At the car, I headed for the driver's side as Cindy opened the passenger door. Before I could take more than the first step her almost shouted exclamation, "Excuse me!" stopped me in my tracks. I looking warily at her, wondering what was wrong. "Come on," she smiled tightly, "girls ride over here. I'll take care of the driving today." My macho pride rebelled at first and I tried to stare her down. It wasn't to be and I finally slunk over and got into the passenger seat. As I did I knew that this was submission and a wave of deep satisfaction went through me. While I was lost in the sensation Cindy went to the driver's side, lowered the top and, in her best imitation of a macho man, squealed into traffic.
As we headed out of town, Cindy explained that we would be going to the mall on the outskirts of the nearby city, pointing out that it might not be good for her career to be caught hanging out with an obvious girly man. I mumbled a grateful acknowledgment, at the same time realizing that she had not, in fact, said anything about my own career. She went on to warn me, "Sweetheart, I realize that you might feel a bit uncomfortable today but I really want you to accept what happens and do as I tell you. Are you willing to do that?" I looked at her, a bit shocked that she was giving me this warning now, after all that I had already been through. It gradually dawned on me that this might be only the beginning.
"I don't know. Could it be any worse than humiliating me in front of Tim?" I whined.
"Oh, my little sissy baby, I probably will get more interesting but you can handle it. In fact," she said, leering at the lump in the form-fitting jeans, "I suspect that she doth protest too much." As I turned bright red, she continued sternly, "Now how about if you just admit that you are a sissy and that you get off on being treated like a sexy little lady. How about if you just stop with playing at the protests and resistance and we just have some fun with this."
I was shocked to hear her sum up my innermost feelings so bluntly. I still wasn't ready to acknowledge them and sat stone-faced for miles, trying to get my feelings sorted out. Whether to give in and find out where this roller coaster of sensations and thrills would take me or to hold onto what dignity I could. I realized that once I crossed the line there might be no going back. The control was Cindy's now and once I said yes it would most certainly never come back to me. It seemed like a dozen times that I almost said yes but each time pride or fear won out and I said nothing. Finally, Cindy grew impatient and, slamming on the brakes, swung the car into a screeching U-turn, saying, tensely, "OK, babe, I get it. Lets call it off."
It was an immediate and terrible sense of loss. It came to me abruptly that it was now or never and I whispered, "Yes." Then, at her questioning look, louder, "Yes, I would love to do whatever you want." I tried to smile but just managed a grimace.
"OK, Sweetie," she said. "Are you sure? If you are, you'd better smile like you believe it right now and beg me to turn around. Is this something you really want?"
Pushing my fears aside I managed a winning smile and said, "Yes, Sweetheart, it is absolutely what I want. I want you to take me in hand as your little sissy and I will do whatever you tell me. This is a dream come true for me. Please turn around."
She slowed and pulled over. After carefully scanning my face she abruptly swung the car into another U-turn. As we traveled I tried to wheedle out her her plans for the day but she would have none of it. "You'll find out when we get there," was all she would say.
As we pulled up in front of the doors to the department store at one end of the mall I felt a rush of adrenaline as the fear and excitement welled up. Looking curiously at Cindy, I wondered why she had pulled up here instead of just parking the car like we usually would. She looked back at me, speculatively. "I think you can manage it. Girls do every day," she said thoughtfully. "OK, I'm going to find parking," she said, looking out over the packed parking lot. "I might be a while. While I'm gone I want you to go to the lingerie section and get a bra. Not just any bra but a pretty one that fits. Pink would be nice."
"How do I pick the right size?" I stuttered, "I don't know what size I am."
"You are such a naive little sissy, aren't you. You have to get it fitted. You find a salesperson and ask her to help you. Now go!"
I felt my face turn beet red but got out of the car. As she drove away, I stood on the sidewalk trying to ignore the stares from the people going by but still noticing the mixture of leers, scowls and furtive smiles. Wondering how I could do this and knowing I had to. I needed to keep going. This was what I wanted and I was dying to know what the day would bring. I forced myself to walk through the doors.
As I walked into the lingerie department I looked desperately for a salesperson who might be willing to help me and not throw me out on my ear. Try as I might I couldn't tell. Finally I simply resorted to browsing through the bra's. Taking a couple from their hangers and holding them against myself. One salesgirl cruised by. I looked up hopefully but she quickly looked down and walked on, ignoring me. I saw her go back to the counter and talk to a couple of others hovering there. I could see her giggling and pointing in my direction and I felt my face grow hot. As I watched, though, the oldest of the group, curvaceous and perhaps in her late twenties, left the group and headed my way.
I was terrified. She would throw me out. Have security take me away. Report me to the police. And then, she was in front of me and smiling, "Can I help you? I see that you've found our prettiest bra's. Do yo need help getting the right size?"
"Uhhh," I mumbled.
She chuckled lightly, "It's OK. I see that you're checking them out on yourself. Is it for you?"
Her gorgeous smile was infectious and I found myself smiling hesitantly. "Uhhh, yea," I muttered.
"OK, lets get you measured up so we can find some for you to try on," and off she went to get the tape measure. As she did, I saw her say something to the other girls and they hesitantly joined her as she returned. She measured around my chest, under my breasts and announced "38! Now tell me, do you want something to fit your breasts as they are or do you plan to wear something to make them bigger?"