I continue to serve.
One year on and I've served so many. A cycle of men come through.
At first it was electric. But now, let's be honest, it's a performance. A mathematical formula - insert x and you'll always get y.
My life has become repeating evenings. I honestly couldn't say if it was different men, or the same handful, rotating through.
I came here to serve. And I have. I came here to earn, yes. But I also wanted to learn. To excel. But now, I've gone from fine dining to fast food routine.
Which is why the tremor of excitement I feel when I see you is more than just attraction. It's more than an interest in your big curves and your nice legs. It's like a spike of current that runs down my spine. I feel a chill settling around my knees.
We do see ladies here, occasionally. Typically, they sit, watching their lovers get serviced. Very occasionally they engage by kissing his lips or stroking his chest. Once a woman got down here with me to take her man's load.
But a woman alone, through the dark doorway, down the steps to the lounge? We never see that. It is extraordinary. It's also amusing. All the men here, normally so bold, so demanding, so cruel. They are shading their faces. Embarrassed, I guess. One is holding a menu over his server's head. As if he could hide.
I love you already. The way you move forward, with purpose. A tiger. A shark. You are speaking with the old lady and glancing around at the servers. By now I know, if I want to be called, if I want to serve, I should meet your eyes with a smile. Not forward. Not demanding, but engaging and tempting.
And your answer, when it comes, your wide smile, is everything I hoped for. Your eyes are on mine, not the full body scan that I'm used to.
Madam goes to seat you in a corner, but you shake your head as you speak, gesturing with a jerk of the chin. So it's to the central table I'm being summoned. The one with no cover, open for everyone to see. Just this. This bold, this outrageous decision makes me your slave.
Having caught you with my eyes and soft smile. The routine is to keep my eyes down. Humble, subservient. A true server. But as I am settling below, you raise my chin with your fingers. You look directly in my eyes, but somehow also right through me.
You say, "Be a good girl now... I'll give you a tip."
It's been months since I felt much, at all, about service. Since a thrill of excitement at a strong chest or hard cock. But now. Just one sentence. The lightest touch. And I'm practically panting. I can feel the wetness running to my thighs.
'Yes madam', I answer, looking back down.
As your cocktail's delivered, I run my hands up your thighs. Pushing up under the hem of your dress. Your skin is soft. Smooth and inviting. After so many rough, hairy men, I want to live in these thighs.
You lift slightly as I rub up and down, allowing me access. Bringing me in.
I breathe on your inner thigh and run my fingers along. I kiss here and there. And I hear your soft sigh and realize -- it's gone silent around us. Just a faint, distant slurp or lick from one of the girls giving service. It seems like the men are barely breathing.