I see you. Watch you out of the corner of my eye from across the room, quietly. You know I'm there, I know that. You couldn't miss me when you saw me walk in. Your eyes followed as I crossed right in front of you to take a seat on the far side of the room. I ignored you as I walked past; refusing to acknowledge your existence.
I feel your eyes burning my skin when you think I'm not paying attention. Your gaze ignites the blood that courses through by body. You eyes turn back to the front of the room and I am left free to admire that which I long to covet. The body I want to make my own.
I want to feel your powerful thighs shifting under mine. Want to watch as you writhe in ecstasy as I hover over you, taunting you. I want your voice in my ear when you come. I want to know that your breath only leaves your body right at that exact moment for me and for me alone.
Your eyes watch the speaker, but I know you know I am drinking you in. Trying desperately to intoxicate myself with the pheromones you release unconsciously. You drip of sex. It leaks out of every pore on your skin. I want to run my tongue over your entire body and lap it up.
You are leaning over to her now, the woman at your side that also shares your bed at night. My eyes narrow and I feel jealousy slash through me. She doesn't deserve you. She hasn't even an inkling of what you are capable of.
I do.
She wants to harness you, rein in the animal that seethes beneath your skin. I want to free it. Let it escape and let you be who you really are.
My heart skips once, twice, when your ice blue eyes cut to mine as you whisper in her ear. You whisper promises that you have no intention of ever collecting on. Your lips brush over her earlobe and I swear I can feel them against my own. A whispered pledge of just what it is that you'd like to do to me, not her.
Why do you stay with her? You don't love her and she in turn, hates you. But she is certain she has you under her thumb, she is comforted in the knowledge that you have nowhere else to go.
But you do.
You lay with her in bed at night going through the motions, completing the act until she moans out once, sighing against your neck that she is tired now. She gives no consideration to you. Her eyes not alight with humor when she mocks that you haven't had your release.
Her back turns to you as she rolls over and she succumbs to sleep moments later. She is sated, there is none for you. You are left to your own devices.
Your hand is stone cold as you wrap it around the length of you. The coldness never diminishes despite the heat of yourself in your hand. You finally give yourself over, but it is a rigid, brutal orgasm and in seconds, it is gone.
There is no warm glow. No sudden release of intense, blinding pressure that you lose your voice to from screaming. You are left out on the vast glacier she abandons you on when she allows you to bed her.
How dare she?
I can't understand why you continually relent to her. She has you by the balls and you follow willingly. A long lost puppy dog with nowhere else to turn.
You shift back into your seat and glance fully in my direction now, growing bolder. My eyes meet yours, for I hide nothing. My intentions read clearly on my face and I smile a wide smile to you as my skin flushes. You return it and tilt your head, curious now because you know what you can do to a woman with just a glance.
She isn't like that. She doesn't care one bit what you want. She wants you there to provide her a quick, swift orgasm. The deed over, she turns her back on you for an untold amount of time until she needs you between her legs again.
You are just a thing to her.
No more, no less.
I shift my legs, cross the opposite over the other and I hear the soft rustle of my pantyhose as they shift. Your eyes narrow when you hear this and I realize that I have your full attention now.
A sly smile plays across my lips and your eyes narrow as you lean back in the chair, lifting your hand away from her back. She won't miss it.
I scan the room; see no one else is giving me notice but you. My stomach clenches when I realize I have your undivided attention. This is what I have been pining for.