Your kindness makes me blush.
To think someone so cool as you
Likes me, it's such a rush!
Your interest in my well being
It flatters me to think.
I want to raise my glass and thank
You from my heart and wink.
Impulse is to lavish you
With praise and gifts and cheer.
To show my fondness and my love
Your essence to endear.
It's a love no matter what else --
Acceptance, no conditions.
We cherish each other as we are,
No phony renditions."
With those sentiments I stopped
Little more could I say.
I'd offered a bona fide tribute
In the most earnest way.
"Well aren't you quite the charmer?
A silver-tongued sweet talker.
Now I'll sit back, deliberate,
Might my choice be a shocker?
You're wondering who inspired?
Which persona does loom?
Which of your toasts rose to the top?
Which role will I assume?
I could be your bartender
For time left us tonight
I could be Goddess or Fem Dom,
Or good friend, I just might.
I wonder which you would prefer,
Which one would stoke your fire?
You know I can play lots of roles
All your passions inspire.
My decision, it is made.
Don't care if you agree,
I'm confident, this evening's role
Will bring unsurpassed glee...
Stand up and pull your shoulders back.
My edict is impending
Now close your eyes and brace yourself,
Your heartrate it's ascending."
I did exactly as was told.
My legs began to quiver.
A bead of sweat formed on my brow,
Involuntary shiver.
That's what she always does to me,
No matter in what role...
Bartender, Goddess, Fem Dom, Friend...
They all seduce my soul.
I sent that poem to her but didn't hear anything for some time. Then, out of the blue, she invited me down for a late afternoon visit while, again, her husband was at a club golf tournament. I accepted. And here I was, in this lovely setting, alone with my Fantasy Dom. We immediately resumed one of our favorite activities, the ritual of creating superb cocktails. We still had several hours of daylight, we were alone, and the bar was open.
We'd just begun to sip one of her special martinis, one made with Tangueray Number Ten, St. Germaine liqueur and a slice of mandarin orange, up, with a few dirty ice cubes to keep it refreshingly cold. It was delicious. It was dangerous. I was eager, on this fine afternoon, to experience the gentle glow of feeling tipsy and sensed that she was too.
We opined and philosophized, as we were wont to do, when she interrupted the moment by pulling out her cell phone. She scrolled through a couple screens and told me she just had to make a business-related call. I stood and began to make a courteous exit to allow a more private conversation. She shook her head "no," pointed for me to stay where I was and emphatically said, "Stay right there." I sat back down and sipped my cocktail.
Upon identifying herself to the person on the other end, her countenance and comportment transformed discernibly. She resettled onto the edge of her chair, her posture squared up, her eyes focused on nothing tangible, instead fixing a steely, penetrating gaze on an empty space in front of her.
Clearly displeased with something, she proceeded decisively and forcefully. She informed the other party that she was aware of some "confusion" in the chain of command. That she and she alone was the executive officer of the company (she was, indeed, VP of a thriving firm) and it was she who'd be making the decision under scrutiny. She chastised someone else in the chain of command for attempting to usurp her authority, saying she'd deal with him later. She described what was going to happen, who was going to do what and when. It was not a discussion. She was clearly laying down the law. She spoke in a tone of power and clarity that a drill sergeant would admire. When she was done she hung up with only the most perfunctory goodbye of "I'll follow up with you on Monday." No question, she had thoroughly delivered an ass-chewing to the person on the other end.
Sub that I am, her clear marching orders and directives reaffirmed my intuition (my belief...my conviction) that my Fantasy Dom could quite naturally play the role of Real Dom when she wanted. Her take-charge persona was magnificent. My admiration welled up inside of me. I gazed at her in adoration as she just sat for a moment and took a long draw from her cocktail.
"Sorry 'bout that," she said. "Sometimes you just have to take charge -- reestablish a clear chain of command." She took another sip.
Witnessing her seize control like that and resolve whatever happened with unwavering confidence and assertiveness was overwhelming. I had to tell her.
"Man, you are awesome. You are so thoroughly a natural-born boss. A bad-ass boss!"
"I suppose you're going to tell me it turned you on to hear me chew somebody out and put them in their place."
"Like you can't imagine," I replied. "And I mean that as a sincere compliment."
"Hmmm," she responded noncommittally, sipping her cocktail greedily, emptying her glass. I did the same. I was beginning to catch a nice buzz and figured she was too. "I guess I'm getting to know you pretty well. I figured it would push your buttons, the presence of an assertive woman, a bossy woman. Even a little bit of a bitchy one." She stared directly into my eyes.
"Yeah. I guess you do know me pretty well. Pushed my buttons!." Then, sheepishly, playfully, I said, "You know that the thought of YOU ordering ME around has been, and still is, one of my most cherished fantasies."
"I know," she replied confidently. Then, "What would you say if I told you I made up that conversation?"
"What?" I asked naively.
"There was nobody on the other end of that phone call. I just thought I'd mess with you. To see how you react. You love it, don't you. You're really turned on by a take-charge, bossy bitch, aren't you?"
Feeling rather stupid after completely falling for the fake call and then being so transparent that she'd sized me up with complete accuracy, I had little choice but to fess up. "Yeah. It turns me on. A take-charge Dom is one of my fantasies. But you kind of knew that, didn't you? And I can't believe you just did that!" I really was floored that she'd duped me so successfully.
"Yeah. Well, I just wanted to see what would happen. And I just wanted to mess with you a little. I can do that." Then she added provocatively, "A Fantasy Dom can do whatever she wants." She offered an enigmatic Mona Lisa smile and lifted her empty glass. "Let's go to the bar. I'm making us another round."
