearby. "Go ahead and get undressed. There's no need for a gown."
Tee shook her head, her sub-self erupting with joy. She stood and peeled her top off, exposing her naked breasts. Folding the blouse, she kept her eyes on the floor, trying to ignore the nurse. She couldn't stop the shivering.
"Yes. I see why the Professor chose you."
Tee blushed slightly that the woman was inspecting her, ignoring her feelings of judgment about the size of her breasts and focused on getting undressed. Shoes, socks slipped off. Belt undone, pants and undies pushed down in one motion, the pad soaking wet exposing how aroused she was. The smell couldn't be ignored. She quickly hid her underwear by folding them inside her jeans, leaving the pad inside, and put them on the chair.
Martha stopped her. "Those look pretty soaked. Let's throw that pad away." She held out her hand waiting for Tee to pull the pad off her underwear. She couldn't bear to look at her face as she gave her the soaked napkin.