A few years ago I found myself suddenly at the age of fifty living by myself with a great deal of spare time. In so many ways life had become comfortable. I had been paid off from my job as a project manager and I was in the unusual position of being able to draw early on a very generous pension scheme. Yes, I could relax and enjoy life. The only thing that was missing was that I had no one to share it with. Many of my friends and colleagues had moved to other towns or retired to the countryside so I was rather lonely. That is until I meet Natasha. My relationship with Natasha really shouldn't have worked out but somehow we found a way to make sense of it. Natasha was only twenty four years old when we met. There was an age difference between us of some twenty six years. And initially I had many reservations about this. Not least that it felt inappropriate that I should marry a woman young enough to be my daughter but yet it felt so very comfortable being with her.
As it turned out the strangest thing about our relationship was the sexual side. Natasha has always been a very shy young lady and at first sex was a problem. For the first year of our marriage we struggled to find a connection sexually but then we began to play with some more interesting ideas. We began to explore various different approaches to masturbation. I should explain that although Natasha is shy she is also one of sexiest women I've ever known. She is from Poland and is very pretty with a truly incredible figure. She is slender with nice curvy hips and small breasts and long flowing brown hair to match her deep set brown eyes. There is nothing I like more than seeing her on the beach in one of the many bikinis that she owns and she is constantly receiving the attention of other men where ever she goes. So on one hand I felt quite frustrated by our lack of intimacy but then I also simply enjoy being with such a sexy young nubile.
The thing that I started to notice in myself as I became older is that I have developed a taste for voyeurism. Actually the truth is that it was always there. I'd always enjoyed pornography but now that I am older I have found myself becoming more comfortable with my voyeuristic leanings. Getting married to Natasha has just made my voyeuristic leanings stronger. When I studied her lovely young body I would get aroused and then I would have thoughts about her being made love to by other men. I would drool over her but in a way that I wanted to see her being taken care of by someone else. I drilled down into my feelings and become more aroused as I contemplated how it would feel to be there watching as another man, a younger man penetrated my lovely young wife.
For a while these feelings bubbled under the surface. I felt a bit embarrassed about them and yet as time passed they just seemed to get stronger. I was becoming obsessed by the idea of Natasha being with another man and gradually I gave into it. I surrendered myself to the feelings that were flooding through me. Eventually I had to broach the subject with her. It was awkward but I managed it. At first it was little chats about the health of our marriage and we then talked about the age difference between us and then we would discuss the possibility of exploring a new way forward. Soon she realised what I was covertly suggesting and she was a little shocked. But then it began to settle in her and she started to feel comfortable talking it through. After some time it turned into a shared masturbation fantasy and then suddenly we were both completely immersed in the idea. Suddenly we were exploring the idea in our minds and imagining various scenarios on a regular basis.
Then everything changed when we went on a summer holiday to San Sebastian in Spain. It is a resort that we'd visited the previous year and we even managed to rent the same secluded villa that was up on the hill away from the busy town. I had a feeling that something was going to happen on this holiday. We had been developing the idea for several months by this point and I could sense that Natasha was ready for it. And being on holiday had set the mood perfectly. After a few days of lazing on the beach and eating at the local restaurants we had settled into a pleasant holiday feeling of relaxation and inhibition.