Chapter One
I have always been, as Beyonce sang, 'a single lady' at heart really, never short of male attention which I have very much enjoyed but I had never seen the white picket fence view of 'LTR's that other people valued. Don't get me wrong, I've had a few long term relationships over the years and I've been sad when they ended but I always, always, ALWAYS highly prized my freedom to go where & when I wanted, how I spend my money and most importantly I highly valued the companionship of my close knit group of girl friends. Men just sometimes got in the way of that.
Now in my early forties and very at ease with who I am, professionally & personally, I live a relatively comfortable life, able to travel & socialise as I please. In my twenties I might have been considered to be a bit wild. I would dress provocatively to show off my feminine assets to their best advantage. On holidays I'd happily wear the skimpiest bikinis or eagerly skinny dip & sunbathe topless. I had long legs, a narrow waist, an ample bosom and I did like to be looked at. Well, thankfully I still have the assets and judging by some of the looks I still get from men (& some ladies) they like the look of me too. I am, what others have told me, pretty. I however see flaws, don't like my 'button' nose, I would rather have blue than green eyes and I think at size six, my feet are too big. I'm a shade over five foot eight inches tall so maybe they're about right. I dunno. I'd like Scandinavian blonde hair but I have, with my jet black hair, the look of an Irish colleen. Well, that's what the word from others seems to be.
Since my mid-teens I've been very aware of the effect I have on men and I like the 'kinks' I've developed related to that in the years that followed. I've always enjoyed being a bit of a tease, showing a stocking top, letting a nipple slip, not wearing panties or a bra when going out, or just a simple mini skirt & skimpy underwear. There is a strange anomaly, however, that it's ok for women to show more than men. A man would likely be arrested if he was caught flashing whereas a woman flashing wouldn't, in 99.9% of the cases, even be reported. Once I realised that, it was game on.
I love going out shopping with no knickers on. I will wear a tastefully short skirt but nothing overt of course. Ironically, I wouldn't want to be too obvious! I actually 'scout' for good locations. Supermarkets are perfect as are DIY stores as many items are placed high up, or low down allowing my shortish skirt to ride up or my legs to open when I crouch down. I also like to be freshly shaved down below as there's not much to see through the leaves of a bush, so to speak. I love shaving my pussy and of course my bottom as it all just feels so, so smooth after that I want to keep touching myself.
I have found other 'kinks' that now just seem to be so normal to me but I'm sure others find outrageous. For instance, I love the feel of metal on & inside me. Is that outrageous? I don't know really, but I love how smooth or how rough it can be, I love how cold or how hot it gets. I love sliding metal chains over my naked body. I love rubbing them in between my wet pussy lips and back across my shaved bum cheeks and along my anus towards my, by then, puffy labia. That's one reason I enjoy DIY stores. I spend a lot of my visit in the tools & hardware sections making sure items for sale are fit for purpose of course.