I used be a straight forward and very normal man. I used to have a straight forward sex life and straight forward relations with women and I'm not sure what happened to me or when exactly things changed but change they did. By the time that my relationship with Linda began I was already obsessed with, what I suppose you would call a cuckold fantasy. In my most secret thoughts I would dream of a wife that wanted sex with, and had sex with other men. And I wanted to be a witness to it. I wanted to be right there, in the room, watching, and masturbating over it. And yet I wanted my fantasy wife to be shy and reserved and really not the type to do such things. I wanted her to be prim and very proper, to be innocent, pure and lovely.
In my dreams she would be the most respectable suburban housewife, very comfortable and safe, and yet she would also be willing and capable of providing me with the most erotic homemade pornography imaginable by having sexual intercourse with other men openly in front of me. By the time that I met Linda my little fantasy had become quite deep rooted but it remained undercover. It was my shameful secret.
I wonder now if Linda knew back then what I was really like. Perhaps she has always been able to sense how I am, at least at a subconscious level because she turned out to be exactly the kind of wife that I had been dreaming about. It seems strange to think about it now but she, quite literally is the girl of my dreams. Certainly the age difference between us is something that Linda is happy with. I do feel as though I am some kind of father figure to her and she's often saying how she likes my being so much older than her. In any case we feel very comfortable together and we've been married now for just over a year.
It wasn't very long after the wedding before the question of the fidelity of our marriage became a talking point between the two of us. It started a few months after we got married with a conversation that we had over dinner about the problems that we might face because of the age difference between us. Linda is twenty six and I am fifty three so there's a good twenty seven years to consider. We talked about how we might turn any difficulties into opportunities and about how we should focus on the positive aspects in our relationship so that the age difference became something that we could enjoy and feel good about. There was a slightly suggestive tone to the conversation but yet we both held back from mentioning the possibility of other men. I remember as we sat at the dining table talking it through that I really wanted to bring up the subject of other men and yet, at the same time I felt incredibly anxious about it and still wasn't quite sure how she might react if I exposed my fantasy to her.
It churned away in my mind for a few hours and then we went to bed. And it was while we lay in bed that the suggestion first emerged. We were both staring at the ceiling in silence and then, after a few minutes had passed the question. "Other men?" suddenly came to my lips. It was as though the question was hanging in the air just waiting to be plucked. So I'd plucked it.
"Yes." Linda replied in her soft, hushed voice. "Oh yes." She added. And I wondered to myself about the sanity of what was happening. I felt a little confused and a little anxious and at the same time I had an erection that was harder than I'd ever known. I couldn't help but touch myself and soon we were both masturbating. At first nothing more was said but then, and whilst we continued masturbating we began to have a conversation about how it might be. We pondered on how it would feel to have a young man with us in the bedroom and about how we all might enjoy the intimacy that would unfold. We discussed how I would be positioned at the side of the bed watching and we talked about how erotic it would feel and how we would all be naked and then Linda said. "You should present me to him." I groaned at her stimulating suggestion. "I want you to give me to him." She added.
I knew then that Linda had a fantasy that complimented my own in a way that was just incredible. She was tremendously aroused by the thought of my offering her body to another man. She explained more fully how my being older was the key thing for her and that the thought of my watching it all would make her feel kinky and wanton. It excited her to think of me watching and masturbating while another man enjoyed her lovely young body and it aroused her to think of me offering her. So over the next few months we explored the idea further. Almost every night we would masturbate about it and talk it through. We discussed how we might meet the right kind of young man and we talked about how he would need to be a stranger and how it would need to feel very comfortable and also how it would need to be very secret.
One day we went into town to do some shopping and popped into our favourite coffee shop and it was there that we met Simon. He happened to sit at the table next to us and after a short while he made to phone call to friend. He wasn't talking especially loud but we did manage to hear enough of his conversation to work out that he had just started three months of some kind of consultation work at a nearby gym and was looking for lodgings that would cover that amount of time. I remember him saying to his friend how he wanted to avoid renting an expensive place on his own as it really was only going to be three months of work before he was off to the next contract. I looked at Linda knowing that she could also hear what the young man was saying and she looked back at me with her eyes shining and then she bit her lip in a way that often does when she's slightly nervous. I leant across to whisper to her and asked if we should take in a lodger and she didn't hesitate. She nodded in agreement just as the young man ended his call. My heart was pounding and I had to take a moment to compose myself before I did what I knew I must.