Ch 3: PARTINGS: The Art of The Deal
I took a deep breath standing in front of our—Jerry's and mine -- house. It would become hard to accept or think of this as mine alone. The next steps would be the toughest. Yes, I was home, but I felt so alone.
A full week away at a National Service Induction Center had one plus. I lost a few pounds and toned my muscles. To the public, strong bodies might be presented as a benefit of mandatory National Service.
The concept of National Service had been sold to the public as a panacea. Induction of unemployed young people into National Service promised to promote full employment, repayment of student loans and provide labor to perform less desirable jobs in the armed forces and in hospitals and nursing homes.
My bad luck, with the downturn in the economy, was demand evaporated at the fertility clinic where I was employed in HR as of all things an Industrial Psychology. With slackened demand, the firm collapsed; my experience invited silly grins on interview circuit. That put me in jeopardy of a call -- up.
Different from dreams sold to the public, my induction in National Service imparted the hopeless feeling of a total loss of control. I experienced being forcefully separated from my husband, stripped naked, placed on display, examined like cattle, run through grueling daily exercises, by Sergeant Abby Meyer, a bulldog of a female marine, and left to sleep in a cage on a stone floor.
Other girls called Sergeant Meyers, the black witch. I'd answer, "Meyers is toughest on me. I don't complain. Do I? It doesn't pay and no one listens anyway!" The girls laughed. If Sergeant Meyers overheard, I'd get more push -- ups, according to Meyers "on general principles."
At the moment, all I wanted to do was put that behind me and sleep in my own bed.
I sighed on entering my house. Our tenant, Mrs Pye, clutching her bathrobe, peeked out of her door. "When you and Jerry answered National Service's summons, I feared I'd never see you two again." Hesitantly, she asked, "What happened to Jerry? You too love birds were quite a pair—inseparable."
Yes, my husband Jerry and I were complementary combination. Where I took things as they came, Jerry planned every move in detail. With more time, Jerry assured me, he'd have invented jobs to exempt ourselves from the call up. Something Jerry was whipping up could get both of us out after two years.
"Jerry was taken -- armed services, I think," I replied with the sentence ending uncertainly in a higher pitch, "I drew Service Support -- assigned locally for now.
So," I sighed, "I'm home—for now at least."
"Support Services?" Mrs Pye asked.
"Support Service assists the other services," I replied, "with professional, managerial, and administrative personnel. I'm new. I don't really know what all that means, but most new inductees in Support Services draw hometown assignments."
I suspected that the reason I ended up at home and Jerry did not was Sergeant Meyer.
Before releasing me, Sergeant Meyers mentioned that I was being considered to be returned to school to complete my degree in Industrial Psychology. "It'd be a shame for Service Support to lose someone with your potential to clean bedpans and sheets in Humanitarian Services," Sergeant Meyers quoted the station commander. Only the Support Services had any interest in experience as Psychologist at a Fertility Clinic.
"It looks like you're wearing the clothes you left in, a week ago?" Mrs Pye, staring at Jerry's ratty T -- shirt and my raggy jeans, asked. "No uniform?"
"I'm lucky. I got my clothes back," I replied as I reached the staircase and clutched the bannister, "most of them," holding my arms away from my body to present my attire, "Jerry's old grey T -- shirt and my ratty jeans. I'd really like to get them off and—eh rest for a while."
Actually, I had someone else's underwear. Hopefully, their former owner was clean. Right now, I wanted them off and burnt. Chances are their former owner was marched out of the cage in the induction center to be hauled naked aboard like cargo on a truck headed for god -- knows -- where, like Jerry.
Oh, surely Sergeant Meyer had her own agenda in promoting me for a degree program in Industrial Psychology. Her interest in returning me to school explained why I was climbing the staircase to my rooms. Was it the sassy quip that Jerry and I planned to avoid spurious issue? How did that go? If separated at the Induction Center, both of us would stick to girls; Jerry could only do them anally?
"Much as you two wanted to be taken or returned home together..." Mrs Pye's voice trailed off.
Always the planner, Jerry hoped to score high enough in Induction testing place in Police Services; I'd be strong enough for Support Services; both could come home together. Ironically, I was home; he wasn't.
"I'm glad," Mrs Pye continued, "you were able to come home. It's been quiet here without you two."
Hmm, two had become one; had Sergeant Meyer intended to replace the other?
Climbing the stairs to the rooms that Jerry and I occupied, I told Mrs Pye, "You'll see me around the next few days. War is hell! I'm off from duty until Friday." I tried to sound cheerful but could not shake the gnawing feeling of guilt. Mrs Pye tried to engage me in further conversation, but "I need to get these dirty, sticky clothes off before I pass out from the smell."
What would happen Friday? Would I be asked to commit to returning to school to get my doctorate in Industrial Psychology? To accept, I'd have to pledge 10 years instead of the two I now owed. Three of those ten would be in school and I'd have an employment status. I chuckled exempt from induction. What was this Sergeant Meyer`s angle in engineering this offer?
Those three years on my own, in school would give me the opportunity to implement a plan to surprise Jerry on his return. Would he want a boy or a girl? I wondered.
Inside our -- Jerry's and mine -- rooms, I stripped off my clothes off and dropped the underwear in the trash. Leaving the door ajar, I rushed to stand naked in front of the mirror on the back of the hallway door. I felt the thrill of posing naked in a moment of narcissism. Part of the excitement was the potential, however small, of being watched. Would dear Mrs Pye sneak a peek. Who knows? Maybe!
Before those notices came, Jerry, after grabbing, overawing and plucking me bare, would drag me here to do the mating dance before the mirror. With Jerry behind me, his head buried in my neck, his bulging erection tickling my tush, Jerry would hold me across the waist. We'd sway together for a time I prayed could last forever. Jerry would recite one of his poems: