Chapter XXII
Somerset Gardens
Although I never asked to talk about my nondescript reservations with Bryn, he sensed my vocal inner demons and broached the subject. It was the way of a cuckold, especially a bisexual one. While I was enjoying a lingam massage and a night of cuddling alongside my neighbour, my wife was enjoying herself on the party island of sin.
I couldn't say what troubled me or worried me; I knew that within fourteen hours I would cuddling my wife again in our marital bed and I would hear all her stories. She would share her debauchery with me: explain every picture, describe every touch and recount every partner. She would detail every orgasm, elucidating on their sexual prowess and recounting their rampant masculinity with a yearning longing. The memories of her wanton lust would live long.
I knew this. I knew that as I wrapped my arms around her and she reminded me of my status in our relationship I would feel content: submissive and humbled as my marital partner underlined that her sexual appetite could only be sated by others. Emphasizing the limitations of my prowess and reviving memories of my weekend sating other men in acts of homosexual excess.
But being away from Erin was tough. Being away, so far away, as my wife spread her legs was emotionally bruising. She was in a distant land, far from me, and I was redundant. Part of our enjoyment of her promiscuity was not only cuckolding me, but being so brazen about it. The funny looks the builders gave me as they thought they knew a great secret that I didn't was part of that. The casual manner my wife sauntered home and explained why she had soaking panties or the desperation on my face as she shamelessly fucked men in front of me was all part of the same games.
It was our dynamic. And the weekend felt different because it was so different. I felt isolated from her in a way that I had no reason to do.
Bryn understood. He calmed and helped me rationalise my thoughts. He didn't dismiss or deride my worries, but as I tried to logically think and resolve my baseless fears he gave advice.
"You're playing with powerful emotions. Many of them are subconscious and emotions aren't logical. You can't beat something illogical with logic. Just ... talk it through with Erin. It'll feel fine then."
I didn't really want to discuss my flimsy, irrational misgivings with Erin but instead went for a walk on my own after breakfast while Bryn tidied the hotel room, ready for checking out.
London was busy, despite the day being a Sunday, and I got little peace as I sat on the South Bank with a cup of coffee watching the myriad of couples and people walking past.
How many of those men and women were married? How many could be cheating on their partner or indulged in an open relationship? I didn't know, but as I mused and considered the behaviour of the last few days I knew that I had got a lot of sexual and emotional pleasure from my debauchery over the weekend. I loved sucking cock, and I loved anal sex. I adored the feeling of cum dripping into my mouth from the well-fucked cunt and the glorious massage Conan had given me was a beautiful display of sensuality as well as sexuality.
What Erin and I had was something beyond what most couples had; we had a loving connection that extended trust and respect beyond the relationship. I had been secure for weeks and months about my wife's extra-marital activities; so what had changed? Did I no longer trust her?
It was patently absurd and my analytical mind separated the love and lust once again, soaking in the hot rays from the autumn day.
By the time I got back to the hotel, my wife had sent another plethora of emails: several of her with another woman and at least four men. There was cum everywhere, splattered over her body, and in her hair. On her face, and on her hands. And the men looked barely over 21.
And I felt nothing but lust and arousal as I saw it. Nothing but enjoyment and not a hint of insecurity.
I'd had a brief wobble, and I'd discuss it with Erin in time, but I was comfortable once again and my gorgeous neighbour had packed everything away by the time I had returned, making me feel rather guilty.
"I have a stop planned," he said as I entered the room. "If you want to. I don't mind if you don't feel ..."
"I'm fine," I assured him, smiling as the kind-hearted multi-millionaire pondered.
"Sure?"
"Sure. I had a thought and realised what Erin and I have is totally special. It's a form of trust that most couples will never understand or have. I have something so deep and incredible that we go elsewhere to fulfil our sexual needs as well as each other. And our interests and desires tessellate. Submission, domination. Bisexuality. And so on."
"So ... if there was a small amount of cocksucking, buggery and damn stupendous pussy eating today, you'd be OK with it?"
"Definitely," I replied, laughing at my bashful friend's silly expression.
I never saw the hotel bill; Bryn wouldn't let me pay a penny towards it, or pay for the coffees as we stopped at a service station en route to Cheshire.
By the time lunchtime came, we had turned off the motorway and Bryn was winding down the back roads through small villages and hamlets. I knew better than to ask where we were going, but my mobile phone bleeped to show another set of salacious emails from my wife.
This time she had a variety of reddened male buttocks and was holding a hairbrush. "Don't think it's just you that I discipline," she had written as the subject and I scanned the pictures to elicit any further detail; where these the same guys she was screwing in the morning?
"You OK?" Bryn asked. Our conversation had dropped off as I scanned the picture intently and he glanced into my lap to survey the kinky photographs on my telephone screen. "Wow. That one's really red!"
I squawked as his wheels clipped the grass verge and his eyes returned to the country road, full of tight turns and unpronounceable place names. "Have a look when we stop!" I demanded, flicking my phone screen off to ensure that Bryn resisted temptation. His eyes focused on the road after that and a few miles later he turned off into a dirt track before we reached the next village, bumping across the uneven ground.
"Somerset Gardens," I read as we bounced past the sign, crying out as my body objected to the rough treatment my neighbour was subjecting me to. "What's Somerset Gardens?"
He laughed. "Something that will take your mind away from ... other things!" The car accelerated towards a break in the hedges, before pulling into an expansive car park that held over 80 cars. Two naked men walked into the landscaped garden behind it and I glanced at him. "Naturist resort ... with a difference."
"With a difference?"