Note: this story takes place immediately following the last one. If you've made it this far into their journey, I'm sure you know my familiar warning. This story has some intimate and private scenes, some of which include bodily functions. Please skip over if that is not for you. I'd like to give a special thanks to David who was kind enough to help edit my story. And as always, please leave your comments and feedback.
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"I'll drive." I said as Ashley and I headed out of the apartment.
"You don't even know where we're going." She said playfully.
"True, but I like driving. Just tell me where to turn." We hopped in the car and proceeded to go to a part of town I rarely visited.
"Just make a right at the next light and we're here." She said, now beaming.
"Oh don't tell me, a bridal store?" I really couldn't hide my dislike for the idea. I wasn't much of a shopper to begin with, but the thought of helping her pick out a wedding dress...for Mark. "How about we just pretend this little drive didn't happen, and you can do this with your girlfriends who will be more helpful?"
"Oh come on, it will be fun!" She persisted.
"We have different ideas of what fun is." I was not amused.
"Look, the reason I brought you and not my girlfriends is I trust you. I trust your opinion. You get me in a way no one else does." She started to plead with her gorgeous blue eyes and now gave me a sad-puppy look.
I rolled my eyes. She knew I was caving.
"Besides...you can watch me try on dresses...and watch me take them off..." She said in a teasing voice.
I'm not sure she had ever used her body to get me to do something she wanted. It felt a little manipulative and I didn't like it, but who was I kidding...there was no saying no to watching her undress.
"Whatever. Let's get this over with." I said with begrudged smile.
"Yay!" She said with glee. She was incorrigible.
We walked through the store and I was overwhelmed by the size. This would take hours. And it did. A while later she was finally ready to try on a few dresses.
We found our way to the dressing room and I immediately plopped down in the waiting area while she checked in her number of items with the assistant. I looked around the waiting room. There were a few other sad looking men just like me. They nodded their commiserations at a fellow fallen soldier.
"You guys here with your soon-to-be wives?" I asked before realizing husbands aren't supposed to see the dress before the wedding.
I got a mixed bag of grunts and groans. It appears they were all too nice to say no to their friends as well. One guy muttered, "I wish I was getting married to her." I felt his pain.
How did I get here? In the pinnacle of the friend zone. It was every guy's worst nightmare.
"You ready?" Ashley asked as she walked past and headed into a dressing room down the hall.
I got a lot of eye raises and approving nods from my newfound waiting room friends. Maybe I wasn't in quite as bad a boat as some of them, I thought as I followed her down the aisle. I couldn't help but pop my head out and smile to my friends before shutting the door. I may be killing a Saturday, but at least I was going to see an unbelievably attractive woman undress in front of me.
That thought process lasted all of about 15 seconds before I saw her unceremoniously take off her shirt and pants, leaving on her bra and panties as she slipped into her first of many dresses. She stared at herself in the mirror, twisted, turned, adjusted, raised, lowered and pinched everything. This was not a fantasy. This was a chore.
"What do you think?" She finally asked.
"Looks good." I nodded hoping maybe that would be it.
"Really?" She asked. "What do you like about it?"
My guyishness came out in full force. "Uh, it's really nice. It's white. Nice lacy things, here." This was torture.
She looked a little disappointed with my lack of help, but it didn't phase her too much. "Maybe I should try this strapless one." She said, holding up another. They all seemed to blend together to me at this point.
She reached behind and unzipped her current dress and wiggled it down her curvy hips. She stood there in front of the mirror, now just in her pink panties and matching pink bra.
"Do you think I should go braless?" She asked as she stared into the mirror holding her bra.
"What?" That caught me off guard.
"I always imagined I'd wear a strapless bra, now I'm reconsidering that. Do you think I could pull it off?" She asked as she squeezed her bra in the mirror, judging the weight of her breasts.
"Uhh, I'm not sure what the qualifications are for 'pulling it off' but if anyone could, I'm sure it's you." That was my way of saying your tits are hot as fuck, please take off your bra. Fortunately I was able to hide some of my guyishness.
