Hi again. It's me, Emi. Sorry It's been so long since I've written but I kind of had a busy summer, and then it was back to school. Things have settled down a bit now so maybe I can start to bring you up to date.
So much has happened I hardly know where to start. I guess I should go in order. There's one story I haven't told you about last winter, before I left for Japan. I guess how it started was one of my friends had suggested that if Ryosuke and I wanted to be alone together, we should go to the beach at night. I thought this was a great idea. I mean, I don't usually go out at night all that much. The buses to my house stop pretty early, and I'm worried about waking up my host family's kids, but, anyway, at least if it was at night there probably wouldn't be anyone around so we wouldn't have to worry about being seen. Or that's what I thought at first, anyway. I told Ryosuke and we made a date to try it.
After school, I came home and ate supper with my host family. I told them I had to go out and meet a friend to get ready for a project at school. I know that you're not supposed to lie and stuff, but my host mom has met Ryosuke, and I didn't want her to worry about me.
I waited for a while, and once it started to get dark, I phoned Ryosuke and we arranged to meet in front of this 24 hour convenience store not far from the beach. Before I left, I went upstairs to my room to change into some fresh clothes. It gets a little bit windy out at night especially on the beach so I decided to dress warm. Over my underwear, I put on these black tights and then my blue jeans, a white blouse and a big red sweater. Maybe it wasn't that cold, but I decided to take along my long white coat too. I know Ryosuke doesn't like it when I wear jeans (he prefers mini-skirts), but anyway, with any luck, tonight, we would finally get a chance to be alone together so I thought he wouldn't mind too much.
Because I knew I wouldn't be able to take a bus back, I decided to bike down to the beach. I was a bit worried about my coat getting caught on a pedal, so I folded it up and wrapped it around my waist, but it was pretty warm so I ended up taking it off and putting it in my bag. There was a bit of a breeze blowing but it felt nice biking along through the quiet streets to meet Ryosuke.
It's downhill most of the way to the beach so I got there pretty quickly. I don't usually go to the beach in the winter, but I managed to find the convenience store soon enough. I looked around, but he wasn't there yet so I chained my bike up to the railing by the road, found a place to sit down and looked out at the ocean. I started thinking about how this was the same Pacific that I had seen in Japan, and wondering how people back home were doing.
Every once in a while a car would drive by, but otherwise it was pretty quiet. I began to wonder if this was the right place, but before I went to phone, Ryosuke showed up.
"Sorry. I had a bit of trouble getting away." According to him, his host parents are pretty friendly so I imagined that they'd been talking together.
"That's OK." The wind had started to pick up a bit so I took out my coat again and put it on, while Ryosuke chained up his bike. After he was done, he kind of looked me up and down. As I expected, he looked a bit disappointed that I was wearing jeans, but he didn't say anything about it.
"Here let's get something to drink." We went into the convenience store. I got a mineral water, and he bought a ginger ale. There were a few other customers in the store. I started to worry that they might be headed to the beach too.
After we'd got our drinks, we went outside, crossed the street and started walking along the beach. This is the biggest and most popular beach in town, so it has, like, a boardwalk and washrooms and little hot dog stands that are open in the summer. The beach season is much longer here than in Japan, but it was still officially winter so everything was closed up. The wind was pretty strong but warm.
We kept on walking along the boardwalk until a line of trees on the left started blocking the view from the road. We were kind of hoping to find a place that you couldn't see from the road or the beach, but the tree line was pretty straight, and inside the woods, there were too many bushes for us to lie down there.
I was almost ready to give up, when Ryosuke pointed out this place where some of the trees were a bit further back from the others. It still seemed quite out in the open to me, but I couldn't really see anyone else on the beach. There were these dark shapes here and there, but they didn't seem to be moving, so I guessed that they were not people, maybe pieces of wood or something. I wanted to go over and take a look, but it was kind of scary in the dark, so I decided to stay with Ryosuke.
Meanwhile, he had taken out a plastic sheet and a couple of beach towels, and spread them out on the sand. I kept standing nervously looking back along the beach to see if anyone was coming this way. The moon was out, and so it was still pretty bright. Ryosuke sat down on the one of the towels, and motioned for me to do the same. I had this strong feeling that we were being watched, but not wanting to spoil the mood, I finally sat down next to him.
We just kind of sat there for a while looking out at the ocean and listening to the waves lap up on the shore. It was pretty romantic. Still, I couldn't help worrying, and I kept looking back the way we had come. Ryosuke put his arm around me, and tried to comfort me, but my heart was still beating pretty fast. He looked into my eyes and said,
"It's OK. Don't worry. No one will come," and then kissed me gently. He has such soft lips. I took a deep breath, and relaxed a little. He put his arms around me and gently lowered me till my back was on the towel. He started kissing me more and more, and then started undoing the buttons on my coat. I tensed, almost pushing him away, but he looked at me calmly and reassured me that it was alright.
