"Hi baby."
"yeah I'm okay."
"Oh I'm outside right now."
"...at the party still...I know it's late."
(sighs)
"Yeah...uh...we had fun."
"Yeah the party was soooo good! Everyone was so cool here and the music was amaziinnng. Like, pretty much the best party I've ever been to."
(long pause)
"Um...how are you?"
"You went to bed early? On a Friday??"
"You're still awake though."
"You don't need to worry about me! Baby you really need to go make some friends."
"You're in college! It can't be that hard!"
"I know I miss you too but we talked about this baby...we said we'd let each other try new stuff now that we're in different places."
"I know you're lonely. I'm sorry babe."
(pause)
"Well...um...so...I got kiiiiinda crazy tonight."
"Remember how last week we talked about how we were ok with sometimes trying things with other people now that we're away from each other?"
"You said you were ok with whatever as long as we told each other everything."
"Yeah...we have to be able to trust each other. You're still my boyfriend no matter what."
"So you promise you won't be mad no matter what right?"
"ok good...thanks for trusting me baby."
"Well, first we got ready at Stacy's and she let me borrow one of her dresses."
"Um, it was black and pretty small." (laughing)
"Like, it barely went over my butt."
"I dunno I wanted to look sexy I guess. All my friends were wearing sexy things too."
"Um, so then we went to Stan's to have drinks before the party. I had a drink there and Stan smoked us out a little."
"I know what you think about Stan baby...he's fun though when you get to know him..."
"He's been really helpful in class and he's always making jokes and being funny too."
"Anyway so we left for the party and got there at like 11."
"And the party was soooo good. They were playing this housey-techno kinda dance music and it was reallllly fun."
"Yeah and there was all of this crazy art stuff on the walls and in the middle of the floor. It was seriously just like Burning Man."
"Well I mean it was like what I've seen pictures of it." (laughs)
"And it had a pool and a hot tub too!"
"I know it was sooo awesome."
"Anyway so...we went in the back of the room against the wall and Stan pulled out some pills."
"I mean I told you I've kinda wanted to try molly for a while now."
"It's perfectly safe baby."
"I know but he did this thing where he let me choose first, and then he ate the other one so I knew they'd be safe."
(pause)
"We ate it at like 11:30."
"Well I didn't think it was working at first but then when I started to feel it felt amaaaazing. I was all warm and flowy and it was like there was seriously nothing that could bring me down."
"And we were dancing and singing and it was like the whole party started to get super friendly. Everyone was hugging everyone..." (laughing) "I probably hugged like 5 complete strangers."
"Yeah and Stacy and I were dancing together and cracking up at the smallest things, and just like telling each other how good we looked and how totally awesome friends we were to each other."
"And so then I saw Stan dancing near us and I went over to him and Stan and I started to dance together a little bit."
"Well he was being so nice and he hooked Stacy and me up with the molly."
"He's a good dancer actually...we were having a lot of fun!" (giggling)
"Someone actually thought we were a cute couple." (laughing)
"I mean I told them we weren't!"
"He was being really respectful and I didn't mind."
"Of course we were touching...I mean this isn't middle school."
"So then at some point someone said we should go in the pool."
"Um we all got really excited about it but none of us had any swimsuits."
"Someone said we should just go in our underwear." (laughing)
"I dunno people seemed really into it so I just went along."
"Um we all went out to the pool and a couple of the guys went first."
"Yeah Stan was one of them." (giggling)
"Then Stacy was like 'fuck it' and she took her dress off."
"...and a few of the other girls followed her so then I thought 'what the hell' and I took my dress off too."
"Just a bra and panties..."
"A thong." (laughing)
"Nobody could really see that good anyway."
"It was so fun though! The water felt amazing and someone moved a speaker out so we could all dance in the pool!"
"The water wasn't as cold as I thought it would be and it just felt so flowy and good on my body and stuff."
"Well we were dancing for a while and I was dancing with Stan...and it was really fun."
"Yeah we were grinding a little."
"We were having fun baby."
"...well then he started putting his hands on my body and I felt kinda weird about it at first, but then the music got really sexy and I started feeling really sexy. And his hands were feeling really good."
"Well I was feeling really hot and he was kinda touching me and telling me how good I looked and I could feel his thing bumping up against me and I was getting kinda...um...kinda horny."
"Are you mad?"
"Well that's why I'm telling you everything...like I want you to be able to trust me."
"Maybe just let me finish ok?"
"So then some of the girls started flashing each other and some of the guys."
"Yeah I couldn't believe it - it was so wild. And I didn't want to do it, but then the girls started teasing me."
"Well so finally...um...I did." (laughing nervously)
"I just pulled my bra up for a second."
"I know I felt soooo nervous but it was awesome!"
"I couldn't believe everyone could see them!"
"yeah Stan saw them but so did everyone else..."
"I mean it's just boobs right?"
"We actually all did it a few more times." (laughing)
"It started to be fun! It was so liberating...and kinda hot showing my friends my body."
"I um...I also kinda flashed Stan for a while just to see his reaction."
"He was soooo surprised! His mouth was like hanging open."
"He told me he thought they were really nice though and that I looked really sexy."
"Um...then we pretty much decided to leave our bras off cause everyone had seen everything anyway."
"I know I've never been topless around girls and guys before. I actually did kinda like showing off...it felt so free and naughty." (embarrassed laughing)