Natural Beauty (redux)
Exhibitionist & Voyeur Story

Natural Beauty (redux)

by Sarobah 15 min read 4.7 (2,000 views)
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Healthy and safety are taken very seriously on any archaeological site. Nevertheless, mishaps happen. Towards the end of my first dig session, a minor misadventure resulted in a badly sprained wrist and a nasty gash above my right eye.

To record each day's progress we take photographs of the trenches from a rather high, normally stable stepladder. What happened was nobody's fault, just a freak accident. One foot of the ladder rested on a rock which somehow became dislodged. I took a dive into the dirt. Our first aid officer Alice patched me up on-site, but insisted on a more thorough examination for a possible concussion. While the island's main hospital is in Grandin, I was taken to a medical centre in Régate, and despite my protests was kept there overnight for observation.

As I've mentioned previously, the nude law is not enforced in health care institutions. Indeed all medical personnel, both sexes, are clothed, more or less. But Palmirene traditions are not ignored. Tribute must still be paid to

la différence

. Female staff -- doctors, nurses, orderlies, administrators, technical personnel and so on -- wear short, wrap-around dresses (designed for quick and easy removal, I presume) with nothing underneath.

As for female patients, the nurse told me that it's up to each whether to remain naked. I couldn't see the point of putting anything on for my short stay. My attending physician was a handsome young gent from Grenada. I'd been half-naked in front of male doctors before Palmira, but it felt just a little bit creepy to be lying on the bed, my entire body uncovered while he inspected my head and wrist and clinically ignored the rest. That night I slept with a sheet on top of me. It was an open ward, and in the bed next to mine was Richard, a tourist who had fallen off his quad bike. We chatted and he happily admitted that his misfortune occurred because he wasn't paying attention to the traffic but rather to the roadside scenery (of the human female variety, of course). In the morning I dispensed with my covering, and he was rather taken aback because I was the only naked woman in the place. But shortly afterwards his wife arrived.

I was a little surprised that the woman was about six months pregnant; but I really shouldn't have been. The awesome natural beauty of the pregnant form is no more gloriously displayed than in the nude, like a fertility goddess. And what better place than Palmira to showcase a woman at the peak of her feminine power, unhampered by clothing which disguises the wonderful transformation taking place in her body? Nevertheless, the wife came into the ward wearing a short chemise. She must have assumed that this was the protocol, because as soon as she saw me sitting up in bed with nothing on she grinned and removed it.

The director of the hospital is a woman, and each day she visits the clinic and performs patient rounds. After she had stopped by Richard's and my beds, she conferred with the young doctor and they continued talking as they walked out onto the verandah which connects the ward with the administration offices. As soon as they stepped into the sunlight, without missing a beat the woman took off her smock and continued her conversation naked.

This experience was, for me, a reminder that one of the ways you get seduced by the nude law is, ironically, through how, when and where it doesn't apply. For example, it is not illegal to cover your body out of public sight -- as in your private quarters. Back home I sometimes slept in the nude, usually when sharing the bed with Matthew. In the Cimarrón "barracks", on my first night I waited to see Alice's bedtime practice. I didn't want to infringe on her comfort zone. It wasn't a problem; she slept naked. We didn't even bother with a sheet or blanket because the place is warm even in what counts on Palmira as winter.

The Régate boarding house where I stay is owned and run by a middle-aged couple. Francesca has not worn a stitch of clothing on her body for almost her entire life, and like most of her compatriots doesn't understand why a woman would want or need to cover up. So the rule for residents is that women must be nude at all times; and though that's impossible to enforce in the private rooms, I am anyway. In other words, even in circumstances when you're permitted to cover yourself, you don't. It's not just about how you appear to other people; it's about your own feelings.

I shall go back to a statement I made earlier and amend it slightly. We dress or undress to influence perceptions of us; but that includes our own perceptions, even when no one is looking. Your state affects the way you think, feel and behave in private as well as in public. And I have discovered that the confidence, the empowerment and the sheer joy of being naked don't fade when I'm alone. It's still me and my body. I want to hold onto those feelings. Anyway, it would be a bizarre inversion of outside-world norms to be nude in public and clothed in private.

***

I have probably gone on long enough about Palmira, but there are still some observations to make about this extraordinary place.

One of the driving forces here behind modern attitudes to women's nudity has been tourism. Vacationing females easily outstrip males in numbers (weak pun intended) which is partly a result of government policy to limit arrivals and maintain a "wholesome" image. Only visitors with pre-booked accommodation are allowed overnight stays onshore; and since the demand is high and the number of hotel rooms limited, preference is given to certain categories, in particular couples. Single females are more likely to gain entry than single males, and all-female or mixed-sex groups than all-male parties. Until a couple of years ago, a cruise ship company ran tours from neighboring islands which were heavily patronized by men and became known as "voyeurges" (a clumsy but accurate term). Similar operations still exist, but on a much smaller scale and subject to severe restrictions. University students on spring or summer break are discouraged, though not banned. Graduates celebrating the completion of their studies, like the party of seven I met on the hike to Cimarrón Bay, tend to be less boisterous and more acceptable.

