Craig could hear Steven's frustration even if he wasn't saying anything. Sitting at his desk, he would repeatedly pick up his phone, angrily type out long sentences and slam it back down again. Since returning from his game, he and Craig had not spoken much save for a few niceties around the dorm. Craig was relieved, actually, as he was still heavily wrought with guilt after what he did. He desperately hoped Steven wouldn't find out. He was terrified of what he may do.
"Everything alright?" Craig asked as he packed up his backpack.
"Huh?" Steven turned around. "Oh... yeah, it's cool man. Just some stupid stuff."
"Alright. Welp. I'm gonna hit up the library. You need anything on campus?"
"I'm good," Steven replied as he typed into his phone. Craig quietly left the dorm room and headed for the elevator.
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"I'm not sure. We went through it all. It has to be in your API. Try going through each section one at a time."
"You have to be joking. I'm gonna be here all night," Craig said as he stared at his computer screen.
Madison shrugged as she turned her attention back to her own computer. "Quality takes effort, what can I say?"
Craig squinted at his screen. He checked his phone before starting to look for his code error. There were no messages. Nothing from Brittany, Leah, or anyone else for that matter. He wondered if the fantasy he was living in was over as quickly as it started.
Madison glanced in his direction while he was distracted. She always loved spending time with Craig as they worked on projects together. They developed a great friendship during long hours in the computer lab. She felt like she was always comfortable with him and could talk about anything. That is, except the incident.
She referred to that day in his dorm room to herself as the incident. It should have been a blip on the radar. An innocent mistake that shouldn't have happened. But everytime she saw Craig since then, she immediately fantasized about his penis. She couldn't help it. She pictured it exactly how she remembered it, resting gingerly across his thigh as he slept. It's not like Madison was overly infatuated with the male anatomy. In fact, she always thought penises were ugly and odd looking. But something about Craig's drew her in. Maybe it was because he was such a quirky, nerdy quiet type. She somehow felt that his penis didn't match who he was as a person. She pictured him having aggressive, powerfully dominating sex with it.
Was that what he was like underneath?
Snapping out of it, she turned back to her computer screen to concentrate.
It was Craig's turn to steal a glance. Madison was wearing her usual black sweatshirt that she cut down the middle of the collar for extra room. Peeking out underneath, he could see the spaghetti straps of her tank top. He knew she had a nice body as he's seen her in "going out" clothes before, albeit just a few times. But she seemed to conceal it more often than not. That didn't stop Craig from imagining what she looked like naked. Her eyes were green and bright, gorgeous actually. Her brown hair was tied up hastily with a clip. Her facial features were quaint and innocent. She was very pretty.
"Craig?"
He snapped out of it. "Huh?"
"Are you ok?" she asked.
"Oh... umm yeah. Yeah, I'm good."
"Ok, cause you were literally just staring into space."
"I'm sorry. I've got a lot on my mind lately." Craig repositioned in his chair and turned back to his computer terminal.
"Need someone to talk to?" she asked. She thought about how she could use a break anyway.
"Not really. Well, I don't know. Maybe. I... I think I'm just kind of stuck," Craig said.
"I told you it's in the API."
"No, no, no," Craig shook his head. "I'm not talking about the project. I'm talking about... just something else."
Madison beamed. "Craig! Are you talking about... a giiiirrrlll!" she teased as she playfully shoved him. He blushed. "Maybe!"
Madison slid her chair up closer to his so she was facing him. "Ok! Now I'm interested. What's going on? Who is she?" She leaned forward, elbows on her knees.
Craig trusted Madison. This wouldn't be the first time he divulged secrets to her. And vice versa. The two had a special bond and could easily tell each other things without fearing the secret would get out. But this one was slightly different. Craig was terrified Madison would think less of him after what he did.
"Well, here's the thing. You promise not to judge me if I tell you this? Like, are you gonna hate me?"
