As I have shared in the past I am an exhibitionist at heart. I am too the point that it is actually an addiction that I probably should seek therapy for but for now I am going to just accept it as part of my life and if it ever begins to impact my life negatively I can address it then. For now I am going to continue to indulge it and one way that I have been able to continue to enjoy my exhibitionist ways is to share it on Literotica. This was not my idea actually but was my fiancé's idea as he is quite aware of my obsession and very supportive of it. He himself has enjoyed my addiction on many occasions and I look forward to sharing how I found my soul mate and how he has come to love me for who I am. For now I want to continue to share my past and continue to share my college years.
I shared a story of how my roommates Becky and Joy were very supportive and welcoming of my exhibitionist ways. At first I was not entirely certain that they would be entirely supportive but little by little I was reassured that they loved me for who I am and that they might not exactly indulge in my lifestyle on a daily basis they were not oppose to the idea either. Especially when alcohol was involved.
One thing about being an exhibitionist is that I never want clothes on. Now the problem with this is that you can't exactly get away with that all the time. Also I found that I don't enjoy exposing myself that much if I am doing it so overtly that you just become a nude person. That is hard to explain but I like the idea of the tease, the forbidden glimpse, or at least exposing yourself in a way that is not expected or bold.
When I am looking to expose myself in daily life I want it to be coy. But let's say you are on a nude beach where everyone is nude. This does nothing for me just being there with everyone else. So I have to elevate the experience by lying on my stomach with my legs spread so you can see my pussy from behind. Sitting in a short beach chair leaning back with my legs spread so my pussy is completely exposed but just acting nonchalant as I read a magazine as if I am just sitting in the most comfortable way possible without a thought about how I might be exposing myself. Or my all-time favorite, lying on my side with my head propped up on my elbow. One leg pulled up a bit closer to my chest the other one to help expose my pussy better from behind. Then slightly put my back in a slight arch so my lips are exposed further.
As I lie there like this on the beach reading and relaxing I rest one arm on my hip with wrist dangling down a little to my behind. I very lightly and absent mindedly pet my pussy lips from behind. Nothing overtly sexual. No penetrating or spreading my lips at all. Just lightly feeling how smooth they are. Of course I know that the guy on the beach about 20ft. from me is watching. But I don't let him know that I know. I have many beach stories to share. I will do that in another story because right now I want to share about how the first time my exposing myself lead to me fucking my victim.
Ok, back to wanting to be nude all the time. As I shared before I was blessed with a very nice body. I am about 5'6" tall and weighed about 110 in my first years of college. I gained some weight and left college a bit curvy at 130lbs and it was at that time that I vowed I will never let myself get out of shape again. I am now turning 29 on the 4th of July and I weigh typically between 118-120lbs. I work out almost daily to keep my body and weight right where I want it to be by running, doing yoga, and some weight training. I am not bulky at all but I am very toned and have a very nice tight firm ass that is not exactly curvy but does fill out my True Religions very nicely. I have blonde hair that comes down to my shoulder blades that I like to wear up in a ponytail most of the time unless I am working out.
One very special thing about my body, well I think it is very special and for my exhibitionist side it is very important is that my pussy is very visible from behind. My legs are toned of course and there is a nice gab between my thighs which makes it very easy to see my pussy from behind when I am laying down on my stomach. Even when I have my legs together and I am laying down you can easily see my pussy lips between my legs and ass cheeks. If I arch my back even the slightest they become very clearly visible from behind. I LOVE THIS!
I did not know my pussy was so visible from behind until an old boyfriend said something and then we took a bunch of pictures of me in various stages or bending and arching and lying down. I now have a completely perfect mental image of how my pussy is exposed depending on how I am laying or bending. This is very important for the games I like to play. Remember that little visual I gave about the beach and lying on my side playing with my lips? Now you know why that works so well and why I love it so much! I know, all this detail and you are probably getting antsy wanting me to get to the good stuff so here we go.
