When I woke up the next morning to my disappointment the bed next to me was empty. I was till naked though and at least I had the memory's of a fun night and $200.
The rest of the weekend went pretty normally. Emily and Levi spent as much time as possible either in his room or out of the house. My parents kept to their usual Saturday and Sunday schedule. And as for me. I spent as much time in my room naked and thinking about what happened Friday night. What would have happened if they took advantage of me? What would have happened if Emily wasn't there to save me from that store employee? What would have happened that first time I walked through the neighborhood naked? That man in the truck had chased me halfway home yelling about how he was gonna fuck me senseless.
In those moments I had been scared shitless about what could happen to me. But now alone in my room teasing my naked clit for hours on end, those situations were undoubtedly making my so fucking horny. I came to a decision that I knew I needed Emily's help with.
Sunday night after my brother had left to return to school. Emily sat with me on my bed talking about life. I was of course naked and soon enough the conversation turned to sex and I recounted everything that had happened to me on Friday night. The moment felt right and I decided to make my request now.
Me: "Emily, I want to make a request. It's gonna sound insane though. Promise me that you won't throw me into a mental institution or something."
Emily: "Of course not babe. You know there is nothing you can say that will scare me."
Me: "Okay I've been thinking about all the bad things that could have happened to me on my adventures. And even though they were scare at the time, I get so horny just thinking about it."
Emily: "Okay what are you asking for then?"
Me: "I want you to help make the worst case scenario happen to me."
Emily: "Okay I think I understand what you're saying, but that is major so you're gonna have to put it in plain words what you want."
Me: "I am consenting to your finding someone to take advantage of my while I'm doing one of your adventures at some point in the future."
Emily: "Again I think I know what you want, but I want to hear you say exactly what you want. No more beating around the bush."
I took a deep breath and just let it out.
Me: "I am consenting for you to set me up to be raped on an adventure you send me on. I want to be taken whether I want to be or not. I'm consenting to letting you find a man to use me in any way he wants. However long he wants. Wherever he wants. For him not to care if I fight back or try to run. For him to hunt me down and fuck the shut out of me. I need to know what it feels like. I need to know what it feels like to be totally out of control and unable to resist."
There was a long pause after I finished speaking as Emily took in the gravity of what I was saying. One the silence broke it was only one work that escaped her sinister lips
Emily: "Done."