After the shock of the tribunal hearing, Jay and I were both feeling at a low point, but Jay was particularly affected. We had twenty days to find somewhere to live or we would face a fate worse than death - moving back in with our respective parents and living apart!
Still, I was determined to keep Jay's pecker up, and you can take that whichever way you want - you'll be right either way.
***
We stepped out onto the slush-laden pavements of Liverpool City Centre. Being a bustling city on the banks of the Mersey, the pavements were slightly warmer than the suburbs; the heavy snow that had blanketed the streets in the night had partially melted. The cheap shoes we both wore were no match for the sidewalk slush-permeating seams.
"My feet are fucking freezing!" These were the first words I had uttered since leaving the tribunal building.
"Mine too." These were Jay's first words. "Absolutely soaking, as well."
"Maybe these weren't the right shoes for the weather."
"It was bad enough. Imagine turning up in hiking boots!"
We both laughed. In that moment we both forgot our troubles.
***
It was around nine in the evening when we pulled into the first car park near the prom. Being right next to the river, the tarmac and the surrounding grass and sand dunes were mostly clear of snow.
We opened our doors in sync, to be greeted with an icy blast of air. We'd both dressed for the cold, each wearing wooly jumpers and cagoules, thick socks and training shoes, which were just becoming the in-thing to wear for non athletic people.
I had decided on a midi-skirt made from heavy material for warmth. Well, it was thicker than the cotton wrap-overs I favoured. The buttons from the hem to the waist were supposed to be fastened all the way, but me being me left all but a couple at the top unfastened. Having so many buttons undone meant that I was not as warm from the hips down as I might have been. That, and the hold-ups I wore rather than tights. I was determined to take Jay's mind off our impending homelessness.
"Tell you what," Jay said, "It's fucking freezing out here." He slipped as he stepped out of the car, the snow having melted and iced over. He held onto the door, preventing a fall.
"It is a bit," I replied. "Let's walk along the prom. Might not be so icy." Even beneath the cagoule, the thick jumper, and and Jay's chequered shirt, my braless breasts felt a little of the chill, their pink points stiffening a little.
"Love the moon. Who'd have thought the sky would be so clear after so much snow earlier?"
"Yeah. So romantic to be walking under a full moon." I held out my hand and Jay took hold.
"It's not quite full," he corrected me. "See, it's just a bit flat on one side."
"Oh, I see. It's nearly full, then."
"A couple more days."
The grass was firm beneath our feet as the subzero temperature was beginning to freeze the top layer of melt, but it was not slippy like the tarmac. The wind that had been blowing all day was blowing from inland, so was not as cold as it could be; not quite, anyway.
"Tide's in," I announced, watching the white meringue peeks racing in on the moonlit water and crashing onto the bottom step of the promenade wall. "Wouldn't like to be out on a boat in that."
"I think it's coming in or going out," Jay said. "It gets higher than that."
We leaned against the railings, looking out over what would have been a beach earlier in the day. Occasional gusts of wind pressed my skirt against my legs, making it inflate in front of me, held closed by the bottom rail pressed against my legs. We watch until the surf crashed against the next step, telling us that the tide had a way to go before it turned back towards the Irish Sea.
"There you go," said Jay. "It's coming in."
"Too cold to be standing here. Lets walk a bit." We turned and walked towards Seaforth. The moon lit up our faces like a pale blue spotlight.
We weren't the only hardy promenaders. Considering the cold, there were a few couples walking the prom, some travelling in the same direction and some towards us.
"What are we going to do if we can't find anywhere?" Jay's pessimism had returned.
"Stop that!" I bopped him on the arm. "Tonight is a night to put that out of our minds."
"How do you manage that?"
"What?"
"Being cheery when we're about to be..."
"Stop that! We've got almost a month. I manage it because I'm walking along a prom with the man I am deeply in love with, a beautiful almost-full moon is illuminating the face of the man I am deeply in love with, and the almost high tide is crashing on the steps below. How can you not feel positive?"
"Because we're about to be homeless!"
"Fuck off, misery!" As if orchestrated, as I said this, three things happened in concert.
I shoved Jay hard, but still playful, and he stumbled, righting himself before falling. A young couple walking towards us stopped dead about six feet in front, not wanting to collide with us. The strongest gust of icy wind blew open my skirt and lifted half of it out to the side like a bizarre wing. I almost grabbed it to cover up, but I felt too naughty. Besides, the male half of the couple was enjoying the view. His companion elbowed him in the ribs and walked between Jay and me; the young man grinned and followed.
Jay hadn't noticed the little show, being too busy preventing himself from receiving serious injury. He also hadn't noticed me shuffling out of my knickers and leaving them on the floor of the car. Well, I did say I felt naughty, and it wasn't the first time I'd experienced some accidental, wind-induced partial nudity.
I couldn't be certain whether the tingling in the nethers resulted from the icy wind or arousal. Either way, I was feeling very loving towards Jay.
As I reached out and grabbed Jay's hand, another, less powerful gust, blew my skirt again but only parted to mid-thigh. I pushed it down as I pulled Jay in for a hug.
"I just gave that couple a wonderful show," I whispered as I backed up towards the rail.
"I know. I was part of it, remember?"
"Not that. The wind." Guiding his hand into my skirt, I screamed as icicle fingers found my fanny flaps. "Your hand are fucking freezing!"
"You've got no knickers on!" He pulled his hand out.
"Shush! You don't want the world to know." I pulled his hand back into my skirt. This time, I braced for it and merely squeaked.
"You mean the wind blew open your skirt?"
"Afraid so."
"And they got a look at..."
"Yes, they did." Jay didn't see the grin on my face.
"Embarrassing."