Palmira has also become a major player in wedding tourism, a lucrative and rapidly growing sector of the international travel market. Its appeal is the combination of wedding and honeymoon. In a very competitive industry worldwide, tourist destinations are hard to differentiate, so they must focus on something that makes them notable. In the Caribbean region, there are so many commonalities that it's hard for any place to stand out. But Palmira has a ready-made distinction. The island adds a special, indeed unique flavor to the wedding experience.

Among the first people I met on my original flight to Palmira were the honeymooning couple. About one in ten of all visitors are newlyweds, and an equal number are spouses renewing their vows. Couples coming to get married are still a small minority. Not all family and friends can travel so far or are willing to abide by Palmira's rules; and for this reason partners on their second or subsequent marriage outnumber the first-timers. The exceptions are lesbian couples. (Palmira is a progressive society. Weddings can be religious or secular. Same-sex marriage is legal. Commitment ceremonies are treated with the same respect as traditional marriages.)

One Saturday afternoon I and two of my colleagues, Sophie and Oscar, witnessed a wedding in a Régate park. The couple were accompanied by about two dozen guests. The groom wore an outfit appropriate for the tropics, an open-neck shirt and blazer, cream slacks and brogues. The bride's full ensemble consisted of a silver tiara, a silk tulle veil and ivory heeled sandals. Her complexion was fair, but she must have prepared for her big day. She had made sure that no tan lines spoiled the seamless sheen of her body.

It was a civil ceremony and the officiant was a woman. Needless to say, she, the bridesmaid and the female guests were also nude. (The perennial dilemma of choosing bridal gowns and bridesmaids' dresses -- and fitting into them -- is avoided on Palmira.) The couple's vows included the declaration, "I offer to you all that I have, I give to you all that I am." This had symbolic resonance when, just before they exchanged rings, they performed a little ritual. As they stood facing each other, he removed her tiara and veil, and she took off her shoes, so that she entered married life completely bare, even more so than when the nuptials began. She was both opening up and offering herself completely to her man. As they were pronounced husband and wife, all that she wore, from head to foot, was the ring he'd placed on her finger.

It was a lovely gesture, with genuine meaning, unlike some of the more archaic traditions you witness at weddings. Their vows were identical. The bride didn't promise to "love, honor and obey" her lord and master.

Sophie and I had stopped to watch, while Oscar waited patiently. Sophie, from California, was at the time engaged to Corinne, a professor at UCLA. She made up her mind that Saturday to get married on Palmira. Corinne, who had had been a campaigner for same-sex marriage in their home state, wed her first partner in San Francisco back in 2004. (And as someone once said, I'm sure, marriage equality becomes real in the divorce court.)

They tied the proverbial knot at Bonaire, a picturesque village on the north-east coast, in December -- on my birthday, in fact. (I flew out for Christmas with my family a few days later.) Corinne is a tall, slim, attractive redhead, a few years older than Sophie's 25 years. I must admit that I found her manner somewhat abrupt. She's a no-nonsense, lay-it-on-the-line woman, in contrast to Sophie who's sweet-tempered and free-spirited. I met Corinne at their pre-wedding party, and wasn't sure how she was adapting to Palmira's ways. But if she had any misgivings they did not show.

Guests of both sexes had flown in, and the women were at first understandably disoriented. However, they adapted quickly. Nevertheless the party was a rather sedate affair until the arrival of a pair of male strippers. I was surprised by that, even though the dudes disrobed only as far as their chamois loincloths, whereas the majority of their audience had started out with less. As a result the act was an anticlimax, but afterwards the revelers grew more confident, spontaneous and fancy-free. That night the Esplanade rocked.

The following day, as a nod to tradition and a hint of their relationship, Sophie was attended by a maid of honour -- that was me -- while Corinne was accompanied by a best woman. There were no fathers of the bride present, but in any case no one was giving anyone away. Their only accoutrements were Sophie's veil and Corinne's floral coronet, which they duly removed for a fully naked embrace, an enchanting symbol of their union. The celebrant did not pronounce them wife and wife but instead finished with "I now pronounce you joined in marriage." The reception was low-key, a garden party with no speeches and no bouquet-tossing.

It should go without saying (but I shall say it anyway, because it's my curse) that any misconceptions about lesbians were dispelled that day. Sophie and Corinne did not disguise their femininity. They laid bare their womanhood, literally. And it was more heartfelt because you might not think that someone like Corinne would be comfortable with her required nudity. Yet she reacted no differently from any other woman coming to Palmira for the first time. So if there's a lesson to be learnt, it's that gay women don't want to be men. And what better place than Palmira to teach it?

