I stand trembling at the bedside, nervous and anxious. I slowly lower myself into position, preparing for what is to come. Fighting my battles with myself before you begin yours. Dreading the first strike, yet tingling with anticipation. You start off slow, allowing me time to get ready, you pause, I flinch. You strike, I try not to move. A few more then harder, I can't help but jump. A squeal escapes me, I try not to cry out. Quickly rising against the blow I wish you would be so kind as to tie me down. Give me something to fight besides myself. I try to stay quiet, I know someone is out there, someone who knows what is going on.
I begin to give in to the rush, let myself enjoy the experience. Relaxing until the rhythmic swats cease, dreading the next one, but dreading waiting even more. Getting wetter and wetter, wondering what I am doing? Realizing that at any time you could stop, but hoping that you won't. Reveling in the pounding that my ass and back are taking. Remaining in the moment yet thinking about what is coming next. Dreading it, yet almost ready to beg for more. Almost.
Dealing with the humiliation of submitting to what I so dearly want, yet blushing at the thought. Feeling my entire body heat up as my pussy swells up with need. Telling myself I hate what you are doing to me, yet betrayed by my own body. Desperately needing to ask for more, trying to form the words "please Sir". They won't come out fueling my frustration. Wanting to ask for more, asking you to go harder, at the same time, afraid of what I will get.