I had always loved spending time in smaller towns. It seemed easier to get lost in the vast unknown when the town itself fit into that category. The kind of towns surrounded by rolling hills, with treelines ever present on the horizon. The kind of towns where the locals would say "Yeah you know *insert major city name*...? Kind of near there." when describing where they were from. I never had the privilege of coming from somewhere unknown, everybody has heard of London. London has the opposite problem, when you say you're from London you then have to give a ten minute explanation of what part of London you grew up in, and why it either wasn't the rich or wasn't the poor side, depending on who you were walking to. So I always engineered situations that left me in smaller towns, and just told people I was from the south.
On the day in question, the town in which I found myself was as beautiful as them all. Old buildings, cobbled streets, indie looking stores with stickers that read "Buy Local!" in the windows. I was at a café, sat outside and enjoying the final rays of a late September morning. It was probably too cold to sit outside, after taking off my gloves I had to hold onto the steaming hot chocolate in front of me to stop my fingers going numb.
"If you're serious about the post grad, it's good to start thinking about it now." My coffee date. Well, maybe only I saw it as a date. He probably saw it as an act of charity, helping his friend's daughter sort her life instead of mindlessly studying music and not focussing on the real world. "Even teaching would open more doors for you, since you've already decided performing is off the table."
I wrinkled my nose at the mention of being a performer. He noticed, and the smile that took over his mouth lit up his kind, dark eyes. I spent a lot of time staring at his eyes, he probably thought I just had a weird obsession with eye contact. I was looking into them again when I answered, knowing my smile was matching his. "You know I've always hated being the centre of attention, Vin."
He nodded, knowingly. He'd known me my whole life. Vincent de Luca. Uncle Vinnie. I dropped the Uncle part shortly after I turned 16 and realised why he was the favourite of my father's friends.
"I know you do, Sara. I know." He dropped the pet names for me around the same time. Part of me wished it was for the same reasons, but all of me knew there was no chance he could even consider seeing me as the woman I had become instead of the kid he watched grow up.
"You know I'd always give you the best reference I could, and my name still carries some weight around the university these days." He was head of the music college when I was younger, the only reason I ever wanted to learn to be a musician. Listening to him brush his fingers along the keys of our otherwise obsolete piano was the soundtrack of my childhood.
"Or there's always other ways to make it an even better report of your skills."
He winked. I gasped. I just prayed that the chilled wind had already left my cheeks pink enough that he didn't notice the blood rush to my face. Of course the first place my mind would go would be there... The smirk on his face did little to reassure me that he meant otherwise.
"I...I-I'm not so sure I c-could... Like... With y-you? Are you suggesting that I..." My eyes were wide open, bright with the implications of his words. "W-what are you suggesting?"
"I could introduce you to some people. I think it's a well known fact, or at least well enough known, that nobody goes anywhere in the arts without a little nepotism."
Oh. Of course he didn't mean anything. My mind was just, as always, in the gutter. As always.
"You know I'd appreciate that. Networking is power." I mumbled, more than a little embarrassed.
His smile came back, flashing near perfect teeth as he sipped from his impossibly tiny espresso cup. "I'm having a bit of a thing tonight. Networking, as you called it. The department heads, some friends, some of the men I studied with." He waved one hand around as if the people attending wouldn't be important. "Maybe you can show us what you have to offer, and we can confirm your place on the MMus for next year?"
I nodded, almost disappointed my mind had wandered and returned so fast. "What should I wear? Is it casual? Drinks?" I looked down at my current clothes, as did Vincent. I could almost feel his gaze as it raked across my clothes: boots and an oversized jacket for the cold but worn open, contrasted with skin tight trousers and a shirt that could almost be described as inappropriate. I was always desperate for him to see me as the 22 year old adult that I was, and that always led to me flaunting my curves.
"You're impressive in everything you wear." He sipped the coffee again, denying me any flash of his feelings. I blushed at the comment, regardless. "It's not so important, I'm sure nobody will remember what you were wearing at the beginning of the night. Good wine, good food." He shrugged. "Of course, good music."
I nodded and agreed, again praying for the wind to cover my embarrassment. He told me when to arrive, of course I already knew where his apartment was.
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I looked at myself in the mirror one final time. First impressions were important. Today I was just one face on a long list of applicants, but by the end of the evening the entire committee of my college could know me by name. It was daunting, yet the prospect of having even one glass of wine with Vin was enough for me. Of course logic told me I was still just a dumb little girl chasing after her daddy's best friend, but I had come to terms with that role and decided to play into it. At least for tonight.
Heels, moderately high, but still walkable in. A red dress, Vin's favourite colour. He had once told me that red complimented my green eyes, so it became my favourite colour too. It was form fitted, showing the few curves I worked hard for. I turned to the side, making sure the swell of my ass was still hidden by the short skirt, but still leaving little to the imagination. It was a tight line to walk. I ran one hand through my dark hair again, trying to get a naturally tousled but still perfect look. The night had cooled into a mild storm so there wasn't much point when even walking to the car would ruin it. One last swipe of lip colour, red to match the dress. Red lips and dark eyes were a classic.
I called my Uber, surprisingly nervous. It was just like any other time I had called an Uber to his apartment, but this would be the first time there would be any alcohol present. Perhaps this was him finally recognising me as an adult, and equal. A potential g- I cut my own thoughts off as the driver started spamming messages to tell me he had arrived.
The drive was short, rain battering down the windows. I stared out at the streets of the town. It was just around time for the bars to start kicking out those who had drunk too much, so the pavements were peppered with men being held upright, and women carrying their shoes in one hand so they were less likely to fall. My friends had invited me out for a similar evening, they thought it was weird I turned them down to go to an event with my professors.
I could hear soft jazz playing around the doorframe as I rang the bell and waited. Vincent answered quickly, the glass of red wine in his hand clearly wasn't his first of the night. I could tell by his face, softened and gentle with alcohol.
"The guest of honour, Sara." In an exaggerated bow, he swept his wine hand low and opened the door. I'd spent a lot of time in his apartment, so it seemed a bit out of place.
Inside there were half a dozen men, all Vincent's age or older. Perhaps a little younger, one looked to be in his late 30s, but the rest were all greying at the edges and carried themselves with an air of maturity that 20-something year old students couldn't tap into.
"Wine?" Vincent asked me, gently leading me further into his den-like apartment. "Or you probably prefer something more spirited." He hummed a laugh at his own joke. "A cocktail?" He gestured to a brass cocktail set on the corner of the kitchen island.
"Anything is fine." I was nervous, I could feel my palms beginning to sweat. Somehow I was both the youngest person here, and the only female.
Vincent nodded, gesturing for me to join the others in the main room and telling me he would join us all soon. The men turned, I could feel their combined gaze burning through my dress. Something told me I should have worn more clothes. They introduced themselves, and I instantly forgot their names. There were a few familiar faces, the head of department and the lecturer from my composition class. I could tell none of them knew my name, and I was almost thankful.