Madison studied him inquisitively. "Umm, well I certainly hope not. But no, of course not. Unless you killed someone. Did you kill someone?"
Craig laughed. "I didn't kill anyone. At least I don't think I did."
"What is it, Craig?"
"I've been kind of seeing someone. Well, not seeing. Just hanging out. I think. Or not. I'm not sure."
Madison cracked up laughing. "Craig. What on Earth are you talking about? Are you seeing someone or not?"
Craig decided to let it all out. He had been harboring this secret for almost a week now and it was time to get it off his chest. "You know my roommate, Steven? Right?"
Madison covered her mouth with her hand. "No way! You? And Steven? You guys are..."
Craig shook his head vehemently. "No, no, no. God no. But his girlfriend."
Madison sat up in her chair as she tried to remember. "Wait. The dance team girl? Bridgette?"
"Brittany."
"Yes! Brittany. You guys are hooking up?"
"No, no, nothing like that. Well, sort of. Yes and no," Craig said confusingly.
Madison laughed. "Craig. You're going to have to be more honest with me if you want my advice. What exactly is happening?"
Craig took a deep breath. "Can we go somewhere else to talk about this? You want to go for a walk or something?"
"Sure," Madison smiled. "Fresh air would be nice."
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The two of them walked out of the library and headed for a large park in the center of campus. They talked casually about their projects as they made their way over to a bench overlooking the campus pond. It was dark out and the bright moon was reflecting off the water. They took a seat on the bench.
"So Brittany stayed over one night with Steven. The next day she was lying in bed and I climbed down off the top bunk."
"Oh boy," said Madison as she eagerly listened to the story.
"Yeah, well as I stepped down, I didn't realize my boxers were open and she kind of saw me down there."
"Saw you?" Madison asked.
"Yeah, like, saw my junk and everything," Craig said as he looked out across the pond.
"Like I did the other day?" Madison asked, directly referencing the incident for the first time.
Craig turned to her. "Yes. Just like that."
Madison nodded her head as she waited for Craig to continue, but he didn't. "Ok? So, Craig. That's not really a big deal is it?"
"That's not all. I think she liked it or something because a couple days later, she and I were alone in the dorm. Steven was gone and she... she asked if she could see it again."
"She asked to see your penis?"
"Yeah. And she even asked to measure it, which she did," Craig buried his head in his hands. "I can't believe I did this," he said into his hands out of embarrassment.
Madison tried to be comforting for poor Craig. "It's ok, Craig. Look, so what? So you showed off to someone and she got a kick out of it. I still don't see the big deal, right?"
Craig looked up and directly into the eyes of Madison. "I let her jerk me off. She gave me a handjob. And she also masturbated in front of me." Craig intentionally left out some other details as not to share too much.
Madison sat back as her mouth dropped. She was truly in shock. "Wow. Just... whoa."
"I'm a bad person," Craig said.
"You're not," Madison shook her head. "Well, it may have been wrong, yes. But maybe she likes you. Maybe she'll break up with Steven?"
Craig wasn't convinced. "I think she's toying with me. She doesn't act like she likes me. She just... she just likes my thing."
"Your dick?"
Craig nodded as he stared at the ground. Madison took a deep breath as she watched a group of students walk by on the far side of the pond. "It
is
kinda nice," she said while still staring straight ahead.
"What?"
Madison turned to Craig. "Your... your penis. It's nice. You have a really nice looking one."
Craig awkwardly laughed. "Thanks... I... I'm really flattered."
"She could just be fascinated with it. I mean, me personally, I had to do a double take myself. You don't always see one like that," Madison admitted. She felt herself getting tingly and warm as the conversation progressed.
"Really? Did you... did you get a good look the other day?" Craig was intrigued.
"Sort of. It was really quick. I tried to look away, but it was just hanging out in the open. Tough to miss," Madison turned to Craig who was clearly excited. "But from what I saw, it looked really big."
"Yeah. Brittany said the same. She wouldn't stop talking about how big she thought it was."