My name is Maha and I live in Manchester, UK. I am an immigrant from Pakistan. I am now 23 and got married to my husband Adil last year.
My husband is a sales executive and travels a lot for work. He is usually away from home most of the week. Being a traditional Pakistani wife i took a lot of acre of my husband, fulfilling his needs putting himself before myself. I made a lot of effort to make him happy but always felt that he never loved me.
One day I was unpacking his bag after a recent trip and found an open condom wrapper. I thought about asking him but didn't, knowing he may get upset. So I convinced myself to let go of the incident that time. I was getting very frustrated with my life, my husband wasn't very affectionate and was out most of the week. I was living like a single woman with nothing to do. When my husband was around he was tired and was it interested in only having sex which was not even passionate and felt more like him satisfying his biological need.
One day I told him that I wanted to work and have applied for a job in a clothing store just outside Manchester. He was a bit hesitant but I insisted telling him that he was not there most of the week and I had nothing to do.
He gave me permission but i knew it was not with a good faith. He was a conservative and controlling man always keeping eye on how I dress who I meet etc. I moved from Pakistan to here after getting married and had much more freedom in the way I dressed and who I met back home. This man had taken away all that, I wanted some freedom and wanted to feel alive again. I was also well educated and was only doing this job at garments store for flexible timings. With a degree in finance I could have gotten an even better job than my husband but he was very traditional and conservative. Not all Pakistani men are like that but it was my bad luck.
I started my job and the first day he told me to fully cover myself and that I should not talk to men. I didn't argue, he would let me wear pants and shirts when I usually went out but since he didn't want me to work he was being rigid. I reached work and found that the store was very well done in terms of its interior and design, all the female staff was wearing dresses from the same brand, the dresses were short and fashionable.
The store manager Alex met me in the back office, he was very polite and told me that since the nature of work is such, I would have to wear something from the brand we are selling. I understood his point and it was not like I was wearing what I was by choice. He was kind enough to give me a week to get comfortable with the idea.
I went back and was thinking about this, a day before the deadline I thought that i will discuss it with my husband. He came back from his trip at noon. I was unpacking when I found a woman's panty, on close inspection, it was not mine and the insides had white stains. I was disgusted, my husband was cheating on me and here I was making every decision of life based on his will. I decided I will leave him but I had to first establish a source of income to be comfortable. I was so pissed off that I didn't even discuss the issue at work and made a decision myself.
The next day I went to Alex and told him that I will wear the brand clothing but will come to work in the clothing I have and change at work. He was happy to hear that, he was also very happy with my performance during the first week. I was really putting an effort into this and this was my way out. The next day I went to a salon for a facial, got my nails done, got my body fully waxed including the full bikini area and topped it all up with a massage. I had a decent sum of money from my parents and used that for the expenses. The next day I got to work and asked Anna, a sales assistant to help in picking up a dress. She brought me a red dress size 8, I don't want to brag but I have a great body and have a good height with long legs. With all spare time at home I used to exercise and had maintained an excellent figure. Anna also gave me a pair of red heels. I went in the changing room and after a few minutes, came out.