It was the second relationship of my adult life, having been married as a teen and then losing my wife to cancer after forty-some years. l longed for that special someone in my life again. Making an attempt l found myself as nervous as l was when a teen, l guess some things never get easier. Or maybe it was because of all those years, regardless l made it a point to be open and honest. She did so also and sex was on the menu that first night as it was important to both of us. In agreement that we were old, not dead.
l can't say it was pure porno, l gave her a massage followed by oral pleasures performed by us both. But it was enough to give interest in a second date and now two years later we are still going strong. Early on she confessed how she invited a girlfriend to bed with both of her previous suitors. l took that as the exception and not the rule and sadly for me she claimed to be as straight as an arrow. Not the first guy to be turned on by female-on-female fun.
To that l confessed how my wife and l came right up to the edge in doing the same, only by adding a second male. (Her request) Maybe it was just that, a second male or fear by one or both of us but sadly the thought as well as the actions stopped just short of choosing the one.
l have thought about that many times over the years, and it has changed over the years now with great regret of what could have been. l also found myself far more keen on the idea of a second male, even excited by the idea. l think there was a different feeling toward my wife, be it all those years, the mother of my children, or plain fear of some sort. Older or wiser, or whatever the reason l have less fear with my new partner, be it our age or maybe both having been around the block more than once. Now l felt her previous guys were selfish, not returning in kind. If she was bisexual then l could get it, but being straight it just didn't seem fair. Clearly, l have changed over the years, as many do. Coming to terms with my thoughts with very little fear. And although l wasn't completely clear l had left enough hints where most would pick up upon them, and she is far smarter than most.
l made it clear early on that she could have anything she wanted, and when mentioning such during sex, talks as if a second male was with us always brought on an instant climax in her. Yet two years later she remained hesitant to pull the trigger. That first time we broached the subject of her adding a friend, l mentioned how it would make a great 65th birthday present for me. A safe idea some years away, and maybe what she was waiting for.