The ride back home from Arnie's party was at first a silent, if regrettably, thoughtful affair. I think Ben knew that nothing could be more effective than silence to let the full magnitude of what I had done - and by virtue of who had witnessed it - what I had become, to sink in. It was all like some kind of nightmare. I had just popped out of a cake stark naked, then shown off obscenely and then... I had sucked one of the biggest assholes I knew in front of all his friends.
As far as they knew I was doing it for the money. As I stared out the window of Ben's big SUV, the world of McMansions and gated community homes and golf course went by accompanied by the ambient sound of the road. I had to admit that in a way, they were right. Sure, I could justify that I was saving my home and had made a deal that was exploiting me and thus had no choice, but in another way someone had paid someone for me to be there and that made me something in their mind. That fact only compounded my shame.
The car hit a bump and made my unfettered tits bobble and bump against each other under the thin, pink, satin sweat top. I looked down as my nipples reacted involuntarily to the sudden jarring and coincidental alignment of the air conditioner's blast.
"Whoooiieee, I will never get tired of seeing that," said Ben with a guttural chuckle.
For a second, lost in my self examination and condemnation, I had actually forgotten he was there. I looked over, just in time to see his overjoyed leering at my huge boobs.
"Damn, Renee. I have to tell you I don't think I have ever seen anything quite that hot in my life."
At first I wasn't sure if he meant my nipples or what I had done at the party so I gave him a neutral if slightly disgusted look. I mean there wasn't anything I could really say in my defense. I had stripped down to nothing, not a single stitch. I had shaken my tits with delighted smile on my overly made up face. I had shown off every indecent inch of my ass and pussy for men that at one time had treated me with deference and respect. And then to top it all off I had given a filthy tantric blowjob to one of the biggest dumbasses I knew while they all watched. I also realized what that made me. And worse, I knew, I could never ever again, really mount any kind of decent defense against any of Ben's dirty observations and commentary. I felt so... meek, so weakened, very nearly doomed to compliance. I think it came across too.
Which was why he was sitting there, openly grinning ear-to-ear as his big erect cock tented his shorts.
"I mean it. Sure I've seen pornos and I've even seen some strippers and hookers do bachelor parties, but god damn! Seeing YOU on your knees sucking a cock like that. I mean REALLY working for it."
He chuckled again.
"Damn baby, you ARE too good."
I did not say thank you. In fact, I did not say anything. Somewhere deep inside I just shrank a little more. I tried not to dwell on the fact that I had just become the queen of slutsville and my anointing had been with a fountain of Arnie's jizz. It was like I would never be able to truly defend myself, my honor, or even say, "you must be kidding" or "hell no, who do you think I am?" to even the most outrageously humiliating request of nudity or perversion.
I don't think Ben picked up on it just then, because, well, he did have an erection and that always seen to occupy every ounce of his meager brain capacity. It was just as well, because I hated to think what might be coming next. We had just turned onto my street and were driving along past all the other nice homes where "decent" people lived when he said something that shook me.
"You know you are going to be the talk of the neighborhood after this."
At exactly that same moment the sunlight reflected off the car window perfectly and I got an absolutely undeniable mirrored reflection of myself in the glass. Hair still stringy and wet face without any make up, I looked like a thirty-something, surgically augmented, suburbanoid milf, the kind that aging pornstars began to play when their blush of youth was fading. It hit me that in a bunch of ways now, I was no different.
We pulled up in front of my house and Ben eased his vehicle into the drive. I started to reach for the door handle when he cleared his throat, stopping me. I looked back over at him.
"Aren't you going to invite me in?" he grinned.
I just blinked and stared. We both knew he was coming in. Now he was just fucking with me... my head at least. He waited.
"Would you like to come in, Ben," I said.
He faked a frown.
"Are you sure, I mean only if you really are sure you'd like me to come..." and then almost giggling added, "...in."
I couldn't help it. I rolled my eyes and just sighed. I suppose it was just what he was after because he chuckled as my shoulders sagged a bit.
"Fine, I said affixing that fake beauty contestant, stripper-out-of-a-cake-and-couldn't-be-happier smile on my face. "Sure. I'm sure."
"Well, okay then," he said happily turning off the ignition.
I climbed out of the car and feeling every part of my anatomy loose and jiggly with every step walked up to the front door as my new boss and manager followed with his cock pointing the way. A second later we were inside my home. It was still the same opulent, tastefully decorated refuge from when my husband and I had been socially on top, but now, with what I had done to maintain it, and especially with Ben physically invading, it seemed somewhat different. That was reinforced when he patted my buns affectionately.
"You know I could really go for a beer."
I gave him a put out look, but without saying anything, walked away to the kitchen. I had just opened the refrigerator and taken a beer out, and was in the act of popping the cap - a sound I am sure he could hear - when I heard him say, "Oh, hey, be sure and be naked when you bring it back in," before adding enthusiastically, "I just love watching you walk around in the buff."
I swear it sounded like he was suppressing a dirty laugh. But in my newly low self-esteemed state of mind, I didn't even raise my usual objection to his childish sexual requests. I just set the bottle on the counter, pulled off the sweats and walked back out in the nude. As I rounded the doorway into the living room I saw that he had used the time to get naked as well.
He was sitting on my almost brand new couch completely nude, lolled back so his big belly and erection both stood out as he stretched both hairy arms along the back of the settee. He looked me up and down and his cock twitched as he took the cold brew.