CLANGH!!... Is what I heard.
It was simply the 'click' of my door locking shut, but it startled me in a way no sound ever had. Suddenly, there was meaning to where I was and I instantly realized what i'd done -and I freaked out big time. Stunned, I spun around and lunged for the knob once more. I was shaking my head no,no,no,no,no,no, sending sweat and tears in all directions, as I twirled on one knee, sending my boner bouncing and spraying juice everywhere. This time it was desperation that compelled me, to once again take possession of something I couldn't grasp.
i couldn't hold the doorknob with my leather paws and I started whining in frustration. I was frightened, scared to death and I needed to get into my apartment before it was too late. I could hear my Mistress chuckling and I became frantic. Driven by fear, I began fighting with the round brass ball as it slipped and jiggled uselessly in my grip. I was crying to get inside, sobbing from the need to escape shame, a monster that held me with claws of ice as it pecked at my spine. It was not as I expected, nor wanted and I was left bewildered, perplexed, quite beside myself.
Soon I began pawing at the door and pounding in fits of genuine distress, but to no avail. I pushed and elbowed the wood until a yank pulled me away and spun me around. I fell to all fours and dropped my head in disgrace. I was left with a pounding heart, about to burst from my chest. I felt people watching me, heard them murmuring and I was afraid to look up. I was shaking like a leaf and didn't want to play any more, but didn't know how to make my Mistress understand. I wanted to be rid of this itch and knew what it was, I needed to do. I wanted to go back into my apartment and wanted to say so. I wanted to be rid of the itch and... It was my Mistress, a few reassuring words and several sharp bites of the whip that brought me around.
SNAP! SNAP! SNAP! SNAP! SNAP! I squealed, jumped and was yanked around to each and every snap. I was pulled by my Mistress from side to side and almost thrown off balance. I cried, whimpered and begged for my Mistress to stop and when she did, it was to shorten the leash and bring her head closer to mine, so she could yell.
"This is humiliation fluffy," she said in a voice quite loud. She yanked on the leash and brought my head up, forcing me to look out into the yard. My eyes climbed over the garage roofs and up, to porches on apartments across the alley. "Now stand up tall and make me proud, or you will be sorry!" Her boldly stated words may have been tinged with amusement, but they came as truth that made me cringe and I cowered back before obeying. Her voice dropped a bit, became extremely personal and she went on.
"Listen to me little boy. If you don't do as I say right now and at this very instance, I will whip you until you comply. And then, you will end up doing as I say anyway!" I listened to My Mistress, lost in thoughts of what I thought I saw. I was compelled to look at my surroundings and saw a persons face in every shadow. I was beaten and wanted to get out of here -and get rid of this itch as soon as possible. I hadn't been able to stand still or keep from rubbing my thighs together and cried for my organs unbearable condition. But I knew better than to disobey my Mistress and did as she ordered. I brought myself up as best I could.
SNAP! "I told you what to expect and you knew what to expect, so how do you like humiliation now little boy," she asked as I jumped to the bite and sprayed my meaningless messages. She laughed at my pitiful responses and pulled me around to her advantage.
SNAP! "Hold still little one! Don't be such a baby!" my Mistress said as I jumped to more pain and was wrenched back into position. She finally bent down to catch my chin with the tip of a finger. She allowed me to calm down, lifted my eyes to hers and spoke on. "This is what you wanted isn't it?" I couldn't see her very well and couldn't stop sniffling either, but I tried to accomplish both. I had no fight left while strapped into an outfit I couldn't remove and had to agree it was true. But i'd changed my mind so I shook my head no.
"What? Are you calling me a liar?"
"Nnngghh, nnngghh," I struggled to say while shaking my head no.