I was relaxing in my room on a Tuesday when I got a very suspicious text from my roommate:
"orlo you really trust me right?"
"yeah of course whats up?"
"ok I want you to get in the shower and when you get out sit on your bed in something cute and slutty. I've been thinking about what you said the other night"
"uhhhhhhhh the fuck? you don't even like me like that?"... "and what happened to that guy you were talking to"
"nonono its not for me"... "trust me if you were telling the truth i think you're really going to like this. so do you own a bra and panties or what?"
"jesus christ"... I really paused to consider whether I wanted to admit to owning a pair of girly underthings. Most roommates don't talk about shit like this, right? But I decided she already knew enough about my perversions that there wasn't that much risk. "mhhh i might"
"sly bitch of course you do"... "okay take your shower now and put just those on then text me"
"okay IM TRUSTING YOU. you fucking better not make me regret that"
*****
Natalie and I (Orlo -- it's German or some shit) share a room in a flat near a small college in NYC. And yeah, before you ask, money really is that tight. We are always bumping shoulders but I was NOT going back to the dorms after the experience my first year. And anyway, Nat and I get along well enough. Hell, she's probably my best friend here, as you would be able to tell by our conversation the other night. I'll take you through it:
We had both had half a bottle of the cheapest wine we could get at the corner store. There wasn't anything happening and we're both introverted anyway so we decided to get tipsy and do what had become surprisingly comfortable over the past year: say stupid shit for hours on end until one of us passes out.
We're both in STEM, so typically Natalie would bemoan endlessly about the dating prospects in her classes. She called them all "little nerds and anime boys... no offense". I could have told her for the thousandth time that, actually no, I don't watch much anime at all, but I got her point. I was kind of a nerd, I was more than a little effeminate, and I guess the anime thing just came with the territory.
Natalie wasn't all that much better (which maybe should have been obvious from the fact that we were both sitting here alone on a Saturday night). Her appearance didn't give any nerdy clues -- just that of a typical early 20s black woman -- but every time she talked it was like she thought the words would get away from her if she didn't sprint through a sentence. And if she thought you would have anything to say in response, those sentences could be quite profound; whether about astronomy, sex, politics, or numerous others, her mind could work a topic. It was a task just to keep up with her, and the few people who stayed around her showed that.
But I'm getting way ahead of myself. Somehow the topic of conversation this night moved on to a guy Natalie had been seeing the past few weeks. I thought he was just 'fine' but Natalie seemed to be really into him. She talked about how he was so open and caring and -- you get the idea.
Then she started prying into what I was into and unfortunately that half-bottle of wine betrayed me. I ended up telling her way too many of my fantasies: submission, exhibition, feminization; and all I got in return was that she was "probably a dominant" and "into vanilla stuff". So much for a fair trade of information.
To be fair, I'm not ashamed of who I am. Start telling people you like girly things and you quickly get used to people reacting worse than getting quiet. And I don't think anything I said shocked her too much because I'd been wearing cute outfits around the house, and when I felt really brave I picked a crop-top for a night out.
I held myself differently from most boys: walking with a little more spring and sway, growing my hair out, and shaving the god-forsaken hair off my body -- small things, but they felt fulfilling in some way. But am I a girl? Nah, too much work; plus, I like pockets. I know there are a million and one terms for me. Honestly, I just want to feel cute. Call me a femboy, if you want.
I decided to follow Natalie's instructions, with a small twitch in my loins from equal parts excitement, arousal, and true fear. I made my way to my dresser and realized with a blush that no one had ever seen me in panties before. I had collected a few pairs but I was definitely too embarrassed to be seen in most of them. I decided on a pair of simple, black, hipster-cut panties, my first-purchased and most modest pair. Natalie told me to put on a bra too but I didn't actually own any, thinking the femboy trend of wearing an empty bra more sad than anything. What I had instead was this grey cotton tankbra that I loved.
I looked down at my body before stepping into the shower. Whether or not I called myself a femboy, I definitely had the body for it: ruthlessly skinny and fit enough to have shape but definitely not enough to impress with muscle. I had shaved and moisturized my body yesterday so my skin was still a smooth and unblemished warm-beige.
My shower was uneventful. I would be lying if I said I didn't think about doing a little self-pleasure, but it didn't feel right and I never liked masturbating in the shower anyway. I got out, dried off, and slipped the panties on, checking out the view in the mirror. They may have been more-or-less normal on a girl, but on me they stood out lewdly just by virtue of being panties. I adjusted everything as well as I could and then slid the tankbra over my head. It had the option of tying a cute bow in front so I did that too, figuring I would follow Natalie's "cute" instruction as much as possible, and "slutty" as least as possible.
Our flat was weird: a tiny private bathroom and an oversized single bedroom was shared between us, and two more units plus a kitchen and living area adjoined, making four people in the unit total. So you can imagine my trepidation as I crept into our shared bedroom, even with the blinds pulled and the bedroom door locked. I heard some muffled noises from the common room, but it wasn't anything out of the ordinary.
Natalie had said to just wear the bra and panties, but I figured I should dress to impress, so I pulled out a choker that I hadn't worn out before and quickly slipped it on. Some cutesy socks would have completed the look, but I didn't have any, so I pulled a blanket around myself and sat on the bed before shooting Natalie a text, "alright bud I did what you asked. what's your big plan here?"
"don't call me bud bitch"
And then I heard a sound at the bedroom door -- "THUD THUD THUD". I jumped off the bed at the sound, nearly leaping straight out of my skin at the thought of being seen like this. Somehow I managed not to let out a yelp, but only just.
"Ay, unlock the door. This is part of your surprise," I heard Natalie say impatiently, putting a teasing sweetness on the word 'surprise'.
Letting Natalie in put my senses on edge, but in honesty I had expected her to play this game in person, so I wasn't too surprised. As I turned the lock I suddenly overcame my surprise and instead became conscious of my immodest position so I called out, "Okay but wai---"
And then the door handle immediately turned and within one second I was in full sprint back to the safety of my bed and the modesty of my blanket. Yeah, leaving the blanket on my bed was a dumbass mistake but I really didn't expect Natalie to be so bold. I wrapped myself back up and turned to her with a blush. I wasn't sure if she had seen anything, but she definitely had a smirk on her face and the idea that she was so enjoying me being so flustered was humiliating enough. Thankfully, she quickly shut the door behind her.
"Don't worry I only got a peek, but damn--" she made a face of hedonistic approval "--I think you'll do just fine."