I woke up a new woman. My little sexual adventure had nearly ruined my marriage. It was time to put it behind me and move on with life. Steve said he had forgiven me, and in my heart, I hoped he had, but in my head, I knew that I would have to get his trust back and it would take a long time. I looked over at him. He was already up and ready for a busy day. I told him that I had something to take care of and then I would see him at the hospital. We kissed and he went off.
As I took my shower, I was formulating my speech to Marcus in my head. I was going to go over to his house and explain to him that I loved Steve dearly and our little game was over. I did not want to be mean or ugly to him, but I knew I had to be firm. My shower seemed to go on forever as I ran through scenario after scenario. Finally, I had my speech written. I got ready for work. I decided to wear my white blouse with my black Lycra skirt and boots. It always made me feel powerful to have my boots on. Plus, it gave my little frame another few inches.
I looked out the window and Marcus were having coffee on his porch before work. I mustered up some courage and made my way across the yard to see him. He looked up and smiled as I approached. I sheepishly waved hi and stopped about 10 feet from him. I told him that I needed to tell him something. He put down his coffee and told me to go ahead and speak. I told him that I loved Steve dearly and that my little game needed to end. He stared at me expressionless. There was an awkward silence.