We walked to the bar and she began lining up her ingredients for a second helping of St. Germaine martinis. Suddenly, she reached across the bar and, almost in slow motion, grabbed a fistful of my shirt, tightening the collar around my neck.
"I own you. You're mine. You are my slave. And you're going to do everything I tell you to, slave."
Holy shit, I thought. This was a quick change in tone. She'd never addressed me quite like that. Without skipping a beat, she continued.
"And right now you are going to fetch some rope, or something I can use as rope, and something to use as a blindfold. Do you understand, slave?"
I was shocked -- by her gripping fingers -- by her stone-cold serious tone -- by her reference to me as "slave" -- and by the request itself. The soft banter had transformed into a far more intimidating tone. I was involuntarily startled and just a little bit frightened by this out-of-character behavior. And though clueless about what she was up to, rope and a blindfold were obviously the tools of a dominant in a submissive's world. Not only did she have my rapt attention, my imagination churned.
"I understand. But where will I get those?" I asked meekly, being a mere guest in her home and having no clue where I might find such accouterments.
"Are you really that helpless? I expect you to carry out orders without me spelling out every detail. If you're so incompetent that you can't carry out orders, then this session is over...slave."
"I'm going," I blurted, leaving my bar seat immediately, racing off to a safe haven where I could gather my thoughts and figure out how I COULD carry out her orders. I stood in the upstairs kitchen, leaving her at the downstairs bar. Her words echoed in my head...addressing me as "slave" and about this being a "session." I still had no clue what she was up to. And I had no idea where to look for a rope and blindfold. But I knew I had to please her -- my Fantasy Dom who seemed to be morphing into...well, my REAL Dom. I didn't know how to proceed. I began to panic. Then I thought...my car! My SUV was here and I carry lots of emergency provisions. I couldn't recall for sure, but maybe, just maybe...
I rushed to my vehicle and popped open the rear hatch. I lifted the carpeted lid to the spare tire compartment. I was in luck. I'd stashed a wound-up length of nylon rope in there. Far too much -- probably 50 feet or so. Not knowing just how much she wanted, I pulled out about a six-foot length. I grabbed a trusted Swiss Army knife from my glove box and cut off the six-foot segment.
Pleased with myself, I then wondered where I could find a blindfold. I looked in the spare tire compartment but saw nothing. Then I noticed, right in front of me, the old blanket that I had spread out over the entire storage compartment of my vehicle -- a crappy old blanket that served to protect the sides, doors and wheel wells from getting beat up when I hauled shit. I took my knife and, with considerable effort, cut out a length of about 18" X 3". I congratulated myself on my resourcefulness and proceeded to join my friend downstairs.
She had transferred our hang-out from outside to indoors, beside the fireplace. Our cocktails awaited on the coffee table and she sat on one side of the couch. The fireplace flickered the gentlest of flames and the a subtle heat emanated from its confines. And she had changed outfits.
She wore what looked like an over-sized, guy's dress shirt that flowed over her hips to mid-thigh. Probably her husband's, I guessed. She wore some black leggings and a pair of black boots with modest heels of about two inches. I'd told her in the past how much I love boots on a woman. I'd never told her how alluring I found tights/nylons and chicks wearing guys' shirts. I congratulated myself into thinking that she'd donned the outfit to further intoxicate me. Nonetheless, I was nervous and self-conscious. I felt a rush of apprehension -- this was not the woman I knew. I mean, I knew who she was, but this creature exuded the commanding presence of a no-nonsense dominatrix. My inexperience with such a dignitary was exposed. I lay the rope and cloth on the table. I felt myself shaking just a bit with uncertainty, with apprehension. I knew she sensed my uneasiness. It seemed to please her. She exuded self-assurance.
"You look..." I searched for the right words, "...diabolically seductive." She didn't respond to my compliment. Instead, she examined the rope and makeshift blindfold.
"These should do. You carried out my orders. I had my doubts. Maybe you CAN be trained to be a decent slave." She spoke in a more formal tone than I was used to, creating an austere distance. While it was on the one hand a dream come true, it also frightened me. She was crossing over into unchartered territory. I was thrilled and afraid.
"Put on the blindfold, slave," she demanded.
I sat next to her, promptly removed my glasses, wrapped the cloth around my head and tied it securely in back. There was a momentary silence until I felt the edge of a martini glass being pressed to my lips. "Drink. A nice big sip," she instructed, feeding me a healthy dose of the cocktail. I did as she said. Then, "Make it two big sips," she ordered, before placing the libation back on the table.
"Now tie your wrists behind your back, slave."
How on earth am I supposed to do that, I wondered, knowing better than to ask. I proceeded to give it my best. Being blind didn't help. I clumsily wrapped the rope around my wrists and managed to create some semblance of a knot, although not a very good one. Then I attempted to step, one foot at a time, through my arms so that I could get them behind my back. I struggled unsuccessfully to pull off this maneuver.
"Can't you carry out instructions? If you want to be my slave, you're going to have to be more resourceful. I just hate incompetence. Stand up and turn around, slave," she demanded curtly.
She proceeded to tie my wrists securely behind my back. What I was unable to do, she made up for with an inescapable weave of twine and knots. I tugged to test the handcuffing. I was tightly cinched. The reality of being truly confined struck me. I was blindfolded and firmly bound. I felt quite helpless. Almost like a prisoner. My Fantasy Dom was turning my fancies into real life. My incredulous introspection lasted no more than seconds before I heard her voice again.