It was not my intention, but I have no regrets with you. Maybe we both had an unspoken desire. An unconscious want.
A dark hunger that needed satiation.
I am glad we were not found until late morning the next day. I love how your breath felt on my skin as you touched me in the stacks. I crave you now even more though I still do not know your name. You are my Anonymous.
I had seen you in the library many times before last night. Deep in the dark reaches of the library, where the knowledge slumbers peacefully. And those in need of solitude to study like I did.
Your touch taught me more than I could ever realize I was missing. You read me selections of Sappho of Lesbos. Marquis de Sade. Leopold von Sacher-Masoch. Chevoque. Vatsayana. Syang's No Ci and Nua (e com tesão) em BrasÃlia. You spoke to me softly. Gently. Firmly. In English, Spanish. Portuguese. French. German.
Your mind and tongue both so exquisite and comforting. I only imagined in fantasies how one could make my body feel. You opened me. You broadened me. You expanded me. So many, many ways than one.
You took my hand in yours that night and told me it would be alright. When I gazed into your eyes I saw the truth. You made me safe. You taught me the meaning of safe word. You took this virgin mind and made it metamorphose into an experienced woman. You told me virginity and purity are artificial constructs.
You gave me such pleasure and held me close as I came on your hand. And came. And came. And came. And came until I was too weak to stand and you laid me upon your body to rest.
Just thinking about last night makes me so very wet. My nipples still tingle. My legs go weak. My mind beings to phase into the images you told me in my ear. Whispering. Telling me that I was so very obedient. Even though you knew I was so very afraid. You calmed me and rewarded me.
You made me feel certain in being a word-whore. A sensory-slut. Feeling my naked body pressed against the cool glass of the top floor windows exposed for anyone to see that night.