**Here goes my very first real experience submission... I'm nervous! :-) Names have been changed.**
I grew up in a small town as a very shy nerdy girl. The topic of sex made my cheeks turn bright red so I would literally run away from my friends trying to discuss it with or around me. My parents never gave me the birds and bees talk so anything I knew about sex came from dad's not-so-hidden porn mags.
After graduating high school I knew I had to go to a college far enough away from my family's tight grip on me so that I could relax. I was excited about living in a dorm 3 hours away from my parents and little brothers - I was about to begin a new chapter! But little did I know those first few days what I was really going to learn in the next 4 years.
As a freshman in my particular school they started socializing us from the very beginning. We were often taken as a freshman class and told to sit through a presentation or watch a band or we even had a class with a bunch of other freshman where we read and discussed a book. I just do not remember first meeting Dina.... I do remember that we became friends quickly and that we shared some common friends. She was so much fun! Much the opposite of me she was from NYC and was not at all shy! In the first weeks of knowing each other we often watched tv together, went to the cafe at night together, even had sleep overs in my room since my roommate stayed at her boyfriends all of the time.
I remember that Dina was very carefree and easy going. We would have deeper conversations sometimes and I remember once that we talked about bisexuality. I had no idea if I was or wasn't, how could I know? I knew the naked women in my dad's mags made me really wet but I never knew what to do about that. Was I bisexual? The convo that night led to sleep and uncertainty for me, although I wasn't bothered by it since I had no dates lined up male OR female. I was just shy, very single me and I was fine with that.
So... on with the night in question... Dina knocked on my door one evening as usual and asked if I wanted to take a purity test on the computer. They were very popular and silly and I was always the most pure in the room but I agreed. Not even 5 minutes after she had knocked on my door another knock was heard. I wasn't expecting anyone but Dina jumped up and answered the door. Her friend Roger was standing in the doorway and Dina asked my permission to have him hang out with us. I was fine with that so Dina introduced Roger and I to one another and I sat back down on the beanbag chair. When I looked back up toward my desk I saw that Dina was sitting on Roger's lap on the chair in front of my computer. I was a bit uncomfortable but we started taking the test and it was fine.
AGAIN I was the purist person with somewhere in the high 80 percent IF I fudged the answer to a couple of questions. Dina and Roger had much lower scores than me.
Then Dina looked at the clock and a tv show she liked was on so we turned on the television. Dina and Roger laid side by side on the bed now with their face facing the television and I was on the bean bag chair right beside them. This time I saw that there was a little touching involved on the bed so I'm sure I was flushed and I know I was feeling uncomfortable. I just wanted to run away! The touching was innocent enough... holding hands and rubbing non-sexual parts of the body....but I still wanted to hide.... what if it went further? Should I just leave? Then they started kissing... luckily it was only for a minute or two!
Not long after I started thinking about my exit plan I got my answer... Roger sat up and then got down onto the floor as Dina got on her knees on the bed and looked down at me. She extended her arm toward me and asked me to get on the bed with her so she could kiss me. She reached further for me but at this point I was red and my head was whirling. I was SO scared and uncomfortable that I said no...and that is not the answer Dina wanted.
Dina got up and bolted out the door. I slowly got up and sat on the bed as Roger kept trying to convince me to say yes once she came back. My head was still spinning!
Roger seemed to be really nice and he seemed very willing to let Dina help me explore my sexuality. (And YES, I was THAT naive...)