(This chapter is dedicated to an anonymous/adventurous couple who have written copious comments about this series. Thanks again to everyone for their input.)
David avoided talking about what I was doing with this odyssey I was on. I sensed that he knew, even before the couples swap, I was having sex with other men. How could he not smell it on me?
I was never selfish in our marriage. David was big guy on the block and I was the attentive and loving wife. Those were roles played out everyday around the world but I was growing stagnant in that role. I didn't plan its unfolding but it was sex that unfolded before me and it was like electricity running through my body.
I kept picturing a scenario where David could understand and embrace my desires but it couldn't happen if I kept secrets and David kept wishing it away. We needed to talk...openly.
After dinner, I had to block his usual dash to the living room and then, the trickier part, get him to talk, a frequent challenge for the gender. 'Use your words', I repeated endlessly.
"David, we have to talk."
"If it's about that," referencing what he knew was coming, "I'd rather not."
"But, we have to," I pleaded. "I love you and want you with me. This is about sex not love. You love sex just like I do."
"I love sex with my wife."
"You're not losing that. But I need more variety in my life and I want you to be a part of that."
"What? You want me to hold your thong while some guy has his way with you?"
"Let me ask you something, how often do you think of other women? In a typical week how often do you find yourself fantasizing about someone on the street or in your office or anywhere?"
"Hardly ever," he said with a straight face, "I fantasize about you."
"I don't believe you," I challenged him, "you're full of shit."
"It's true!" He protested.
"What do you think I am, blind, deaf and oblivious? Just in the time I spend with you I see you scouting pretty girls all the time..."
"But I..."
"...and when you're checking them out, what are you imagining?"
"Just that they're pretty."
"No, David, what is your dick plotting when you see a pretty girl?"
"Nothing, I'm married."
I put my head in my hands, "God, you're exhausting! David, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WITH THEM?!?!"
"I, ah, sometimes I..."
Calming myself down, "David, just like how you were with Sandra, you're attracted to them and you want to fuck them. If you had the chance and they said yes you'd fuck every single one of them."
He stopped talking.
"It's normal," I reassured him, "so I'm telling you that I have those same attractions and urges except I don't want to deny myself the incredible pleasure of that. We should be happy we're strong sexual beings. That's what I'm doing, satisfying my natural needs. You can be a part of that with me."
He didn't move but stared straight at me like a zombie.
"David?"
"Okay...I'll try."
"Do you want to make a pack that we tell each other, in detail, what we've done?"
"No," he said, defiantly, "I can't handle that right now."
"Anything you want me to tell you at all?"
"No, not now," he said, somewhat confused, his voice softening, "I will admit one thing though and I still don't know what to make of it."
He took a long, thoughtful pause.
"Amateur night at the club...a guy came up to me after you'd danced, and the table was full of cash, and offered me five hundred bucks to take you around the corner to the motel and fuck you. He invited me to watch if I liked."
"What did you say?"
"I glared him down until he walked away. I was seething with anger that some random stranger thought that I was pimping you out and that he could buy my wife."
"That must have been weird."
"That wasn't the weird part. The part that I've never quite gotten past is that...is that I was aroused. I was steaming mad and wanted to annihilate the guy and at the same time I wanted to say yes. I'm not telling you this because I wanted that to happen but because I was shocked at my feelings about it."
"David, thank you for telling me that," somewhat relieved he was being honest finally.
"I still can't get it out of my head. I keep imagining it even if I don't want to. Sitting there watching that guy have my wife, touching you, fucking you..."
I kissed him and held him in my arms...which morphed into having very passionate sex on the dining room table. I'd never felt him so aggressive.
When we'd finished I ran to the bathroom to clean the cum from my pussy and when I got back David had tidied up the table and was sitting there, steely eyed and deep in thought.
Turning towards me he said, "Because you offered to give detail about your encounters and because I'm some sort of masochist, tell me about one encounter, but only one."
"O...kay...well I got called into the boss's office on my first day and he started talking about the girls being appreciative for giving them a spot at the club. He was wondering if I was appreciative. I knew what he meant and, figuring it was a right of passage, I came around his desk and fucked him."
"Did you...did you like it?" he asked, avoiding my eyes.
"Yes"