Anyone intending to read this story should read part one first. It will help to understand the characters involved. Please feel free to comment, as it is the only way to improve and develop as a writer and all comments are welcome and encouraged.
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After cheating on Paul with the doctor, my husband and I had gone back to a 'normal' life. Although we had the memories of what we had experienced together to provide sexual stimulus, it was not long before we both realised that something was missing in our sex life.
We were not 'normal', we had significant flaws in our individual and collective characters. We would have dearly loved to be a normal couple who made love in the natural way and had a traditional life. Unfortunately what had stimulated us previously was no longer present and the awful realisation that without it, we would struggle to achieve any form of satisfaction both individually and together. This meant that although we desperately didn't want to be, we were lovers who couldn't 'get-it-on' without the stimulus of our fetish.
One day whilst walking in the town, I bumped into the doctor that had done my check-up and who I had allowed to fuck me. He said hello in a sneering and condescending way, like a man who thought I was beneath him and his contempt for me shone through. The arrogant look of distain and the way he looked and talked left me embarrassed and ashamed. I had not only exposed myself to him in a most intimate way but I had also let him fuck me. There in the chair, legs akimbo, I allowed him to use me like a cheap whore.
That embarrassment festered inside me all the time that we made small talk, as though nothing had happened. The smirk on his face, enough to make my face redden.
The fact that he was dismissive and contemptuous of me, resulted in me cringing with humiliation, whilst at the same time realising that the old feelings of sexual excitement were rising. This shameful excitement was due to the way he was treating me and not due to any memories of sexual activity we may have shared.
When I got home, I masturbated whilst reliving my shame in my thoughts.
I had decided to return to his clinic.
It was nothing to do with wanting sex with him, I had realised that if the first time was humiliating enough for me, then a second visit with that history behind us, would make it ten times more humiliating to expose myself to him again.
I made the appointment and turned up at the stated time. I had used another name because on the first occasions I tried to book myself in, the appointment was refused. He had refused to see me again which made me feel even more cheap and worthless.
When I entered, the look he gave me was one of shock, his nurse was there and he hurriedly took her out of the room.
A few minutes passed and they both returned, it was then he introduced me to the nurse - his wife! He had told her the full story after the first time I had visited and had now obviously had just identified me as the woman in question.
They both stood and looked at me like I was a piece of shit.
I don't know what conversation passed between them, but they had obviously decided to go ahead with the charade.
"Would you please undress for me Mrs Clark," (he adhered to my new alias to humour me.)
I moved to go behind screen and he said quite harshly,
"No do it here, get your clothes off where you are, no need for the screen."
I wanted to run, I wanted to avoid the humiliation that was inevitable from here on in, yet I knew that I wouldn't, my pathetic need controlled me and I craved the shame.
The harshness of the cruel command shocked me into action.
They both watched me undress, my hands were shaking like leaves and my heart pounded in my chest as I removed my bra, my breasts falling forward for all to see. As I pulled down my tiny panties (bought especially for the occasion) my vagina came into view.
My face was beetroot red with embarrassment and I wanted to run. Why the hell was I doing this to myself?
I knew the answer. I needed to be humiliated.
And I was.
Naked I stood before the doctor and his wife.
We went trough the charade of him asking me what the trouble was and I vaguely remember jabbering some nonsense about a pain inside me, in a ridiculously weak justification for my visit.
The doctor moved in on me and manhandled me quite roughly. He examined my breasts and my vagina whilst I laid flat on a bed, carelessly and harshly grabbing me and fingering me in a terrible caricature of a medical procedure.
All the time the nurse/wife looked at me sneeringly, what a little tramp, whore, slut, and pathetic slag I was.
Worse was to come. I was put in the stirrups and my legs and my vagina were spread wide.
I wanted to die, the humiliation was crushing, not just because I was exposed to these two people, but because they KNEW.
They knew who and what I was, they knew somehow that I was degrading myself and demeaning myself to them deliberately. They knew that I was doing it in such a manner, that I was getting myself off on it.
Before inserting the speculum inside me, they stood side by side a few feet away staring between my open legs.
I wanted crawl away and hide.
Many women become wet when having a gynaecological exam and the doctor usually spares their blushes by acting as though he has not noticed. They usually still use gel to save her embarrassment. Today the doctor said to his wife,
"I think we will need plenty gel on the speculum nurse, this 'lady' is quite dry down there."
The scorn and sarcasm obvious, I was sodden and they knew it.
"I think we will need the extra large speculum this time nurse, this vagina looks well used and stretched out," he sneered, the inference of my virtue, or lack of it, was brutal.
If only they knew that I wasn't a slut, I just needed a fix.
This was all so terribly traumatic for me, yet the ultimate embarrassment was just around the corner.
Here I was with,
A doctor who knew I was somehow getting my kicks out of the situation. A doctor who had fucked me then discarded me. His sneering wife looking down at me and my intimate parts. Both knowing what I was and despising me for it,
Who were treating me like shit whilst verbally abusing me and physically and roughly mauling me and inserting things into my vagina.
I came as he touched my pussy lips.
I could not hide it, they watched as I tried my utmost to hold in the gasps of pleasure and the moans of delight. My hips rose to meet his fingers of their own accord and the lips of my vagina began to spasm around his probing fingers. Each ignominious act simply turned me on even more. This self perpetuating excitement built, as the more ashamed I was, the more turned on I became and the more turned on I became, the more ashamed I was.