"Thanks for turning off the lamp," Pam said rather timidly.
"I could tell you were uncomfortable," I answered, holding her naked body, her head on my chest.
The last hour or so had been, well, better than our honeymoon. We'd explored, and laughed, and grunted. Spontaneous, yet with the deep knowledge and trust of those long married.
"I knew you wanted..."
"Babe, it's not about what I wanted..."
"But, I thought...
"You do know that I think I am the luckiest bastard in the entire world to be married to you? I'm scared every time we make love, thinking I'm going to wake up from the most amazing, erotic dream and find out I completely imagined you, our life, everything," I spoke from my heart. "Babe, all I really want is your happiness."
"I know that, Steve," Pam answered, running her hand over my chest. "I thought..., you've been so turned on with..., what's happened at my treatments...and..."
"Don't get me wrong, Gorgeous, It's been a real turn on! It's..., jeez, I don't even have words to explain how hot it is, or why! I really can't explain why I find it erotic, just plain fucking sexy as hell," I chuckled. "It's not something I'd have thought I'd be okay with, but..."
Pam sat up and looked at his face, "You are okay with it, right? You're not angry with me that I..."
I gently turned her face to mine and kissed her hard. "Whoa, just stop, alright? You didn't do anything wrong. And if you haven't noticed, I seem to be really alright with it," I kissed her again.
Pam giggled, "Yeah, I kinda noticed." She bent and kissed my chest. Several times.
"But it's not like... ," I touched her face so she would look at me, "you don't have to show everything, or anything. It's seeing you enjoying the attention. That it turns you on too, right?."
Pam had a quizzical look.
"You don't have to...," i sought to clarify, "you don't have to actually show you tits or pussy to be hot. With Dr. P it's the partial nudity, the impropriety, I guess, of the situation. Even if he's setting it up, that you're flashing him a little of stuff he shouldn't be seeing. With Billie, he didn't see anything, but being braless you sure got his attention. You got both of us hard, just knowing we were almost seeing your 'perfect tips'," I said caressing her perfect right 'tip', "that he shouldn't be seeing these poking at him."
Pam smiled very seductively, "Mike, and those men when I went to the store too?"
"Exactly! None of them had to 'see' to be turned on. You were, ah..., attractive to them, they wanted to see more and you were sorta showing. That turns guys on, it sure turns me on too."
Her eyes broke from mine. "I was, am, really turned on with... I'm excited that Dr. P has , like, seen my bush. Well pretty much. But it was just as fun teasing Billie," she said softly. "I, it... it's thrilling. I never thought..."
"Me either!" I laughed.
"I didn't realize about Mike," she smiled shyly, "or the men at the store. I mean, I sorta felt they were looking, but honestly didn't realize how much they could see till you showed me in the bathroom mirror. I was embarrassed...and thrilled! I... I liked that they could see my pokies. IS that wrong, Babe?"
"NO, I don't think so. I'm just saying, that's thrilling for me too. You don't have to show anyone these beautiful breasts," I caressed them, "or have them see you completely naked to excite me, or yourself, right?"
"Right," she agreed. "But you're okay if I do? I mean, show my breasts or pussy?"
"I'm fine as long as you tell me about it," I answered calmly, "but I'd really, really rather watch you doing it!" I emphasized, a little too much maybe. Pam just smiled.
"I think I'd like that better too," she looked into my soul. "I'd feel safer, and I'd get to see your reaction too. That would make me happy as well as thrilled to be naughty."
We kissed and held each other for some time without words. When I woke up, I noticed someone had closed the shades. Oh well, baby steps.
The week was a bit tame, as Pam's monthly time arrived at work on Friday. She's pretty regular, and the timing was spot-on, she said, as she'd most likely be done 'with it' by her next appointment. She was concerned about that, I found out Monday night.,"
"So, ah... what you think I should wear Thursday?"
"Thursday? Something special at work?" I toyed with her. That earned me a smack on the shoulder.
"You know very well what I'm talking about," she smiled as I chuckled.
"You ah...?"
"I should be done by then. Normally it lasts five days, just once in a while I go six," she answered absently. "I just don't know what to wear."
"How 'bout that blue business suit you got for the big case last year, with a guy style shirt and tie?" I opined as seriously as I could.
Pam gave me the evil eye, then closed them and shook her head. "You're a lotta damn help," she mumbled. "Steve, I am serious, what if he..."
"What?" I was confused now, not yet making the connection.
"What if he.... You know I don't even let you touch my butt... my... my hole," Pam was bright red, honestly mortified at the prospect.
I'm not an anal guy at all, but Pam was absolutely terrified of the very idea, not letting me even try to enter her from behind for nearly a year after we were married thinking I might try to do 'that.' It was never an issue for me and we had long since become comfortable - and trusted each other implicitly- for her to not even worry if I rubbed my hard member against her behind. We both knew 'that' was off the table. It didn't preclude her from bending over a couch or table and invite me to have her, but this was another guy who'd be in a position to tread - or touch - forbidden territory.
"Oh," I said as the switch finally flipped and my very dim bulb came on.
"Yeah," she glared at me.
"Well, just wear some granny panties?"
"What?" she looked shocked. "What are granny panties? Like a diaper?"
I started to laugh. "No, not a diaper. It's ...Well, it's just un-sexy full coverage, nothing-is-showing panties. Any guy would know what they are, and what they mean."
"I beg your pardon?" Pam pronounced clearly, "Do you mean something like these?" she pulled back the sheet. "Are you referring to these as 'granny panties'? Are you calling me an old lady? Seriously?" The look in her eyes would have frightened the devil himself.
Her panties were plain, black, cotton, covered her from her belly button to thigh, unflattering, showed no form or any part of her butt. Granny panties. Not available anywhere near a Victoria's Secret and had never been worn by any woman ever hoping to entice a man into anything but sleep. They said no, no way, not with me, completely off limits, and don't bother trying.
She'd actually made my point. "Well, yeah, you wear those during your period. They pretty much say to stay away."
She was still squinting at me, but I could see she was processing. "I wear them because I don't want to ruin my good lingerie. They're.... utilitarian."
My gorgeous, adorable wife is not one to admit defeat. "I will not be on my period by Thursday, so I will not be wearing anything like this. I wouldn't want Dr. P to think I was on my monthly, and I certainly do not want anyone" she emphasized that word "thinking of me as a granny." I didn't need the panties to tell me that nothing was happening tonight.
"Okay," I sighed. "I gather you've been thinking about this. Do you want Dr. P to see your bottom, or not?"
Pam looked down at the sheets without saying a word.
I forged ahead. "I think it would be wonderful, for both you and him."
"And you!" she snapped.
I quietly picked up my phone and found the picture from last Thursday afternoon. "Yeah, I would be very proud to have him see your fabulous backside," I said frankly and held the picture for her to see again.
She looked and rolled her eyes. "I don't know what got into me."
"I think you were enjoying the moment. You liked being seen by this other man, it excited you , and you knew it excited me too," I admitted, trying to digest all we'd talked about in the last couple weeks into one salient point.
"Steve," she began, surrendering and sounding tired from her internal struggle. "Babe, it did excite..., it does excite me. I think about how I felt, how I feel, all the time now. I do want him to see me...maybe..., yeah, others to see me, but I... ," she stopped, exasperated, and turned the camera to me. "I'm excited about the idea of showing him this," she pointed at her spread lips in the photo, "I just don't want him golng near this," pointing at her rosebud. Then she dropped the phone.