This is based on my relationship with a women who is just out of my reach.
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“Eddy, you are a terrible person. Eddy you are a terrible person.” I keep repeating that to myself. Over and over again. What else could I be?
Fifteen minutes earlier I had walked into my office, and said, “Good morning and happy Friday,” to my new secretary, Jo. As I walked by, I noticed she didn’t greet me in return.
I set my briefcase down on my desk, glanced out the door to her desk and was surprised by what I saw. Jo was sitting there drying her eyes, trying to look composed. It wasn’t working. Her eyes were puffy and her face was flush. She looked like she had been crying for a long time.
I pulled some files out of my briefcase and set them on the corner of my desk, glancing again at Jo. I had hired Jo a few months before, and she was a great secretary. She never let me miss a meeting, except for the ones I wanted to miss, and then she would cover for me as long as I promised to bring her a Diet Pepsi. She prepared reports for me, screened my calls, and basically made my job easier.
The only drawback to having Jo as a secretary was that sometimes she made it hard to concentrate on work. She wasn’t a beauty queen, but at first glance it was obvious that she was special. And when you made her laugh, her smile was almost irresistible. When she walked past, her best asset was clear; she had the most perfect ass I had ever seen. It was tight, firm, and had no panty lines. I’d often sat and daydreamed about whether she wore a thong, or is she wore no panties at all.
But that day, as I watched her, I wasn’t thinking of her ass. I was worried about her, and why she was crying. Jo and I had never spent much time talking about our personnel lives. I figured it was best to stay as professional as possible with any woman that worked for me, especially one as sexy as Jo. I knew she was married, and that sometimes her husband, Greg, was total jerk. She knew I was divorced, and spent all my time working, and no time socializing. She once asked me why I didn’t date. In an unusual moment of honesty, I admitted that the way my ex-wife, Barb, left me was still fresh in my mind, and that even after three years, I couldn’t get over her and move on.
No one knows much about what had happened between Barb and I, and I’m glad. As the divisional manufacturing manager, I have to be a tough guy who is always stern, but fair. Any show of emotion would be seen as a sign of weakness, so I never show much emotion. I’m glad my guys didn’t know how Barb sat up in bed one morning and announced she was sleeping with an old friend, and that our marriage was over. She never said sorry. She never explained why. She was just packed and left that very day. And all I could do was sit and watch her go. I laid in bed without sleeping for two days afterward. Then I told myself I had work to do and went back to that office, ‘having recovered from my bout with the flu‘. Nobody asked how I was. Nobody asked about her. Anyone who sensed that I was hurting, never said a word to me.
In the last three years, I’ve learned to appreciate the peacefulness of living alone. But without a women in my life, my sex life dropped off the cliff. I often found myself masturbating in bed just to help me fall asleep. At first I would think about Barb while I did it, even though her memory was painful. But lately, the only thoughts in my head were of Jo and her perfect ass.
As I looked at Jo sitting at her desk, I was reminded of the way I had felt just a few years before. She was staring down at her keyboard, looking sweet and innocent, but obviously hurting. I watched her for a long time, mesmerized by her face. After what seemed like hours, she lifted her eyes and caught me staring at her. I quickly turned away, trying to hide my intrusion into her personnel sorrow. But I could feel her staring back at me. I slowly turned back toward her, and meet her sad stare with one of my own. As I gazed into her eyes, I began to feel warm and relaxed. Why would her sadness make me feel good? I was intrigued and needed to talk to her.
Without breaking the stare, I raised my hand and motioned her into my office. She got up and slowly walked toward me. As she reached my door, she stopped and turned around. She had forgotten her notepad, assuming that’s what I wanted her to take a memo or something. As she walked back to her desk to get it, my eyes fell to Jo’s perfect ass. As I stared at her ass, I realized that my cock was getting stiff. That’s what was making me feel good. Seeing her like this turned me on. As I thought about it, she picked up her notepad and turned back toward my office.
“Jo, please close the door.” I said. She closed the door as she entered my office and took a seat across from me. “Jo, I don’t need you to take a memo or anything.” I said. “What’s wrong, Jo? You were crying.”
“I’m sorry, Ed, it’s nothing.” she replied softly.
“It didn’t look like nothing. What’s wrong? Is it Greg again?” I asked.
She sat on the edge of her seat, looking at the floor. She was breathing deeply, trying to relax. I noticed her chest move in and out with every breath. Her breasts weren’t big, but they were the perfect size to cup in your hand and massage, which I often fantasized about. I guess you would call her breasts perky, especially for a women in her mid-thirties. The silky blouse she was wearing made them seem to stand out more than usual. With each deep breath the material slid lightly up and down over her nipples. As I sat staring at her chest, waiting for her to respond, I thought I could see her nipples begin to harden from the friction between her blouse and her bra.
“Yeah, it’s Greg,” she responded. Her voice jolted me out of my trance. My eyes shot back to her face. I was relieved to see she was still looking at the floor. I felt my cock getting very hard now. I hadn’t made myself cum in over a week, and now my cock reminded me that it felt neglected.
“We had a big fight last night,” she continued. “He left and didn’t come home. I waited for him all night. I’m worried something has happened to him.”
“Wow, I’m sorry to hear that,” I said. “Have you checked with the hospitals?”
“Yeah. I checked the hospitals, I called the police, I even called his Dad, but there’s no trace of him,” Jo said.
“Well, it’s mid-morning. Shouldn’t he be at work by now?” I asked.
“I suppose so. Should I call him and find out?” she said looking up at me finally.
“Tell you what, dial the number and I’ll ask for him. That way you won’t have to deal with talking to him right now while your so upset,” I replied.
Jo nodded, got up and walked around to my side of the desk and bent over to dial Greg’s office. Her perfect ass was at my eye level, just two feet from my nose. I studied it intently, looking for any sign of panty lines. Nothing. Her skin tight slacks showed the uninterrupted contours of each perfect cheek. The seam was about an inch up her crack. I just about came right there. If I had reached down and stroked my cock twice I know I would have cum.
Jo straightened up and handed the phone to me. I put it to my ear just in time to her, “Greg Holmes’ office, may I help you.” It was a young lady’s voice.
“Yes, Mr. Holmes please, this is Doug from his insurance company,” I stated. Jo let out a little smirk as she heard my line. I glanced up at her and smiled. I’m a pretty good liar when I need to be.