Chapter 10 — That Thursday
© William D'Ark
This work is for ADULT AUDIENCES ONLY. It contains graphic language and numerous sexually explicit scenes related to power exchange and exhibitionist-voyeur relationships, as well as bondage, discipline, and sado-masochistic (BDSM) lifestyles which may be considered offensive by some readers. All depicted sexual and/or BDSM activity in this work is considered expressly consensual between adults. All characters and events are entirely fictional and any similarity to real persons living or dead is coincidental.
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(Allison Narrating)
I never, ever imagined that I would look forward to going to work.
But on that Thursday morning of the two-week company holiday — the Thursday before New Year's Day — I was super excited. William had called a meeting of the entire team for a half-day session organizing files before the beginning of the new work year. He wanted us to meet at nine and be done by two pm, giving us the afternoon to do as we pleased.
I was the newest person on the team, and maybe the most valuable member given what William had in mind. As a small group of five his team had never qualified for a full time 'secretary.' But William's hard work pinning down a big investment from outside — ten million dollars! — drew the attention of senior management. The team needed to gear up to manage a new, oversized budget and I had been assigned to serve them.
Wait, I mean
work
with them. ...Oh my god... ~ lol
Before all of this was announced, I had wanted to be part of William's world anyway. I had been hearing rumors from other support staff, the girls. They were whispers, really, about his being part of a lifestyle I yearned to know about. The rumors were vague. He likes bondage, one had said. I mean, he likes to tie up the girls he dates! Another giggled and added Oh, it's way more than that... (Hand-over-mouth giggles) ...I hear he likes to share his girls too. Like, for sex! More giggles. Or he likes to make them DO things... you know... or he does things to THEM... like a dominant does, they say...
Blushing replaced giggles at that point and the girls all scattered.
It all sounded mysterious, like half-truths or made up stuff. But it also sounded very exciting.
My marriage had ended a year and a half before. It was a bland, sexless connection that left me with a beautiful, smart little girl that my ex sometimes visited but not as often as she needed. My mother played the daddy role, helping with her education and discipline, giving her the kind of love that a father might. But for all of mother's smarts and determination, her granddaughter needed an older man around the house.
Not that I thought William would be that man... I don't think I was thinking that, I mean... But if I could break out of the doldrums I had been feeling — for almost two years! — and maybe enjoy myself now and then, I hoped that a guy would take notice and find me interesting enough to want a long term thing.
All the girls in my family would be better off, I thought.
So I decided to explore the whisper-rumors I had heard. I went online and looked up stuff like bondage and shared sex and, you know... the other stuff that submissives do for their guys. And the things that dominants do to their slaves...
Oh my god... It was any-thing... you could... fucking... imagine.
There was every kind of sex a person could think of, I swear. Between girls and guys and girls and girls and girls and groups of guys. And they looked like they were all smiling and laughing and, you know, enjoying themselves. ...While they did every possible kind of fucking I heard about or thought about or even cringed about... ...in my wildest secret dreams.
Jesus.
Some of it was supposed to be making love too, but I had been in a pretend-love relationship for nine years. That stuff bored me. Vanilla sex, missionary sex, even if pretend-love was the deal... it all became so... meaningless. Dull. Predictable. It was just a formula. Something these other people, the bondage-types and so on, called vanilla sex. I totally got that all the sudden. That's what I had been living from the time I met Shelby's father. At eighteen. I had been sexual with just one other guy before him, so when my ex finally bedded me on our third date — and I finally had an orgasm (with somebody other than myself )— I thought the rest of my life was all laid out and he was going to be, you know, the guy.
It didn't work out that way. I don't know if he got tired of me first, or me him. But we both just finally shrugged our shoulders and said... let's do something else. Separately. So we split for a while... but nothing changed. I wasn't feeling any heartache or whatever you're supposed to feel when a family falls apart. The divorce was inevitable. It just took too long and cost too much money.
After all that, online at night (and sometimes even at work, shhh...), it was as if door after door was opening for me. I was shown a whole new w o r l d! I mean, people were doing things to each other everywhere I looked, some of it gross and ugly, call it even obscene, vulgar, crude... call it pornography, I don't care...
I couldn't get enough of looking at it.
