I was in big trouble and I had no idea how to get out of it. For the last year I had been living a lie. More than a lie, I had been living a double life. It had all started about a year in a half ago. I was recently single after a long-term relationship. I was feeling unloved, lonely, and decided to give the dating apps a try. As you can imagine they we a mine field of 30-year-old men still living with their mothers, gay men trying to act straight and worst of all, men who acted like women. Damn, I had never met so many men with emotional baggage in my life. The usual apps were a waste of time. A girlfriend of mine told me I should try Alphamen. She said it was an app for men who did not give a fuck about political correctness. She mentioned that the men on there were mostly working-class guys with real tough jobs that just wanted to please a woman. It sounded perfect to me, so I hopped on.
My goodness, she was right. These men were real men with muscles and callused hands. These men all had a job and none of them wore skinny jeans. Looking through the app got me all wet and tingly. I swiped right on a couple and soon was talking to a few. It did not take long before I was dating two different guys. One was Sam. He was a driller on an offshore oilrig. He was built like a brick shithouse. He oozed confidence. His muscles had muscles. Every time I was with him, I felt tiny in his arms, protected and safe. Sam, however, had a weird work schedule. He worked two weeks on and two weeks off. As his work was offshore, he would leave Sunday morning and drive to the coast to meet the ship that would take him to the rig. Once there, he was working two weeks straight. Then, once his shift was over, the boat would return him to the shore and he would be home for two weeks. I had to adjust to his schedule. I would get a whole lot of love for two weeks, then nothing from Sam the following two.
As it turned out, the other guy I was seeing was Marcus and he too worked offshore. In fact, he worked for the same company as Sam. He worked the opposite two-week schedule. This worked out well for me as I was never without a date. Marcus was a diesel mechanic on the same rig Sam worked on, though they did not know each other. Marcus was also built like a battleship, muscled, tall and Black as night. He too made me feel small, yet safe and protected. I am only 5' 2" and 110 pounds. Marcus is 6'6" and pushing 260 pounds without an ounce of fat on him.
Although both men were certainly Alpha males, each were quite different. Sam was very outdoorsy, loved to hunt and fish. When he was home, we spent most of our time outside, communing with nature. In the evenings, I would snuggle up with him on the couch, under a blanket and watch TV. When bedtime arrived, we would crawl into bed, where he would make sweet love to me. Sam was truly a sensitive lover. A man that knew where to touch a woman and how to make a woman feel loved. Sex with Sam was full of gentle foreplay, followed by a gentle love making. Shit, sex with Sam was straight out of a Hallmark Channel movie.