I relaxed again, but I could still hear my heart beating loudly in my chest. He popped open the button on my blue jeans and pulled down the zipper. I looked up at the stars, and tried to reassure myself.
"It'll be OK. It'll be OK," I kept repeating as if that would keep people from coming. I felt his hands slip in under the waistband of my panties and felt the air rush in as he pulled them down, my jeans and tights with them. They were pretty tight so it was a bit of a struggle. I lifted my bum up a little and felt a kind of thrill as my mound, thighs, knees and calves were each in turn exposed to the night air. Rather than take off my shoes, he left my jeans tangled around my ankles. I wanted to reach down and pull them back up, but I couldn't get a foothold to sit up. I felt so helpless and vulnerable. For a second, I was afraid he was going to tie up my arms too, but he didn't.
Ryosuke kissed me softly again, and then reached up under my blouse and bra to gently touched my breasts. My breasts and especially my nipples are very sensitive, and I could feel them getting harder from his touch. I tried to sit up again, but I didn't have the strength. It was like I was under a magic spell. I just lay back and shivered with pleasure as he found exactly the right places to touch me.
I felt his hands slide down the sides of my body and then out from under my clothes. I could tell he was trying to bring his mouth close to my secret place. I tried to spread my legs, but they were caught in the jeans. Giving up, he motioned for me to roll over. I did, and then he put his hands on my waist and lifted till I was on all fours. He flipped my coat up on to my back.
I felt so obscene, like an animal with my naked bum sticking up in the cool night air. He began flicking at my private place with his tongue. I thought of my host family fast asleep back at the house, and I felt even more embarrassed. My hips started moving back and forth all on their own as his tongue circled round and round.
Just when I was starting to get into it, he pulled away and started rummaging through his bag. Panting, I lowered my head onto the towel, my bum still high in the air. I wanted him. I wanted him inside me. He had that wild look too, but suddenly he said,
"Emi. I hate to tell you this, but I forgot to bring the condoms."
At first, I was so far gone that I didn't really understand what he had said. I felt cold "down there", so I reached down between my legs and started stroking myself while he watched (I want you to know that I don't normally do things like that, but for some reason I just couldn't help myself).
"Did you hear me? I said I don't have any condoms." He had suddenly started to look very serious. "Listen, I think that they sell some at that convenience store. Let's go get some." I rolled over on my back and finally managed to sit up with my jeans still binding my ankles.
"OK." I was slowly starting to come back to earth. I reached down for my underwear and tights and started to pull them up, but Ryosuke kneeled down next to me and said,
"I've got a better idea." At first, I wasn't sure what he was up to, but he undid my shoes and took them off. Then he grabbed the waist band of my panties, tights and jeans and pulled them right off. He put my shoes back on and did them up, tucking my other clothes away in his bag.
"You can go like that." I looked down in disbelief at the tuft of black pubic hair sticking out from under my sweater. At the bottom, my hair was pretty wet.
"No, I can't. Everyone will see me." He pulled me to my feet and then started doing up the buttons on my coat.
"No one will be able to tell. C'mon, it'll be fun." I looked down at my coat. It covered most of my thighs, but there was a slit in the back and an opening in the front. I just sort of stood there in shock for a minute while he hid our stuff in the trees. "C'mon, let's go."
As I started walking, I could feel the sea breeze blowing on my legs and bum and my most sensitive place. It tickled and was getting me pretty excited.
"Uh Ryosuke, this feels... uh... kind of weird."
"That's the fun of it. Just enjoy." I was still pretty high from Ryosuke's caresses, and now here I was walking along with only a flimsy coat to cover my naked hips. I was shivering not so much from fear as from the tickling feeling 'down there.' As we came within sight of the road, I straightened the front of my coat, so people wouldn't be able to see my legs (or worse). I didn't have any socks on, so my ankles and calves were exposed -- just so long as they don't see much higher.
As we neared the road, a car drove by, and my coat tails flew up in the wind.
"Kyaa!" I pushed the coat back down and held it. "Uh Ryosuke, I don't think this is such a good idea." He grabbed my hand and started pulling me across the road. The two halves of the front of the coat fell to the side exposing my thighs. I was feeling more and more strange with the warm breeze blowing gently between my legs.
Ryosuke pulled me into the store, and then let go of my hand and went off to look for condoms. I straightened up my coat again, and walked to the back of the store to try to hide. There were still a few customers walking around. I ended up standing right at the end of one of the high shelves out of view of the cash, but in view of the street through the large front window. There didn't seem to be anyone outside, but it was dark so it was hard to tell.
