At first it felt like a weird request but I've got to admit that I felt somewhat flattered too, a bit excited, both with regards to my ego and sexually. The idea of showing myself off naked to an attractive woman wasn't that bad, the fact that she was going to do figure sketches and perhaps even a complete drawing or painting was even better as she had quite a lot of talent in my opinion.
The first time I came to her apartment that she also used as a studio I was feeling nervous. But it was only while standing in her bathroom which she'd suggested that I undress in that my nervousness really kicked in. Shuddering a little as I wondered if I could, would and should go through with it. She was a good friend and I suspected no foul play, in fact the idea of showing myself off naked in front of her was a bit of a turn on. But it was just that that was my problem. What if I found it such a turn on that I got an erection in front off her? It was quite an embarrassing thought and one I couldn't really rule out as we men sometimes or rather most times have less control over our organs then we would like.
I braced myself and started undressing, trying to clear my mind of any excited thoughts and naughty ideas. Having folded up my clothes I breathed out before leaving the bathroom and walking bare-bottomed to the room she used as a studio. She smiled at me and asked if I was ready, trying not to show how uncomfortable I was suddenly feeling I said sure. She asked me to pose leaning against a wall, as she wanted my hands behind my back and the rest of me fully exposed I wasn't glad at that pose at first but as I got tired of standing up I was glad I had the wall behind me for support. Leaning against it to relax a bit. Remembering that advice from the military that the trick to standing at attention isn't tightening every muscle of the body but rather to keep them as relaxed as possible.
She focused on her sketches so we didn't talk much once she'd begun. Mostly it was her reminding me to keep the pose. I must've memorised that whole room several times over before she let me go for the day. I was trying not to look at her, trying hard in order to not get excited in any way or get any naughty ideas. Feeling more aware of my naked body then I usually ever am when I'm naked and alone.
It was something of a relief when she told me I could get dressed again, making me try not to show how much I hurried back to my awaiting clothes.
I couldn't sleep that night. I kept thinking about the whole situation, about the what if's. What if she liked what she saw, what if it made her excited, what if she'd walked up to me and kissed me, what if she'd...
I had agreed to model for her again, much thanks to her flattery about the first time I modelled for her. She'd said that she hadn't thought of it at the time as she was focusing on getting the sketch right but looking at her sketches afterwards she didn't think I was that bad looking. Her flattery lifting my hopes up a bit as I was kind of wanting her to want me more and more.
Coming there this time I was feeling a mix between anticipation and even more fear of showing more of myself than I wanted. Having all those fantasies swimming around in my head, almost waiting for her to jump me. Well, more like hoping for her to jump me. Leaving the bathroom door intentionally unlocked as I undressed, I knew I was exaggerating how much she might like me but hope springs eternal. I'd been fantasising about being completely exposed in her presence again since the last time.
Again she had me pose against the white wall, though this time I was thankfully posed facing the wall. Thankfully because this time I found it harder to push away those naughty thoughts and wishes of her walking up to me and grabbing my behind or nibbling on my ear or... facing away from her I felt less of a need to hide my expressions... and my erections... I still fought the horny thoughts but less successfully this time. Trying to avoid pushing myself away from to wall...even more not to rub up against it as I so badly wanted to.
It was such a weird feeling, hearing her use that piece of charcoal on the paper without seeing her. Longing for her to do something which was out of character for her and not see if she was in any way on her way to doing it. My back and bum felt cold, as did the backside of my calves and thighs. Feeling cold and exposed. At her mercy, artistically and otherwise. I felt more exposed this time because I came into the situation with more fantasies and expectations as well as less focus on not thinking about them.
I was slow to respond when she said she was done, being in a condition which I did not wish to show her I kept my back towards her for a while, hurrying into the bathroom when she turned to look in another direction... It felt like the whole thing was getting a bit too awkward for me. Like having her watch me was starting to crawl in under my skin. If I'ld have been able or allowed to move around it might've been different. If I hadn't know her or felt attracted to her it would've been different. If being naked hadn't made me so horny it would've been different....
She wanted me to pose a third time, I felt like saying no but still, the idea attracted me. Perhaps it attracted me too much, making me horny. This time she said she wanted to do a painting, that would mean standing or sitting for her much more. I had no idea if I could stay patient that long but still, the idea of having a painting of myself in the buff made spoke to my ego. The hope that she might be getting more interested in me, she had after all dropped a comment or two about my looks since my last posing, making the prospect even more interesting. Joking about how I looked in the nude and how easily she got me naked. How quickly I undressed, saying I seemed ready to drop my drawers for anyone who asked. Any woman at all.