The following day, both Jason and Eve went to their first classes, but both of them were in profoundly different moods. On one hand, Eve, fresh off the confidence-boost of her math club, her swimming workout, and her subsequent 8-hour night of sleep, had risen early, eaten a big breakfast, and met the day with a burst of optimism. She was early to her multivariable calculus class, and proceeded to arrive early to all her subsequent classes as well. By noon, she was walking out of her third and final class of the day, invigorated by her studies and hungry as a horse for lunch.
Jason, on the other hand, had had a terrible night. On top of Eve hanging up on him, she didn't even bother to respond to either of the two texts that he sent a while later. It wasn't even like they were angry texts, either! He was just checking to see if she was absolutely certain that she didn't want to come over to his dorm. "Hey just fyi, in case you change ur mind, invitations still open!" one of his texts said. When Eve hadn't responded to that one, he had sent another text that said "Ugh. This college thing sucks. Goodnight i guess :(" Jason halfway hated himself for even sending these texts. Somewhere in his mind he knew that he was coming off as petty, childish, and maybe even pathetic, but his desperation to get at least some kind of response from Eve trumped his own self-respect. He badly wanted her to at least text him back, assuring him that she wished that they were spending the night together.
But she hadn't texted him back. Jason at least at the consolation of knowing that Eve hadn't read his texts, since they both had "Send Read Receipts" turned on. Perhaps she had just gone home, tidied up her dorm for a bit, and then finally collapsed down on her bed exhausted, falling asleep without even setting her phone alarm.
'Hmm, maybe she's biting off more than she can chew,' thought Jason. He surprised himself with the sudden flash of hope that she had fallen asleep without setting her alarm, missed her calculus class, and decided to drop it. Almost as soon as he had this thought, he felt bad. Why was he hoping for Eve to fail? He knew why -- he wanted her to get off this whole "new experiences" kick that she had been on for the last couple weeks. He wanted her to just chill the fuck out with all her talk of "independence" and "personal growth" and all that other stuff. On a surface level, Jason understood what she was getting at, but in truth her attitude annoyed him more than anything else. Jason didn't pursue the source of his annoyance, but if he had, he would have quickly discovered that her proactivity and optimism made him feel inadequate. Eve was making him feel like she was going to leave him behind, that she was graduating to bigger and better things. And the whole time she was acting all happy and bubbly, like there was nothing wrong.
As the night deepened, Jason tried to sleep, but couldn't. She hadn't even opened up his messages. Surely she hadn't forgotten to set her alarm -- this was Eve, after all! She was so on top of everything. To set her alarm, she would've had to consult her phone; she would've seen that he'd texted her. And therefore she had actually made the choice not to open them. She would have seen that they were from him. And she had chosen not to read them. His heart sank in the darkness of his dorm room, even as it buzzed and quickened with anxiety. He felt like she had slapped him in the face, but he had already spent his anger shouting at her over the phone. Now he was just consumed by worry. He had exposed himself as a petty, pathetic boyfriend who was having a bad time adjusting, and she had very appropriately smacked him down. She had hurt him...she was right...he was misunderstood...he had fucked up...the university housing administration was shitty for making them live 2 miles apart...she had seen his messages and not read them...she had rejected him...she was outgrowing him -- all these thoughts swirled about in his mind, exhausting him with their contradictions. Jason didn't know what to think.
Around 4:30 am, after agonizing hours of tossing and turning, Jason suddenly leapt out of bed and went down to the communal bathroom that his entire hall shared. He was only in his underwear. In the brightly illuminated bathroom, Jason stood in front of the mirror and looked at himself...at his body. He wasn't short. He was 5'8, for god-sakes! In the spiraling vortex of his nighttime worries, his mind had alighted on a terrible thought: what if Eve wasn't attracted to him anymore because she had finally realized that she couldn't respect him as a man because she was 5 inches taller than him!? What if, after Lauren had given her those heels, Eve had finally realized how much...more she was than him!? How she could probably get any guy she wanted, and that Jason was just not up to the task of keeping her?
