Saturday
Saturday began bright and early, but I was sound asleep. I had gotten in late and was still very tired. I woke up at the crack of noon. The sunshine was annoyingly bright through the window. Emily was sleeping beside me, dead to the world. This time, we were both naked. The naughty little thrill that gave me prevented me from going back to sleep. Gradually, I pulled myself out of bed and into the shower, where I was able to completely wake up and face the day.
Under the warm water, I let myself dissolve into reflection. The night before had been nothing like I'd expected. I had prepared myself to fuck a strange man I'd met only once before. I had anticipated the experience with fear, excitement and lust, but I was determined to be professional and in control. Instead, I found that the events were not in my control at all. I was shocked to find what a rush that was. Every hour of every day of my life, for as long as I could remember, was scheduled, planned and organized. It was unheard of in my parents' household to just let things flow. But now, things were happening to me that I would never have planned for myself or even imagined just days ago. I had licked another girl's pussy. I had been a part of a threesome. I had been paid for sex. For the first time in my life, I'd had an orgasm that didn't come from my own fingers. I had enjoyed myself immensely. My newfound freedom made me feel comfortable and secure in the strange path I was on.
I decided to call my parents and tell them I was not returning to school. I would make my own way in the world from now on. I was a real person and I could make my own decisions, or at least choose the person to make the decisions for me. I was going to give them every detail of my erotic awakening. Out of their shock and horror, I would build myself a new life. Let them disown me. I would never have to face them again.
The water started to get cold, so I shut it off. The fantasy ended with the shower and I knew that whatever happened, I would be returning home on Sunday and be back in Psychology 101 by 9 o'clock Monday morning.
I came out of the bathroom and found Emily up and hurriedly getting dressed. She gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and hopped into the living room on one foot, still pulling on her other shoe. I borrowed her robe again and followed.
Michelle gave me a strange look, full of questions, irritation and even respect. Neither of us said anything. Her eyes held me for a moment, then moved on. There was a tense, hurried feeling in the room. Several pieces of overstuffed luggage were waiting by the door. Michelle and her roommates were zipping around in a last minute frenzy, trying to make sure they'd remembered everything.
"Tonight is our party," she told me. "We will not be home until very late. You'll be on your own. Don't use the kitchen. There's a list of delivery places on the counter. I'm sure you can afford them. Get some rest. You go home tomorrow."
Michelle, Emily and Laura rushed out the door without a backward glance. I felt doubly rejected. She had made it clear that I was not to be invited to the party, and just to add insult to injury, she had to remind me that my lukewarm welcome in this apartment was over. My new life was already over.
I wondered what was gonna happen at this party and whether or not I would ever know. I thought about calling Michelle's cell and telling her that if she didn't let me come to the party, I was gonna tell Mom and Dad everything, but I never seriously considered it. Michelle wouldn't believe me even if I could manage to get the words out. Deep down, we still know each other too well.
I was hurt, but helpless. I was gonna spend another day watching videos. Sunday, I would go back home and the memories would gradually fade. I would mourn for Crimson and go back to being Karen. Feeling a little depressed, I went back to bed.
I was awakened by Michelle. She was sitting on the side of the bed, dripping warm water on my face from her fingers. A quick glance at the clock told me I had been asleep about two hours. I automatically brought the blankets up to my chin to hide my nudity. Inwardly, I was laughing at myself over that. I had shown myself proudly to a complete stranger, two strangers if you counted Emily, but I was embarrassed to be naked in front of my sister. Michelle had noticed, as well.
In a somber voice, she said, "I'm sorry you were brought into this. I never intended to let my life touch yours. I got where I am through pure rage. I am still fighting everything Mom and Dad tried to turn me into. I was hoping your escape would be cleaner. But it's done now and there's no going back. I'm going to give you a choice."
Michelle told me that if I really wanted to try her line of work, she would provide the opportunity. I was still going home to finish high school and I was still going to have to deal with my parents until graduation. When it was over and I was free, she would have a place for me, if I still wanted it. In order to make sure that I knew what I getting myself into, I could go to the party.
"This party is very important," she warned me. "If you are going to be there, you are going to work. Emily and Laura will be there. We have fifteen guys coming and a few part-time girls who I use from time to time. If you're going to be there, you had better be ready to fuck each and every one of them. I've hired a few bouncers and nothing will happen without condoms, so you'll be safe. You don't have to take it in the ass if you don't want to. However, these guys are coming to have a good time and if you tell me you want to be there, you are going to give them a good time. I need that commitment from you. Otherwise, you stay here."
I thought about it for a few minutes. In the end, that commitment was the deciding factor. I had been insulted when they didn't invite me, but this party scared me silly. What would they want to do to me? But by giving all my decisions to Michelle, I was ensuring my own safety and giving myself the freedom to do anything.
"If you decide to do this, I need you to be ready at 9 o'clock sharp. Don't worry about your outfit and don't take a shower. We'll get you ready over there. Do some stretching and exercises to get yourself limber and relaxed. Make sure you eat something, but don't wait too long. I don't want to hear your stomach growling during the party, but there won't be any bathroom breaks once we start."
Michelle stood up and looked at the clock. "You'll need some time to think about it. I'll call you at five to get your decision."
She looked at the clock again and then she was gone. I was left confused but exhilarated. I had already made up my mind, but I hadn't mentioned it. I did want to think about it some more.
The rest of the day was nerve-wracking. I was so excited, I couldn't sit still. The minutes dragged and limped along like sick animals, except during a few spots of terrified panic, when they flew like Olympic sprinters.