She reached behind her back and unhooked her bra and inched it off her shoulders. She had just her fingertips covering her nipples. If there was anything more sexy than seeing her breasts...it was almost being able to see her breasts. I couldn't help but watch her a little more closely as she tried on the next dress.
Somehow she managed to twist and turn as she tried it on to keep me from seeing her nipples, even in the mirror. How did girls always manage to do that? Are they taught at a young age to always be covered even when it seems they have no way of not being exposed?
"Could you zip me up?" She asked as she had almost finished pulling up this slightly tighter dress.
I placed my hand on her bare shoulder and zipped her up with my other hand. Her skin was soft and warm.
"What do you think?" She asked as she turned to face me.
For the first time I was speechless. "Uh, it's uh..."
"You hate it. It's ridiculous. Of course I should keep the bra on, what was I thinking?" She said nervously.
"Ash." I put both hands on her shoulders as she looked like she was ready to cry. I eyed her up and down before gazing into her eyes. I wanted to scream how beautiful she looked in it, how the chest line accentuated her breasts perfectly - bra or no bra - and how it hugged her hips leaving her butt looking curvy, tight and toned all at the same time. But all I could say was, "Ash, it's perfect."
She still looked like she was going to cry, but now at least for a happier reason. I could never resist trying to make her happy. It finally sunk in; I was helping her find a dress to get married. Married to someone else. Not just anyone else; Mark. Selfish, uncaring, inattentive Mark. It was too much.
"Well great. Pack it up and I'll meet you by the cash register." I said breaking eye contact finally.
"Jason, wait." She put her hand on my forearm. "What's wrong? You've been acting weird all day." She said in a concerned tone.
My fuse was short at this point and that was the only spark I needed. "What's wrong? WHAT'S WRONG?" I practically shouted. "I'm helping you shop for a goddamn wedding dress, what the fuck do you think is wrong?" I nearly whispered the last line, which seemed to make it sting all the more.
Tears rolled down her cheeks as she stared at me helplessly. What made it hurt the most for me was that she was truly upset she was cause of my unhappiness.
Even when I was mad at her I wasn't really mad. I caved almost instantly. "I'm so sorry." I hugged her tightly and the sounds of her sniffles and deep breaths were buried in my shirt.
"I didn't mean to snap like that." I said softly. "I just can't...can't be a part of this. Helping you get married. It's..." I wanted to tell her everything right then and there, that I thought she was making a huge mistake. But all that came out was, "It's just too hard." In a way that was almost more revealing.
She nodded silently while still hugging me. "It's hard for me too." She wiped her eyes. "This was a mistake bringing you here. I should have done this with my girlfriends. I'm so sorry for dragging you along, this whole mess...everything." She said helplessly.
I read between the lines: I'm sorry we can never be together.
"You have nothing to be sorry for." I wiped away a few fresh tears from her cheek. "I was just overreacting and being a bad friend. I am happy for you, really." In that moment I really was happy for her despite my recent outburst. If Mark made her happy, well that's all I can ask for.
"I understand, though. I can leave you out of things like this." She said now finally calming down.
"That's probably for the best." I said softly and continued to hold her. "Shall we get out of here?"
She nodded and quickly undressed. I turned my back to her completely now giving her a little privacy. It was unintentional, but I think she was disappointed I wasn't watching.
She left the dresses in the room and we headed out of the store arm in arm.
When we got back to the car she reached in her purse. "I want to give you something." She handed me an envelope.
"What's this?"
"Open it." Her playful smile started to return.
"A gift certificate to a couple's massage? Why are you giving me this?" I asked.
"It was a gift from my mom the other night at the party. A wedding gift for Mark and me." She looked down nervously. "But I want to share it with you instead."
"Ash, I can't. Your mom gave this for you and Mark." My mind flashed back to her warning, or maybe it was more of a threat to stop interfering in their relationship. I sighed. "Couples? I mean...we can't." It seemed all the stranger that she suggested this right after our discussion in the dressing room.
"We'll exchange it so we're in separate rooms, of course." She added shyly, "Mark hates these kinds of things anyway. I'd have to drag him there kicking and screaming, and what's the point in that?" She started to smile a little, sensing I was about to break. "My mom paid good money for the gift...someone should enjoy it."