Dr. Ginger Bain sat and watched the snowflakes fly outside her window. Five minutes to five on Christmas Eve, and she faced another holiday alone. Her partner in practice, Phyllis Barbarosa, had already left to see her family in sunny Florida, and Ginger was on call in case any of their patients had the holiday blues.
Ginger looked at the clock and at her diploma on the wall. Sure, they were stretching the truth, calling themselves "Counselors", but they were inside the law and her Doctor of Philosophy in Home Economics from Panhandle State was legitimate. Her thoughts wandered to dinner and where that may be had, and after that what entertainment she could find for herself. She was a plump 55 year old grandmotherly woman with shocking red hair, and red polish on her pudgy nails, a blue blouse and black skirt, her blue eyes sparkled thinking about how she could amuse herself. The bars would be closed, but the shower attachment in her tub would help give her solace for the next few days.
A soft rapping was heard on her door, and her secretary, Martha Cole stuck her head in. "Dr. Bain, an old patient would like to see you. He says it's urgent."
"Who is it?"
"Harold Mims."
She thought for a moment and remembered him. He was a tall, thin man in his mid 60's with dignified bearing which grey hair ennobled and a curled moustache accented. His sister died a year and a half ago, and she'd helped with his grieving process. Like many of her patients, he did not need all the special services she was willing to offer, but through kindness and common sense he had left her care nine months earlier.
"Send him in, and you may go for the day. Merry Christmas, Martha."
"Merry Christmas, Dr. Bain."
A moment later, Harold Mims strode into the room. He looked downcast and shuffled as he approached. She rose to greet him, looking up at his face a foot higher than hers. "Mr. Mims, how's it going? It's been a while."
"It has indeed, Dr. Bain. How are you this evening?"
"Other than being stuck here alone for the holiday, I'm fine. Just reviewing my plans when you came in. I take it you're not doing well."
"That's an understatement, Dr. Bain. The past few days have been extremely difficult, since my relationship with my son and daughter are still estranged, I will be spending the holidays alone."
"I'm sorry to hear that. Tell me more."
"Well, it's at times like these I miss Lucy, my sister, the most. She always made Christmas quite special for me." He took out a handkerchief and began sobbing quietly.
"Yes, it's times like these we miss those we love, especially if we're alone."
"I can hardly bear it," he sobbed, "sometimes I think it would be better if I were with her again."
"Oh, you will be, you will be. Just not yet."
He stopped and put his handkerchief away. "I've been thinking of taking the special cache of pills I've put aside."
"I thought I asked you to throw them away."
"I've restocked it."
"But suicide isn't going to help. You have many good years ahead of you."
He started sobbing again. "Not alone, not alone."
Carefully, she put a comforting hand on his shoulder as his body wracked in grief. If he could make it through the next few days, he would be all right, she knew it. For a few minutes she held the pose, letting him sob as he had for many times before in her presence. When he was ready, she would find something to make him come to his senses.
Finally, he sat up and put his handkerchief away. She looked at him, and said calmly. "Maybe if you remembered and talked through those memories it would help. What did you and Lucy usually do this time of year?"
He sniffed, sat down, put his hands on his lap, and looked up. "We would start Christmas Eve at my house. Decorated beautifully, I would make everything perfect for her: a fresh, well decked tree, green wreaths all over the house, scores of candles, a huge bowl of warm, buttered Rum Cider punch, a huge fire roaring in the fireplace."
"Mistletoe?"
A tear crept down his cheek. "Yes, of course. I loved my sister. We'd have a lovely dinner of our favorite family fare: home made pierogies fried in butter, carp, almond potatoes, lots of wonderful pastries. When we finished, we'd sit by the fire and listen to Handel's Messiah."
"That sounds very nice. Very nice indeed."
"I did all the decorations and had all the food prepared, but I couldn't take it, I just had to get out of there."
"I'm sorry."
"Then, after the last chorus, we'd drink brandy together, and things would get a little silly."
"Silly, Mr. Mims?"
"I'm ashamed to say."
"I'm a professional, Mr. Mims, everything you've told me is in strict confidence. Getting it out will help you."
He sniffed again, and smiled. "We'd play silly games. We'd kick off our shoes and I'd tickle her feet on the bearskin in front of the fire. Oh my God, it was so wonderful to hear her laugh, so bright and cheerful. When we'd laughed ourselves hoarse, we'd go to bed."
"Do you have a picture of her?"
He pulled out his wallet, and opened it. Lucy stood next to her brother, a foot shorter, and plump. "Would you like to try a little role play this evening, Mr. Mims?"
His face had a puzzled look as he raised his head. "Role play? We've never done that before."
"I know, I know. Would you like to take something from that a tradition to another setting?"
"I guess. Don't know what else I can do."
"Fine. Did your wife ever let you tickle her?"
"Harriet was a frigid bitch; it's a miracle she conceived, and her children are just like her."