As I said I want to be nude all the time but that just does not work out well. So what I do now is that I am always in one of 3 types of outfits when it is in the evening now around my house. I am either in just a silk robe if I am going to shower or it is in the morning, in a pair of loose fitting shorts and a wife beater that you can clearly see the outlines of my nipples through or I am in an oversized t-shirt with nothing on under it. Oh, I NEVER WEAR PANTIES. The only time I wear them is if I am wearing a pair of jeans that are just too rough or that damn seam that runs through the crotch is sewn weird and it pokes up against my lips uncomfortably. Then I wear a thong. If I am on my period it is the same. Oh well, if you are one of my victims and you see a string what can I say? You also got to see a hot pussy too so suck it up. Thanks to the Mirena I don't have that problem anymore so it is no longer a concern. Back in college I was either in the wife beater shorts combo or the large T-Shirt. The large T-Shirt actually started in college when Becky's boyfriend left one of his T-Shirts in our room. I was just out of the shower and had a towel around my hair and needed to go down the hall to get my blower drying back from Tess who was the biggest pain in the ass prude. Anyway, I saw his shirt there and I grabbed it and pulled it on. It came down to literally just below my ass cheeks. If you had any angle to look at me other than from looking directly down you saw ass cheek from behind and smooth pussy from the front. You did not even have to be below me trying to look you would be able to see. I fell in love with this shirt.
So I had the shirt on and I went down to get the hairdryer from Tess. She opened the door and looked at me and immediately knew what I wanted. Like I said, she is a pill so she just grabbed it said sorry and handed it to me. I don't think she even noticed what I had on. I went back to my room to find out that the door was locked. If anyone has ever lived in a dorm then you know the doors auto lock on you and mine did just that. I know it sounds too cliché for my stories but it is the truth.
Becky and Joy were gone until 3. It was only 10am. I had class at noon. Had to get into the room so I went to the building RA to get a key to get in. Our floor had a female RA but she was not there so I went downstairs to see if the building RA was in. His name was Shane and he was a graduate student making him a few years older than me. Luckily he was in.
Shane was a good looking guy. I was only 19 at this time and he was 24 I think. He was tall about 6'3" and he had played lacrosse for the school providing him with very nice physique. Not real bulky but very toned and defined. Have you ever seen the movie Crazy Stupid Love? He was built similar to Ryan Gosling in that movie.
Now to get to Shane's room was fun in itself. I went down the south stairs and in doing so this meant that I had to walk along the entire length of the hallway of the first floor rooms, then by the community room and on the other side of the lobby was where his room was. It was basically across from the Lobby room but on a slight angle. The first hallway was no big deal. Nobody was even in the hallway which was a bit of a disappointment but as I passed the community room there were a few guys and a girl sitting at a table. I knew one of the guys from class and the girl lived on my floor. As I walked by Kim waived and gave me a funny look. I walked over to the table she was at and did the hands out palms up thing you do where you hunch your shoulders up to say "I don't know" and said "I locked myself out of my room".
Now I was not even thinking about what I had just done. It was completely unplanned and for me it was such a turn on because of that very fact. I had no idea that in the process of raising my shoulders I had actually raised the bottom of the shirt up a good 2-3 inches. As I said the shirt barely covered my ass and pussy so when this happened my pussy was exposed to them ever so briefly and I realized what I had just done when the guy I did not know to her right got this surprised look on his face. Ever see those movies when a guy sees a pair of tits and he is frozen still? Yeah, that happened to him. Kim noticed too and she actually had a look of shock on her face almost like she was scared for me. Once I saw their faces I knew that I had just showed them my fresh out of the shower baby smooth pussy.
"I went to get my hair dryer from Tess" I said holding it up to show them, "and locked myself out of the room. Becky and Joy won't be back until this afternoon so I am going to see if Shane can let me in."
Kim just looked confused and said "Oh". Paralyzed guy was still paralyzed and the guy I knew from class who, had his back to me, just kept reading his Economics book and never looked up.
"Catch you guys later." I spun around knowing my shirt would rise a little bit and started to walk away when I heard footsteps coming up from behind me.
"Jessie! Wait." Kim said as she caught up to me.
I stopped and she came around in front of me and got close to tell me something in confidence. I had been walking away from them so my back was to the table with shocked guy and the geek as she talked to me.
"Jessie I don't want to embarrass you but when you walked over to us your shirt rose up and we could see you did not have anything on underneath your shirt."