It was an awful thought that had been growing in his mind for longer than Jason would have cared to admit. But suddenly, at 4:30 am, it became too much. He had to do something to reassure himself. And now, as he stood in front of the mirror, he felt some degree of relief. He was pretty jacked, after all. 5'8, 170 lbs. All-state wrestling team. His mind shot unpleasantly back to the day before, when he had taken longer than he anticipated to pin Eve. She was stronger than he remembered...but it was probably just her long legs that made it tough for him. He put his arms up and flexed them. Sizable bulges of muscle jumped to attention. He flexed his arms downward, and the rivulets of his triceps solidified impressively. He flexed his pectorals at the mirror -- they bounced just like he wanted them to. He turned around and put his arms up again, tightening his back muscles. They looked good. He backed up a little and flexed his legs. Even though he was more than satisfied with their musculature, he couldn't help but think about Eve's legs. They were so long...so much longer than his. Ever since high school, he had felt some insecurity around his legs. Even thought they were bulging with muscle, they looked pretty short...almost stunted, in fact. He had always wished that he was just a couple inches taller, and dating the 6'1 Eve had only served to intensify this wish.
What was he worried about? He looked great! He turned sideways and flexed his butt in the mirror. Its muscles squeezed together, as if they were magnetically attracted. Eve loved his ass -- she liked to trace it with her long fingers. She often commented on how sculpted it was, and how it had almost no fat on it. Who was Jason kidding, after all!? Eve loved him! She wanted to be with him! And...and she thought he was super hot.
'And...like, come on, she's got a point,' thought Jason as he continued to strike poses in the mirror. 'I look fantastic -- and it's not just because. I've worked to get to this point -- I worked hard for this body! So what if Eve is starting to exercise more? She's probably doing it because she's been inspired by me and wants to try and get on my level! And, just think...if Eve starts working out she's gonna look even hotter! Come on Jason, get a grip!'
He went back to bed feeling enormously reassured...smug, even. He looked at the red digits of his clock: 4:45. He had planned on getting up early to go lift weights, but it was so late...so late.
'Whatever,' he decided suddenly, 'I'll do it anyway! Gotta keep this body up! Can't let my girlfriend get ahead of me, haha!' He chuckled to himself as he proceeded to set his alarm for 6:30am, and he continued to smile to himself as he finally fell asleep. But his ambitions were poorly-planned, and he proceeded to sleep through his alarm, his planned workout, and his two morning classes.
Meanwhile, after eating a full lunch, Eve wasn't feeling the lassitude that generally set in after a meal. Her brain was still buzzing with content from the morning's classes, but she wasn't quite ready to start on her homework yet. She needed some sort of physical release. Right then, she thought of Jason. Maybe he'd want to go lift weights with her! Yeah, it was perfect! She took out her phone and saw that he hadn't texted her since the previous night. She felt a slight twinge of something like guilt or regret in her head; she hoped that he wasn't angry at her. But she quickly brushed this thought from her mind. This was a good sign -- he was doing his own thing, making his own schedule, instead of just texting her every 5 minutes. And besides, wasn't he in class now, anyway? Eve couldn't exactly remember his schedule, but she knew that he had two classes in the morning and early afternoon.
"Hey there big guy," she texted. "Wanna go work out together?" For the next ten minutes or so, Eve played around on her phone, but when Jason didn't text her back, she stood up and started walking toward the Rec Center. She felt the twinge of guilt again -- she really, really hoped that he wasn't ignoring her texts. She got to the Rec Center and glanced back down at her message. Jason hadn't opened it. She felt relief; even if he had been mad at her, he would've still read the message. It wouldn't be like him to just ignore her.
'Well, you did do the same thing last night,' a voice in her head reminded her. 'Maybe he's just paying it back to you, tit-for-tat.'