Chapter 1
John had dropped me off at the hotel and was probably pulling up in front of Haley's house at this very moment, I calculated.
My hotel room overlooked the bay. Not bad for reserving the room through one of those internet discount sites, I thought. Usually, my rooms overlooked the hotel's central heat and air tangle of ducts. And the parking lot. What a wonderful change to gaze at the dark green hills across the bay. The water was choppy, greenish and dotted with parasails of every color. I opened the drapes completely. I wanted sunlight. Anything to dispel my anxiety and foreboding.
I unpacked my clothes and arranged them in the wardrobe, lined up my toiletries on the sink countertop, and last, but not least, set up my laptop. My only connection to the outside world. And Scrabble. And Facebook. Ah, Facebook. I logged into John's account and navigated directly to his messages. It was the most recent message from Haley that I homed in on. Again.
John,
I don't know what you think you'll achieve by coming here on Saturday. Whatever we had ended 25 years ago. Guilt won't bring those years back. And there's no place for you in your daughter's life -- she's already an adult. But, if you're going to drop by, I can't stop you. I see you're still as stubborn as ever. Haley
Haley. The woman he'd left all those years ago, when he was just 17. Haley was ten years older than John and pregnant with his baby. She'd known John wasn't willing to marry her. But she hadn't known he'd leave her high and dry and move to Nevada to be with me. But he did. She raised their daughter on her own. And even though John and I built our life together, and had our own children, the intervening miles and passing years didn't make John forget about Haley like he thought they would.
Still, John had never mentioned them. I'd never seen him try to call or write Haley. I could have fooled myself into thinking he had gotten over her completely -- except;
He'd never stopped dreaming of her. John would murmur her name while asleep. He'd even had long, involved arguments with her in his sleep. He'd whispered her name lovingly into my ear, "'Lee..." when making love to me. A few times. Okay, more than just a few times over the years. Actually, the last time was just last week.
That whisper, that whisper filled with lust and longing, was what made me decide on this somewhat unconventional (or crazy and stupid) course of action. I used John's Facebook account to send Haley a message. I wrote the letter as if it had come from John. It took forever, it seemed, but I was pretty sure she'd read the letter and believe it was from John. The content was not altogether true, I had to admit. If I had been completely honest with her, the message would have gone something like this:
Dearest Haley,
Even though we've been apart for so long, I still think of all those nights we spent together. And I can't help it - I still want you. I can almost feel myself sliding into your body, into your slickness. Each night, I'd bury myself so deep into you. Only there, thrusting inside of you, did I ever feel I was home.
One other thing: Mila loves watching me fuck other women. And she thinks it'd be great for me to start fucking you again, seeing as how (in retrospect and with the knowledge that comes with age) you were so in love with me then that you were grateful for the sloppy seconds, thirds and fourths you received whenever I came home after seeing my girlfriends. Mila thinks you're a submissive freak and would fit perfectly into our kinky lifestyle. And I agree.
So, spread your legs, baby, because I'm coming home.
Love always,
John
THAT would have been the truth. Instead, I crafted a letter that was guaranteed to melt her heart and dissolve the bitterness of John's desertion. I'd used John's own memories he'd related to me to convince her how he'd never stopped loving her, how he'd regretted the idiotic decisions he'd made due to his youth and inexperience, and how, with the years flying by, maybe the two of them could grasp at the happiness denied them all those years ago. P.S. Mila understood completely and was willing to do anything to make John happy as well as to atone for causing Haley such misery before.
John got a little misty when I had him read the letter -- but he managed to restrain his emotions. He did not, however, manage to restrain his raging hard-on at my prurient and clever plan of action. John re-read the letter again. While reading, he unzipped his pants and forced my head down, down, down over his cock until I gagged. As his cum flooded my throat, he pressed "send message."
My machinations were in motion; whether John could work his way back into Haley's heart (and panties), however, was up to him. He was confident, sure of his power over her after all these years.
"Just let me see her," he'd said. "All I have to do is see her and I'm sure I can start fucking her again. I know it."
His confidence turned me on.
My phone and my computer remained silent and still: John had not called or messaged me. I could only imagine what was happening. Haley could be pretty tough; she might have just sent him running. I doubted it, though. I was pretty sure John could talk his way back between her legs without much effort. Pretty damn sure. The knowledge sent a thrill through me and evoked an image of John's naked ass pumping between his old lover's spread thighs. Unable to resist the urge, I flopped onto the bed, my hand pressed firmly between my legs. John, as always, was the star of my sexual imaginings. I envisioned his thick shaft completely buried inside of Haley's pussy, making her cry out and triggering my own shuddering release.
I slept.
When I woke up, the sun had already set. The room was dark and cool. Shivering, I turned the heat on and headed to the bathroom to wash up and make myself presentable for dinner in the lobby. The process took longer now than it used to, but within a quarter hour, the face that gazed back at me in the mirror no longer looked wan and puffy from sleep. My black hair shone. Eyeliner and mascara, blush and lipstick, powder and perfume. Black jeans, black leather boots, low-cut top of gray silk.
I stepped back to appraise my appearance. There were a few more wrinkles around my eyes and mouth, I noticed, sighing. I dimmed the almost blindingly bright bathroom light. Finally.
I was pretty again.