Author's Note: I felt Brooke should tell part of her own story. Part 3 explains some events that happened in parts 1 and 2 from her perspective. It also covers her next step in her adventure.
I was mortified on New Year's day when my husband brought up my drunken confessions from the previous evening. My peeping Tom fantasy had always been my most embarrassing kink, and I'd kept it hidden from everyone for nearly twenty years. Frankly, I intended to take knowledge of that particular depravity to my grave.
That said, I felt so loved and understood when Ethan patiently listened as I tried to explain my most shameful desire. Even better, my husband didn't become jealous. Though he's an intelligent man, I honestly didn't expect him to understand that my fantasy wasn't necessarily a desire for other men so much as a compulsion to have a certain experience.
When he suggested incorporating my fantasy into our sex life, I found myself adoring Ethan even more. I just wish I'd come clean years earlier. I wasted so much time hiding my true self from the love of my life.
At first, I had doubts about my husband's idea of him peeping on me, but it turned out to be more erotic than I anticipated. My fantasy had always revolved around a stranger watching me in my most intimate moments, but revealing my utmost carnal self to the man with whom I'd spend the rest of my life turned out to be sexy as all get out. A stranger would've been a fleeting experience, but my exposure was so much more consequential when I'd have to face my peeper across the dinner table for the next forty or fifty years.
With my husband's nonjudgemental acceptance of my most shameful kink, we grew closer than ever, and I felt compelled to reveal even more of my hidden self to him. I'd never allowed Ethan to see me play with myself, but on that first Thursday evening, I got out my vibrator and set it on the table by the family room window as soon as he drove off for his poker game. Unfortunately, planning to let my husband see me masturbate aroused me so much that I couldn't wait, and I ended up using the toy twenty minutes after he left.
I climaxed far too soon in the evening, and I returned the toy to its hiding place long before Ethan returned. I figured I'd save it for the following week. As it turned out, after a few hours of edging myself with my fingers while I watched the dirtiest porn I could find, I ended up climaxing again, so my husband got to see me masturbate anyway.
It all became even more intense when Ethan caught my neighbor Anton peeping on me. Literally living out my fantasy set my libido into overdrive, and when my husband didn't seem upset about it, I figured we'd let it ride. I secretly began doing things specifically for Anton's enjoyment, but my husband saw right through me.
I got home from work one Friday and felt like playing. I put on a mesh nightie usually reserved for date nights. It felt so sexy as I waited for my husband to come home and find me cooking in such a slutty outfit, and I hoped Anton might show up for a peek as well.
Though he kissed me deeply as soon as he walked in the door, Ethan didn't even mention my completely sheer lingerie. I admit to being a little upset at his seemingly tepid reaction. My feelings on the matter completely reversed when my husband came back from changing out of his work clothes.
I trembled with sexual energy as Ethan walked into the kitchen wearing his best suit and tie. I had no idea he'd seen some of the videos I prefer where a well-dressed man dominates a naked woman, but I immediately imagined myself as my husband's plaything. I tried to appear reluctant when he imposed several new rules on me, but in my mind I jumped on board even before he fully established our new Dom/sub sexual relationship.
When Ethan unilaterally assumed the role of master, it excited me even more than my peeping neighbor had. I'd always wanted my husband to be more aggressive in the bedroom, but I had no idea how to ask for it without betraying my fellow feminists by admitting I wanted to submit to a man. I also didn't want him to think that I'd be submissive in all things because I still wished to be an equal in everything but sex.
Fortunately, I had nothing to worry about in that area. From that weekend on, I spent every evening of the week in skimpy lingerie either sitting at my husband's feet or occasionally lying on the couch with my lips wrapped around his cock while he watched TV. Our whole dynamic changed, and most nights I couldn't wait to get home from work and change into my "sub" clothes.
No matter what Ethan made me do, pretty much every night ended with his face buried in my pussy as he rewarded me for being such a 'good girl'. We now had sex a once or twice a week instead of just once a month, but most evenings my husband left me spent and panting at his feet as he settled down on the couch still fully dressed in his suit and tie. My newfound hyper libido made me feel like a teenager again, except I wasn't sexually active when I was young.
Nonetheless, when it came to making decisions about finances, social plans, and other issues, Ethan treated me no differently than before. In fact, he seemed more amenable to some house remodeling that I'd wanted to do for a long time. We're a true team, and our new erotic games didn't disrupt that.
Keeping our sex life separate from the rest of our relationship proved vital to our marriage. After a few weeks with him in charge, my husband spanked me when I argued with him over some silly thing he told me to do. That clearly wouldn't work when we disagreed about bills or other nonsexual issues. My first spanking came as quite a shock, but I survived, and it led to all sorts of new and interesting interactions between us. I came to view Ethan punishing me as just another aspect of our new Dom/sub relationship.
It's not like Ethan wanted to abuse me. He'd seen enough violence in the war to last him a lifetime, and I don't think he even
liked
slapping my bare bottom. My husband just understood my need to be dominated sexually, and letting me get away with sassing him during 'sexy time' would ruin the whole Dom/sub dynamic that provided us so many opportunities to try new things.
On that fateful Friday evening, I don't even remember what I refused to do or why it seemed like a deal breaker. I do recall Ethan saying "Final warning", and then I remember him interrupting my next argument by tearing my G-string from my body. He did it so violently that one of the side strings snapped, and the other became so stretched out that the scrap of sheer polyester slid freely down my leg to the kitchen floor.
Then my husband spun me around and yanked my nightie top up over my head without pulling it from my arms. Forcing it down behind me, Ethan managed to trap my elbows behind my back, leaving me helpless to resist him. Before I knew it, he'd sat down on a kitchen chair with me sprawled across his lap.
Dazed and confused, I struggled to escape, but my husband easily held me with one arm across my back. I heard the wet smack of his hand striking my bottom before I felt it. I yelped in shock, but I stopped fighting.
I tried to crane my neck to look up at my husband, but the second sharp slap caused me to wince. I still attempted to get my arms free from my nightie, but I'd ceased squirming. The third time Ethans's palm landed on my bottom, the room became blurry as tears welled up in my eyes.
Something inside me broke at that moment, but not in a bad way. My will to resist drained from me completely, and I went limp before the next blow left my buttock jiggling. A thick tear rolled down my cheek and plopped on the hardwood floor below me, but it wasn't from sadness or anger.