My Cfnm Journey Begins

At the core of my exhibitionism/CFNM fantasy is the feeling of being naked and embarrassed/humiliated in front of girls who are fully clothed. It makes me feel very weak and vulnerable yet extremely exciting at the same time.

I initially grew my interest in exhibitionism/CFNM from watching porn. But after some time, I couldn't stand anymore and decided to get bold and do something about it by living it out in real life. Of course, I can't just flash myself to an unsuspecting stranger and horrify them, or worse get caught by the police, so I had to find ways to do it safely, legally, without offending anyone. That was quite a challenge and I've had a long journey to get to where I am today. I still am trying hard to fulfill my fantasy but it's not easy.

Believe or not, I am a very polite, modest and respectful person in real life, so I don't do anything that may be too freaky or outright stupid to the other person. Hm... never mind, I've done stupid things in the name of CFNM lol

I'll tell you about my very first CFNM moment I still vividly remember today. My fantasy and desire to exhibit myself only grew as I immersed myself in CFNM porn and various stories on the internet five years ago. At that time, I watched a lot of CFNM videos around female doctors/nurses examining male patients with their pants down. That was such a turn on for me, an attractive professional touching and examining a hapless male patient. The doctor/nurse would put their gloves on, listen to the heartbeat of the patient, then move down and carefully examine the patient's penis and balls, asking him questions like "do you have any rashes or any concerns?". And when the patient's penis grows big, the doctor nonchalantly says it's normal and proceeds to examine it in her hands, stretching it and flipping it around for any anomalies.

With my heart still thumping, I looked for a local female doctor to do my physical exam. I wanted to find an attractive female doctor, so I browsed through the websites of various hospitals nearby that had profile pictures of their doctors. After some time, voila! I found my target, a young white female doctor in her early 30s. She had short hair and cute smile in her pic. Unfortunately, she was available a few weeks away, so I had to endure and learn to be patient until I went to see her. During that time, I was constantly thinking about what the encounter would be like and how she would react when she sees and examines my penis and balls. I think I was literally hard 24x7 during that time due to so much anticipation and excitement.

Finally the day of my physical exam came. When I arrived at the office and checked in, a nurse told me to get undressed and put on a gown she handed to me. I quickly got undressed, and before I put the gown on, I looked at the mirror on the wall. Before I knew it I already had a huge boner and precum was already leaking. I stroked myself couple times and let out an inaudible moan. I shouldn't be caught jerking off when the doctor comes in, so I restrained and put the gown on and sat down on the patient's table like a good patient. A few minutes later, the doctor came in. She was exactly as seen in her profile pic, short hair and very cute smile. My heart was pounding.

After introducing herself, the doctor said that she needs to check my blood pressure again because it was pretty high when the nurse checked it 5 minutes ago. I said OK but immediately blushed because I knew exactly why. I had absolutely no history of high blood pressure, but my heart had been pounding with growing anticipation even before I stepped into her office. When she was done checking, she confirmed it and said I need to check my blood pressure a few times everyday, monitor it for couple weeks and report back to her. I said OK, my cheeks still blushing from knowing the true cause.

After finishing other parts of the physical exam, she asked if I wanted her to examine my penis and testicles for any anomalies. I hesitated for couple seconds as if I wasn't sure (yeah right) and finally said sure, sheepishly. She told me to get closer to her stool and lift my gown up. As I proceeded, she put the gloves on. 'Just like the porn movies I watched!' thought to myself. Before I lifted my gown up, while her face was turned the other way to reach for the gloves, I quickly squeezed my penis over the gown and wiped away any precum that had been leaking, being afraid to give away any hint to the doctor that I am a pervert who had been waiting for this precious moment for 3 weeks.

I stepped closer to her stool, took a deep breath and lifted my gown up. At this point, my penis was only semi-erect and not fully erect perhaps due to being too nervous. The doctor's reaction was pretty chill and calm, nothing out of the ordinary. After all, I was sure she's seen them all.

She lifted my penis with her left hand and examined various parts with her naked eye. Mine is circumcised so it was rather simple and quick. I was super nervous and said "oh it's so embarrassing, I've never done this before." She paused and replied that she could stop if I wanted. Again, I hesitated for couple seconds as if I wasn't sure (yeah right) and said she can go on.

Then she used her right hand to cup my balls and started feeling around the nuts, rolling them from side to side, feeling for any bumps. That feeling was incredible, of her warm gloved-hands cupping and feeling around my nuts. It wasn't quite a testicle massage, but I would call it one anyways. The whole time, I looked down where her face was only inches away from my penis and her hands were busy examining. 'Just like the movies!' thought to myself and took ample photos of that scene in my memory to re-live later, as I often do.

When it was over, she told me to get dressed and left the office. Of course, I had to savor the moment and release all the tension that built up for 3 weeks. Facing the mirror on the wall, I self-examined my own penis, looking at the various parts she looked at and touching and feeling the nuts she "massaged". I was fully erect by then, and I imagined her continuing with her exam by asking me for a sperm sample just like the movies. In my imagination I obliged and she helped me by holding and squeezing my hard cock in her hands, feeling it around with her warm gloved-hands. Very soon I could not hold it any longer and shot my cum all over the mirror... When I was done, I could see my milky cum on the mirror, dripping all over...