There was cum and pee and blood and... oh my GOD... Why would people do that to each other? How could they live that way!? Or did they, really? Live that way, I mean. Could it happen like that? Like, all the time as part of a real live relationship?
Late at night after Shelby was in bed, me with no clothes on and the laptop bright... I learned to cum like a fire hydrant, I swear. I taught myself to do it that hard. And to do it over and over. Like... orgasms just hadn't been a part of my life till then. I couldn't believe what I had been denied!
...Or had denied myself... fuck.
That thought made me uncomfortable. Yeah, girls grow up faster than boys but the boys learn stuff girls have to dig to discover. Like, my brother was sneaking Playboy into his room way before I learned that Playgirl was even in print. So I decided to go chase it down, the truth. I wanted to know about an 'alternate lifestyle' as they called it. At twenty seven I decided to, yeah, dig to find out things that were either true and could bring me pleasure or were all made up so people could make some money.
I finally discovered online places that seemed to cater to alternate lifestyle types. Websites like Adult Friend Finder and Fetlife. Some of that seemed to be real people doing real stuff, so I took some risks. I made up a couple of profiles and went fishing. I learned that a lot of it was pretend, some of it looked like junk. There were the sex pics and BDSM pics and lots and lots of photos of cocks and pussies. Videos too. But was any of it real... like, the way I was hoping?
Then I discovered that people actually met each other. Men started sending email invites for lunch or drinks or just a quick fuck. No... and No... Get to know me first, please, before you think we are going to have sex.
One night the South Bay Munch popped onto my screen. A 'munch'? I had no idea what that was about but a couple dozen people had announced they were going. I asked around and learned that a munch was a meet-up where people shared drinks and snacks and maybe each other if things worked out. Not right there, I was told; people were in a public place after all. But they might munch on each other afterwards, somewhere else.
'Munch'... I had to laugh when I figured it out.
Even though I dressed the part and went in with all senses lit, I didn't know anybody at that South Bay munch. And I didn't meet anybody interesting. Nobody, male or female, turned me on in the way I wanted to be turned on. ...Bringing on that tingling, breathless, oh-fuck-me feeling I had discovered online.
But I didn't give up. That very night I went home and focused harder. I found a Fetlife profile I had missed. It was a guy, an older guy, who signed his profile 'William.' Who wrote about women with some insight and sensitivity, I thought. He posted dozens of photos of women he said he had trained or had some kind of Dom-sub or Master-slave relationship with. Three or four of those women seemed to fit the category. I thought it though; he was old enough to have had them all. Okay. Maybe he was for real. And the writings he posted made it sound as though he knew what he was talking about. I wondered what he looked like, but he reserved face pics for friends, meaning people he knew well enough to share that kind of online intimacy.
I tried to friend him but he turned me down without any explanation. Probably because my profile didn't have much detail and no photos as tall. But... I discovered, delving deeper... he was planning to attend the next North Bay munch in a few weeks' time. Hmm, I thought. The William I knew from work lived closer to that event than to a South Bay event... Maybe it was him.
I decided to go.
This time I dressed the part in a special way. My mother even noticed. Before I left the apartment where she was sitting for Shelby that night. she commented, That skirt's pretty short. Who are you trying to impress?
If she only had a clue about who... My boss, for crying out loud. Or why...
She might have tried to talk me out of it.
You'll have to ask William how that evening went. But I had guessed right. I had dressed right. And I did things that night that could have become one of those online porno-adventures I liked to watch. When I finally got back home, sort of stumbling through my apartment door, mother took one look at me, shook her head and said, I was afraid of this.
'Go take a shower,' she said. 'You'll feel different about things in the morning. Shelby's in bed.'
She gathered her purse and sweater and was out the door. ...Still shaking her head.
After my shower, the cumming I did that night... way beyond midnight... was unlike anything else. I didn't need my laptop, only nimble hands and the stiff plastic vibrator I had bought for myself at Walgreens. Fantasies rolled through my head like a freight train shaking nearby windows. Memories of what I had just done... Of what had been done to me... over a few hours' time with people who really understood what I needed!
To reinforce the point... After checking on Shelby... before getting into bed... I turned on the lamps in my bedroom and opened both of the window shades. Moonlight poured in, adding a kind of white light to mix with the yellow lamp bulbs. I could see that people were still up in the neighboring buildings just across the parking area from my two wide windows.