In any case, I was touched by the simplicity and elegance of both of these weddings. Perhaps I'm reading too much into this (and maybe I've spent too much time on Palmira), but I love the idea of the bride being naked. What she wears on her wedding day should be an extension or reflection of her real, natural self, what she is taking into the marriage. This is her gift to her husband (or with Sophie and Corinne, to each other); it is an affirmation and an assertion of her womanhood and her sexuality. It represents her femininity; and by definition nothing is more feminine than the female body. Indeed, I've always thought that extravagant wedding gowns miss this point; they are more about fantasy (fairy-tale princess, anyone?) than reality. By contrast, revealing -- in some cases very revealing -- wedding gowns have become popular in many parts of the world, including Australia, because women are choosing the dress that expresses their actual personality. It may be sexy, sophisticated, glamorous, glittering, daring, demure, winsome, whatever. A fully naked bride may then be considered

ne plus ultra

-- the ultimate, nothing else beyond -- in her emancipation from anachronism.

On that note I shall finish off, with one last analysis. If there is one way in which I have been profoundly changed by life on Palmira, I nominate feeling pride in being female. Before Palmira I would have dismissed that sentiment, like taking pride in being born with brown eyes. Whatever you are or want to be, I would have said, to be proud of something that's outside your self-determination is vacuous. Now I think differently. We live in a world where, by and large, females are constantly reminded -- not by everyone but too often -- that we do not and should not have autonomy over our own bodies, that we don't belong to ourselves, that even our self-esteem is controlled by others. That might appear to be the case on Palmira, but I have learnt otherwise. The nude law is a liberation, not an imposition.

In a very important way Palmira's is an enlightened society. Women and girls here show a healthy, positive attitude towards their bodies, are more self-confident and more comfortable with our sexuality, more self-accepting with regard to body image than those of our sex elsewhere, and more than males. Because we hide nothing, we learn that there is no such thing as the "perfect" body. Everyone looks at you but no one judges you. People have seen everything (and I mean that in both senses). This is a culture in which commercial and peer pressures don't make us feel we have to look like a Barbie doll or a supermodel.

Palmirenes suffer from remarkably few eating disorders. Anorexia, bulimia, obesity are virtually unknown. At the risk of generalizing: these often arise because a woman or girl experiences herself and her body as separate entities, and she forces herself to control the body she dislikes, making it in her mind an object that is alien and unwanted. If her body is objectified, it's worse when she objectifies it herself. I don't think this happens much on Palmira because you cannot separate your physical body from your essential being. (And men, set this example, are also healthy.)

In most Western cultures, the prevailing view of the naked female body is a detrimental mixture of titillation and shame. To take one example, if a mother breast-feeds her baby in public, this is often treated as improper behaviour, rather than what it is, a perfectly natural and wonderful thing. And yet women's bodies are used to sell everything from cars to cola drinks. In other parts of the world it's the opposite but no better. So womankind is caught between the bikini and the burkha. And the only escape, if it's allowed, is to adopt masculine habits, clothing, hairstyles, mannerisms, values -- that is, to deny or repudiate one's femininity, one's own being. You cannot do that on Palmira. You come to terms with what you are, and with what you're not.

Nevertheless, in celebrating difference Palmirenes have addressed the issue of gender identity. It's very simple. If you have breasts and a vagina, however you identify yourself, you must not conceal them. If you have a penis, you must wear pants.

As I've stated before, Palmira is not perfect, it's no utopia. What makes this place unique is that the people believe that the expression of natural femininity should not be constrained by what are no more than contrived notions of status, gravitas, decorum, morality, modesty, shame. So women, far from being victimized or objectified by the nude law, are empowered by it. Palmira turns on its head the all-too-common notion that femininity is weakness. Palmirenes believe that you have to be strong, smart and self-confident to openly express your true self.

That is what I have found. Through the joy of nudity I have discovered a new sense of pride in my womanhood, in my natural beauty.

And so my story is coming to an end, at least for now. I have taken up the option of extending my fellowship for a second year and have been promoted to the position of site manager at Hamilton Bay. It's a smaller-scale excavation than Cimarrón but with lots of potential. Daniel has returned but Matthew is unlikely to be back. That's probably for the best. I'm ambivalent about my brother, who has announced plans to come over. He says it's to visit the home of our ancestors; but since he's bringing his girlfriend I doubt that his motives are purely nostalgic. I'm not sure how I will feel about my Baby Bro seeing me naked; but that's not been an issue for generations of Palmirene big sisters.

I have been back and forward between Australia and Palmira several times. It's always good to go home, but when I return my skin tingles and I feel a tickle below my belly when I read that sign in big red letters --

"NO ADULT FEMALE WEARING CLOTHES MAY PROCEED BEYOND THIS POINT."

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