Story is about consensual adults going into a bdsm relationship F/m. For whoever read ch.3, Cybil once again gives Sean a further insight of life with her. Their information flowing and new experiences.
Once again, I sincerely thank Mistress4one who has edited this story.
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I go off to work on Monday, thinking of Friday when I'll be back at the feet of My Mistress and further understanding my surrender to her. Not being able to decide anything any longer is burrowing into my mind as she adds information on every occasion possible. The advantage I have is liking her looks, voice, skin, smell and ways. She is soft speaking and yet so determined and dominant, as I hear her words flow into my ears. Her looks are also starting to show when she wants something from me. Keeping me on holds for release is doing wonders in my submission to her and in her words. It will be a constant, keeping me very attentive by not letting me orgasm.
It's Tuesday and I do not have any news from her and I'm starting to find a desperate need to know about her. Time is slow and fast for some matters I'm dealing with. Now I'm wondering if I'll be dropping everything to become hers for good. That is a pressing issue for me. For the most part, I know I will; then, a bubble of doubt surfaces and I make it burst before it gets bigger and I fall again into my submissive and future slave mode.
Wednesday flew by and I did get a message from her that said, "I hope you have me in mind, because I do have you in mine."
Once I get over the emotion of having news from her, I reply, "You know I do. Yours to be."
Thursday, somehow due to work related matters, ended well for me.
Friday, the great day for me, wanting the office day to end and make my way to Cybil's. Unfortunately, I'm distracted from work and I have to repeat a number of things until done and messing up adds to my frustration and anxiousness. At last, one minute to leave. I'm invited by my co-workers for drinks. But, I naturally decline. All I have is her on my mind.
After cleaning up, I'm there in a flash and knocking on the door. A second later, I receive a text. It's her. "Enter and close the door. When you are in, leave your clothing where you did last time."
I go in, closing the door behind me and undress as I'm told. Her house has a constant temperature and I'm comfortable, even naked. I don't know if I should call her or not. The urge is bigger than I can manage and I'm calling her. "Mistress Cybil, I've done as you have requested." I said and just a moment later, I hear her heels coming towards me. Nevertheless, it seems an eternity until I see her. As soon as she is before me, I kneel reverently and kiss her knee-high boots and remain there.
"I know you are eager to see me slave and that is what I want from you. Next time, I would like you to keep in silence, until I come over. It's a way of training you, also." Cybil said.
"Yes, Mistress. I could not hold back. Being able to see you now is a blessing for me. I wish my emotions were easier to deal with and would have preferred to keep the need to myself." I said.
"Don't ever keep anything from me, slave. Remember, your emotions and feelings belong to me, as well. I want to own you as much as you want to be owned. That is how we can have our Mistress/slave relationship evolve." Cybil said.
"Yes, Mistress. I know I'm vulnerable to you. It is just knowing that I'm exposed to you in such a way, makes me feel I will no longer have an edge on anything." I said.
"My dear, Sean. You have said correctly. When you are ready, you will not have any edge and you won't mind, because we will be both in love. You, as my devoted slave. There's nothing like feeling love with the right person and having the life you want." Cybil said.
"Yes, that is something I'm trying to work out Mistress. I cannot distinguish my need for your dominant ways from the love for you beyond my current infatuation." I said.
"You have been truly thinking about me and feeling also!" Cybil said happily.
"Yes, Mistress. I guess I'll be able to tell soon enough one feeling from the other. I do say it makes me happy to know that independent of our need and maybe inclined to say, it's love I feel, which only makes it easier for us. I wonder if you will feel that way also, so we can have a win-win situation?" I ask.
"Sean, you are quite a piece of work. I will always be frank with you, no matter what. I can say I like you very much. Of course, the more you become my slave, the more love I'll be inclined to feel for you. I like you very much to say the least. The other love; the one that goes beyond time and space, I need my time. I can tell you, I only had that once and I'd love to have that feeling once again. I do feel for you very much. More than I have in a long time. So, it may come to be." Cybil said.
"Thank you, Mistress, for being candid. It would be perfect if you happen to feel the same, at some stage." I said.
"Let time tell. Now, I want you to tread behind me with your knee pads on and on all fours." Cybil said.
I put the pads on and looked up to her from my position. "Ready, Mistress, when you are." I said.
"Good slave. Follow me." Cybil said. I followed her to the bathroom. She went in and closed the door and I remained on all fours waiting. Soon, she was out and looked at me. "It's good to see you are obedient. Such as now I will ask from you many things and you'll be obliged out of love you feel for me and as your Mistress to perform whatever." Cybil added, with an amused face.
"Yes, Mistress. Today, I feel it as a test and guess in the future when you are in the mood, I'll have to do whatever it is, like it or not, saying this out of respect to you, knowing I might wonder why, until it becomes a part of me to follow every whim you have." I said.
"That is a positive attitude for a slave." Cybil said.
"I will be asking you until you let me. Mistress, please, can I kiss you, touch you? I want to cherish you, more and more." I said.
"You will, in due time slave. You will kiss my knee caps; then get behind them and do the same." Cybil said.
Once I'm done with both sides, I asked. "Mistress, is that the way you want to be kissed?"
"Yes. Well done, slave, for your first time. Now, lick the back of my thighs. No touching or I'll put mittens on you." Cybil said.
"Yes, Mistress. Please tell me when my hands can touch you. It's getting difficult for me." I said.
"Yes, I know. That is why I mentioned the mittens, slave." Cybil said.
I start licking. In the process, I drool, so I'm quickly lowering and pick up whatever excess I have. Cybil seems to like it, because she does not move for a while until I hear her call, "That is enough, slave."
She turns as I look up at her. "Is that as you wanted?" I asked.
"You have done it different than I expected and I liked it. Going up and then suddenly dropping fast to go up again." Cybil said.
"It's getting late, so let's have dinner. I'm expecting you to serve us." Cybil said. I proceed with serving her. We have a quiet dinner with questions and answers about our more vanilla life to be. After dinner, I clean everything up and Cybil informed me the way my first night will be with her, fettered that is.
"Mistress, you have told me about being fettered. Can you expand, please?" I ask.
"You'll have your collar on and ropes are bound from your wrists to the D rings on your collar. Your feet will also be bound. It's restrictive, but not in a total way. You will have about a foot and a half for hands and feet letting you walk in small strides. If you need the bathroom, wake me up." Cybil said.
"I know it will not be easy for me, and if I want to scratch?" I asked.
"If I'm awake, you can ask. You will have to get used to it slave. At night, it will be a must. You know I love ropes." Cybil said.
"Yes, I know that. Could this be negotiable?" I asked.
Cybil laughed, amused. "Bondage is one of the main reasons I enjoy bdsm and having you helpless is a requirement for me. If you cannot or feel it's not for you, just let me know and I'll set you free." Cybil said, drawing a line.